My brain is so full of assholes!
It's got the judge, the jury and the attorney,
And it's got the critic,
It's got that guy in the back of the room who says "fuck u loser, u should die!!!"
The guy who says "Eat more Sugar!", even if you are diabetic
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To "Eat more bread motherFucker!", even if you've had dinner!!!
Its got every fucker except the one who asks you to love your fucking life!!!
I just have to fuck them up for good, man!
Or i'd have to just kill myself; so that they would die too!

My guy friend, Bryan, texted our group chat with me and Jen. He sent the bill for how much we owe him from yesterday's hangout. We had a brief playful conversation. Suddenly, he texted something I was so shocked by. It came out of nowhere.
The message is, "Also I wanted to thank you guys for the graduation presents and coming out for a good time last night, but sometimes I felt excluded. There was a lot of talk about men, their [bananas], and [S 3 X] like during bowling lol. I'm cool with some convo about a partner, seeing someone, etc since I talk about women sometimes. I'd like less though. I'm fine coming later when we hang out to give you both more time to chat about men if you want. I want to maintain our friendship and I'm not upset, but thought I'd share how I feel and move forward without hard feelings from either side."
I'm pissed. This is who I am. As a good friend, I don't understand why he wouldn't want to listen when I'm happy with my new man. It's normal for close friends to be sharing stuff about their [S 3 X] life. I can't believe he doesn't want to hear it. Him asking us to talk about this less is like he's forcing us to be people we aren't. Friends should be comfortable talking about anything they want. Being close with people means you don't need to filter yourself. It should be fun! He's basically implying we should talk about other topics and not men. Also if it was a problem why didn't he think of more topics to talk about while we chatted about men then? I'm mad and want to say all of this to him. Honestly, I feel like he's being like other guys who get jealous when women talk about men. I've known him for about a year and never thought he was like that, but this message goes to show that he's no different. I just find the message to be unnecessary and uncalled for. I also think he's being a bit sensitive. It honestly wasn't a big deal.

My brain is so full of assholes!
It's got the judge, the jury and the attorney,
And it's got the critic,
It's got that guy in the back of the room who says "fuck u loser, u should die!!!"
The guy who says "Eat more Sugar!", even if you are diabetic
&
To "Eat more bread motherFucker!", even if you've had dinner!!!
Its got every fucker except the one who asks you to love your fucking life!!!
I just have to fuck them up for good, man!
Or i'd have to just kill myself; so that they would die too!

I’m 22 and I have never had a sip of alcohol in my life. My dad has always been on and off drinking all his life. He started being an alcoholic after my parents got divorce and most recently my sister left the house because he did not like the fact she had a boyfriend and didn’t get to see much of him.
I just graduated college a couple of weeks ago and I just got home from a party at my gf’s house. I come in and there he is drunk again and you can just see the disgust on my step mothers face. She set up my entire party by herself and I couldn’t be anymore grateful about her. He got in a small argument with her because she doesn’t let him grill some meat around 2am. Keep in mind he is stumbling and visually drunk. He comes back to the kitchen and asks me about life and repeats each question at least 3 times because he forgets.
I am basically writing this post in order to have a good relationship with my dad and to help me think about my situation vividly. Thank you all who read.

My entire life, I've always been so unlikable. Even in some of my earliest memories as a child, I had friends but they only were my friends due to the things I had. I would never be invited to birthdays, or have play dates at friends houses that weren’t my moms friends. I never knew why people didn’t like me, why they would go out of their way to avoid me. I thought this feeling would go away one day, and that everybody just feels as though they don’t fit in anywhere as a kid. As I got older the feeling never really went away, if anything it got worse. It’s like I’ve always been a magnetic of opposite attraction. The feeling, It’s never gone away, it’s never gotten better, I’ve never felt like I belong anywhere in this life. These days I don’t have anybody, I have few close friends who I am still in contact with. Majority of my “Circle” are merely just my ex’s, friends with benefit or people who use me for support. I just wish I knew what it was like to connect with somebody, I wish I knew what it was like to have a group of friends, to have homies you know got your back. I don’t know why everybody hates me so much, I don’t know why everybody thinks I’m weird or if that’s even what they think, I try so hard but not in a pick-me kind of way. What’s wrong with me, I just want people in my life who actually want me around. I’m so sick of being alone, I don’t want to be alone anymore. It’s been years. Am I too unusual to be a friend? A lover? A ‘brother’? Why does everybody that I love always leave me when I need them the most, I just want to be good enough for anybody.

