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2023.06.03 21:02 Purple-Acanthisitta8 Major breakthrough!
This will be my last post and I wouldn’t post or comment and most likely will only post if I ever cure myself, so I started noticing bad breathe like a while ago and my tongue keeps getting white and then producing bad breathe. I tried everything possible known to mankind so please don’t comment I should try a new supplement, but it wouldn’t go away.
I heard alot of good things about flagyl so figured I would give it a shot just a short term like 7 days but my doc prescribed me 3 times for 7 days which to me seemed like a lot so I went with 1 pill each night and it’s been few days and no changes to breathe but I have to say no bloating and amazing regular bowel movement and damn I never have pooped so much for long time, I would get bloated whenever I ate anything sugary but with flagyl that seems to have vanish away but I will just take few more days and bail on flagyl cuz I feel weak and it’s not healthy also it’s not improving my bad breathe either.
So I went to a dentist and she found few cavities, 1 root canal and most importantly she asked if I have any crown and I told her that I have one next to canine, she asked if I floss that crown and how long has it been there. At which point I replied that I floss extensively 2 times and it’s been more then 7-8 years for the crown, in short the crown has open margin meaning food and bacteria can go inside and make home and cuz it’s a crown there’s no way to take them out but to cut them open and clean the teeth and put a new crown. So all this time I will doing so many things and the culprit was just in my mouth all the time, now whenever I floss I smell and my god that crown smells horrible, in short if you have any crown go to dentist and ask if they can see open margin in the crown.
So I’m looking at few cavities, 1 root canal with crown, replace the old crown with new one, everything will cost me around 3-4K without insurance, so I will fuck off from here and come back few months later when I have done all the procedure and let you know guys know if I got cured or not, till then adios.
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I heard alot of good things about flagyl so figured I would give it a shot just a short term like 7 days but my doc prescribed me 3 times for 7 days which to me seemed like a lot so I went with 1 pill each night and it’s been few days and no changes to breathe but I have to say no bloating and amazing regular bowel movement and damn I never have pooped so much for long time, I would get bloated whenever I ate anything sugary but with flagyl that seems to have vanish away but I will just take few more days and bail on flagyl cuz I feel weak and it’s not healthy also it’s not improving my bad breathe either.
So I went to a dentist and she found few cavities, 1 root canal and most importantly she asked if I have any crown and I told her that I have one next to canine, she asked if I floss that crown and how long has it been there. At which point I replied that I floss extensively 2 times and it’s been more then 7-8 years for the crown, in short the crown has open margin meaning food and bacteria can go inside and make home and cuz it’s a crown there’s no way to take them out but to cut them open and clean the teeth and put a new crown. So all this time I will doing so many things and the culprit was just in my mouth all the time, now whenever I floss I smell and my god that crown smells horrible, in short if you have any crown go to dentist and ask if they can see open margin in the crown.
So I’m looking at few cavities, 1 root canal with crown, replace the old crown with new one, everything will cost me around 3-4K without insurance, so I will fuck off from here and come back few months later when I have done all the procedure and let you know guys know if I got cured or not, till then adios.
2023.06.03 21:00 Jerry_217 [H] Back 4 blood, Biomutant, Alfred Hitchcock Vertigo, hell let loose, crusader kings 3, Talisman complete set, Warhammer 40k Chaos Daemonhunters, Aliens Fireteam Elite, Dark Pictures: Man of Medan&Little Hope, Fable Anniversary, Injustice 2 Legendary ED, Abzu [W] Paypal, amazon, TF2key, Gem, wishli
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fight in tight space
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Hell let loose
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2023.06.03 21:00 Jerry_217 [H] Back 4 blood, Biomutant, Alfred Hitchcock Vertigo, hell let loose, crusader kings 3, Talisman complete set, Warhammer 40k Chaos Daemonhunters, Aliens Fireteam Elite, Dark Pictures: Man of Medan&Little Hope, Fable Anniversary, Injustice 2 Legendary ED, Abzu [W] Paypal, amazon, TF2key, Gem, wishli
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Hell let loose
Crusader kings 3
Spiderman remaster
F1 2020, 2019, 2017, 2016, 2012, 2011
A Hat in Time
monster hunter rise
fight in tight space
phoenix wright
LOOT RIVER
Hell let loose
satisfactory
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Vrising
DOOM Eternal
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slay the spire
Spyro Reignited Trilogy
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Starbound
Quantum Break
Wizard of Legend
Dragon's Dogma: Dark Arisen
Tainted Grail: Conquest
Dicey Dungeons
Talisman: The complete collection (54 game+dlc)
Back 4 blood (EU)
Dragon Knight (delisted, 18+)
Dragonia (delisted, 18+)
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Hell Girls (delisted, 18+)
Ragnarock
Super Star (delisted, 18+)
Source of Madness
MAY choice:
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Behind the Frame: The Finest Scenery
Builder Simulator
Operation Tango
Spiritfarer®: Farewell Edition
The Invisible Hand
Windjammers 2
APRIL choice:
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Aliens: Fireteam Elite
Founders' Fortune
Life is Strange 2 Complete Season (incl. Mascot Bundle DLC)
Monster Prom 2: Monster Camp
Revita
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The Life and Suffering of Sir Brante
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EDGE OF ETERNITY
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Aliens: Fireteam Elite
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Armello
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Bloodstained: Ritual of the Night
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Full Metal Furies
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GRID