As the title states I'm considering buying the Lenovo Yoga 7i or the Lenovo Yoga 6. Currently the price difference between the two is $52, with the 7i being more expensive. The 7i has a slightly higher resolution screen, also slightly larger at 14" vs 13.3" on the yoga 6. The 7i also has a 512gb SSD vs. the 256gb in the yoga 6. The biggest thing I'm hung up on is how the ryzen 5 7530u with integrated radeon graphics comapres to the intel i5 1335u with intel XE graphics. The laptop will primary be for media consumption, however, I do play some games (very old titles that are not all that demanding). Unfortunately I couldn't find a lot of solid data on how these two platforms stack up to one another. For $52, having the 14" higher resolution screen and extra storage space seems like a no brainer, but if the intel CPU is going to lag behind the Ryzen, it may not be worth the additional money for me.
The first is this: https://www.bestbuy.com/site/lenovo-yoga-7i-2-in-1-14-2-2k-laptop-intel-evo-platform-intel-core-i5-1335u-with-8gb-memory-512gb-ssd-storm-grey/6533957.p?skuId=6533957
The second is this: https://www.bestbuy.com/site/lenovo-yoga-6-2-in-1-13-3-wuxga-1920-x-1200-touch-laptop-ryzen-5-7530u-with-8gb-memory-256gb-ssd-dark-teal/6533955.p?skuId=6533955

I (25 afab) will be the first to admit that I have been toxic in the past. Several of my past relationships were riddled with toxicity on both sides of the relationship, both myself and the other party. I am honest about that because we don’t grow by hiding who/how we used to be. I have spent the last several years in therapy and doing deep soul searching, I’ve unlearned toxic behaviors and learned how to communicate in a healthy manner. I’m proud of how far I’ve come. I can still be incredibly toxic towards myself but I’m working on that. Learning to love yourself is hard, man.
Now to the issue: my fiancé (23M) will make comments about me being toxic but will never outright say it nor will he explain how I am. It’ll go something like: Me: I used to be toxic Fiancé: Used to be? Me: Have I been toxic to you? I’m sorry, what have I done so I don’t do it in the future? Fiancé: No, you’re not toxic.
Like… wat? 🙃 WTF is that supposed to mean? Why tf would you say that just to follow it up with the exact opposite? I usually just drop it after that because I just really don’t know what to say.
He and I don’t really fight either, hell we don’t even bicker. I couldn’t tell you the last time we actually argued about anything. When there’s conflict we just talk it out or walk away, cool down, THEN talk it out. Our relationship is honestly amazing but this really gets to me. He says it all the time. I’ve talked to my therapist, my friends, his friends, our friends, our families, our roommates, anyone who sees our relationship from the outside and all of them have said that the only person I’m EVER toxic to is myself. And maybe that’s what he’s talking about but he won’t ever explain what he means. I feel like I’m an awful partner because of this. I am constantly riddled with anxiety because of my past relationships and how I was and was treated and I don’t want to be that person. I don’t want to be treated that way again. Idk I feel kinda crazy.
Idk how to bring this up to him either. Any advice on how I could talk to him about this would be appreciated. If you have any questions I’ll answer them.

Hi,
I'm looking to buy a set of lights that are controlled via sound -- similar to what you'd see on a live music performance. The caveat is that the sound is going to be in my headphones, and inaudible in the room I'm in.
I'm assuming most of these devices would have to audibly hear the audio and produces light effects based on that.
Are there any that can link up via bluetooth or similar to detect the sound?
For specifics, I am playing drums with audio in via bluetooth (from my phone) which then passes the audio to my desktop over USB. Ideally the 'listener' would be on my PC, as I could have it latch on to the USB audio in and create effects off of that.
What kind of devices are out there that might suit my need?
Thanks so much!

My brain is so full of assholes!
It's got the judge, the jury and the attorney,
And it's got the critic,
It's got that guy in the back of the room who says "fuck u loser, u should die!!!"
The guy who says "Eat more Sugar!", even if you are diabetic
&
To "Eat more bread motherFucker!", even if you've had dinner!!!
Its got every fucker except the one who asks you to love your fucking life!!!
I just have to fuck them up for good, man!
Or i'd have to just kill myself; so that they would die too!

I just realized that Pela will be the first 4 star character to on the banner twice in 1.1. She was on Seele's banner and will be on Loucha's. Why can't we have somebody else who has not been on the banner like Sampo or Arlan?

Today I’m building the starting platforms to begin documenting my journey towards becoming a Unity Developer. I plan to begin my first Pathway in a few days.
I aim for many goals. Mainly I want to create something unique and worth the build that many will find intrigues their interests.
The stepping stones are now laid. I look forward to the journey and the excitement for anyone who follows and joins me.
Let the new found wealth begin

I started D2 on PS4, then linked it to my Steam when it went free-to-play.
I later came back to it on steam in 2021 and ran into a bug where the game attempts to sign in and then presents this message with no error code: https://imgur.com/t4H3mFE (I can't even screenshot it in the game itself because I cant access the settings menu)
I just installed D2 today on a new pc and ran into the exact same problem. I've tried unlinking my Bungie account from the PSN, I've tried the "sound settings to default" trick I've seen here multiple times, and of course I've done all the basics of verifying integrity, checking firewall, and server downs. I'm still stuck. There's no way both my old and new pc's had some same obscure driver issue.
Does anyone know any tricks I haven't tried? Is there a way to flat out delete my old account and start fresh on steam?

I was looking into trade work in the arts, but here’s the thing
I like movies and plays are cool, but I really don’t have a HUGE interest or background in that kind of stuff (except for a year of theater in high school). Is that a huge deal or do a lot of folks work as a stagehand, lighting tech etc without being to invested in film and the arts

As well as observation determines particle characteristics, the public eye on the person dictates how an individual is realized based on predetermined expectations. Therefore, retreating into solitude can be seen as a way to rescue oneself, much like Schrödinger's cat is spared while not in sight.
When society unlocks the sacred box, it anticipates that the cat will either be alive, conforming to society's expected form and content, or dead. In either of these two conceivable outcomes, the genuine essence of who you are is guaranteed to be lifeless.
Now, never forget that the box, the cat, the quantum, etc. - are just metaphors to simplify the perception of the actual model. In fact, in a really infinite world, the cat in the box is much bigger than the whole of Schrödinger's gang watching it. That's because it's in superposition. Because solitude is an infinite possibility.

Hi everyone! First time poster anywhere in reddit, and on my phone, and English no my native language so sorry for any formatting issues.
I (30F) turned 30 two weeks ago, and want to take control of who I am and finally quit. I quit once before during covid and lockdown was so helpful because once I got rid of all of my tobacco the effort to get more was so high that I just didn't, and I didn't have any of my social circles of smokers to make it hard. I was clean for about a year and a half, before some trauma got me started again. Since then it's been the well known cycle of smoking, hating myself for it, quitting for a day or two, and going right back to it.
Well I just turned 30 and decided to stop. It's been approximately 12 hours, and I haven't been to work yet which is going to be incredibly difficult, but I really want this.
Any tips? Apps? Suggestions? I'm scared of failing, and the more I fail the more quitting again becomes hard

Educated and diverse. Funny and genuine. Maybe a catch? Who knows. I just try to be myself. I have a successful career and enjoy adulting most days. Looking for my match!
Interests:

• sports
• concerts -comedians
• science
• anything outdoors -gardening -home projects
• reading, movies and tv
• trivia
• politics
• history

Looking for: Long term connection with someone who keeps in touch regularly and can function successfully in a normal society.
PS: I do not like direct messages. Chat is preferred.

I noticed a bad pattern. When I have a discussion with a friend (who knows me and my problematic behavior really well), he gets very analytical and explains me what's not okay about my behavoir (e.g. in situations where I've been manipulative, dishonest, egoistic). I usually understand that he is right, but only after a very long time of defending myself desperately and being unable to admit things because my brain only focuses on why he cannot be right. The feeling of being rejected is so strong that I instantly panic and try to talk myself out of the situation with all the means I have. I think it's because my well-being depends so much on whether or not I feel liked by others, especially by him because I care so much about him. He is my hero, without him I wouldn't have the tiniest bit of self-awareness today.
But he says these things in a very reproachful and often angry way. Which I can totally understand, given how frustrating it can be to be with me. Other people avoid me, whereas he takes the time to try to change me. But I unconsciously throw away all of my self-awareness when I feel so judged.
Instead, when I watch a video of someone like Dr. Ettensohn, I have a strong awareness of being a narcissist, and I admit the worst things to myself. I can draw conclusions, I see patterns, I even understand to some extent where they come from. That's because I get the vibe that Dr. Ettensohn is very compassionate (even though, of course, he wants you to change toward a healthier behavior). He sees your problematic behaviors as dysfunctions and deficits which you can slowly learn to improve. I don't feel judged and hated, but safe and understood which makes me be open and honest to myself.
One of the core problems of NPD is that you depend so much on how others see you. Shame and other feelings related to feeling rejected get so strong that your perception plays extreme tricks. For me, it goes so far that my brain represses memories from one day to another. But I need to change urgently.
I want to be the kind of person I am while watching Dr. Ettensohn videos, even when the other person is judging me heavily. How can I maintain that self-awareness without throwing it away when I feel rejected?

I'm not on a laptop now and just on phone so please forgive typos. If I miss something I'll add it later. L
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I'm not the only one who uses astral projection/OBE to visit other places and gain information beyond our physical brains. Anne Varnes wrote a book on how she won big Lotto prize by seeing the numbers in a news paper in the Akhashic records and she also astral projected to the moon and saw a base there with some men and 1 woman inside the moon base.
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I learned astral projection from Robert Monroe in his book the Ultimate Journey. Robert brought back some psychic abilities from the astral projecting he did and so did I. Robert one day fell down stairs in his home and was caught by a psychic cushion that prevented him from face planting. The CIA uses Robert Monroe's Gateway/Hemi-sync which they bought from the Monroe institute he founded. They use it to train psychic spies. It's how they're often able to precision know Russian war ship or other Russian positions to help Ukraine. The Air force soldiers get trained in this and CIA has pdf declassified documents of this. Air force soldier selected for remote viewing test is already able to tell the top ranking Air Force guys their name and everything about the test right when he meets them, and he surprises them because he already remote viewed into the future the night before and saw everything abot them and test they give. US is always 50 years ahead of any tech including Metaphysical/Multidimensional tech.
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My Astral projections gave me some interesting psychic abilities. A random thought will come to me and that thought becomes true. Example someone is about to knock my door and a thought of someone knocking my door comes to me and a few seconds or minutes later someone does. Same with when someone is about to call me, I'll think of them.
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I myself also used astral projection to win lottery a few times and not millions but in hundreds of thousands and I bought a house and nice car. I've won two large prizes and people in my state wonder how I do it. I've also won lots of smaller thousand dollar prizes. Something about the Astral projection also keeps me youthful. I'm 37 and I still look and feel like I did in 2003 when I had my first epic OBE. There's a psychic challenge in California that I plan to participate in, they offer $250k for proof of the paranormal. During test I'll be telling them something located in room next door when I astral project and see what it is.
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Here's pic of me to show you proof I'm smooth and youthful at age 37. I believe AP has an affect on the body at the cellular level.
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Fyi I've learned from Akhashic records that the Octopus , squid and another wild earth living creature (Forgotten which) are of alien origin. They arrived here with advanced Alien intelligent beings in the distant past. God used to allow Alien civilizations to come to Earth in the past but has since barred them from coming so man can have own evolution to those kinds of techs the Aliens use.
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Egyptian Pyramids were built by an Alien race that has advanced space travel capabilities using special elements not found on Earth. Their home world looks a lot like ancient Egypt, green and rivers and Pyramids all over the place. There's over 500 advanced Alien intelligent life and they've all evolved past the need to eat meat or plant material to sustain themselves. They draw their sustaining energy directly from Gods infinite living light energy.
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Fyi guys I've also learned that our physical Universe and its laws of physics don't just occur by coincidence. God is very advanced in mathematics and powers man hasn't grasped yet. If the electron didn't orbit the nucleus in the atom at approximately 6,000 mph there wouldn't be any large matter like humans. There's more proof of Alien being or God being creating our universe. The universal constant is also fine tuned. Universal constant is so fine tuned that it's the equivalence of hitting a small target 🎯 on earth with a dart launched from space. Our Universe is too fine tuned for it to be coincidence.
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Our consciousness is made of a special living light particle that is also part of Gods own living light. I learned in the Akhashic record that the photon is directly from God. During a high energy event space/time micro tears releasing the Photon from Gods own infinite living light.
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Ever noticed on a sunny day you feel happy? That's because the suns light is an extension of Gods own living light energy. Your soul is feeling the loving energy from Gods living light which the sun light is also an extension of. God wants us to love each other. Love is power.
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God wants the very best for us but gave us gree will so awful things can and do happen in the world. My previous post on this sub went into more on this part.
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The last part I wanna mention is that I also saw some future events on Earth in the Akhashic record. Humans last year on Earth will be in decade of 3,500. But prior to that a lot of nuclear wars. If you're a millenial fyi your grandchildren and your children will be caught in these awful nuclear wars and most Millenial mau not be alive anymore than. If you live in the East and West coast USA, I recommend building in your basement or backyard a nuclear proof bunker and long survival food that can last 20+ years like olive oil canned tuna and plenty stored too. There will come a time when water and food will become the currency and people fight over it. Well 💯 be going back to Barter system so silver, gold and ammo will become like currency.
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After all of that nuclear war mess is over, some young people will take over the earth and they'll be calm and spiritual in nature. Earth's population will be only 1Billon. God doesn't interfere with Mans affairs so the world nuking each other won't nean God doesn't exist fyi. All those dead souls will go back to God.
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I will be around early 70s when the first big nuclear war happens and thanks to all the AP/OBE I do I'll be looking like 45 or 50 years old and feeling that way too. But I'll eventually be ready to astral project out of my body for the last time and go into the higher heavens in our Multidimensional Hyperverse.
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The hardened atheists think God is some imaginary Greek big white beard looking God in the sky but they'll discover in physics death the truth.
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Oh I forgotten to mention to get ready for a big surprise in 2024, and then in 2028 another big surprise about who becomes US President. You'll 😂

Trying to track down more information about my family who moved from Solothurn to Minnesota (via New York) in the mid- to late 1800’s. From what I know, they were in Solothurn a very long time (forever?) before they moved to the US. And I have other family who moved from Neuchâtel to Germany to Pennsylvania in the mid 1700’s.
Can anyone give me any tips on resources for conducting genealogy research on Swiss persons? Are there any in-person historical libraries one can visit (as is the case in Spain)?
I’ve used many different Austrian databases and found info on my Austrian family, but I’m not sure where to start with Switzerland.
Thank you in advance!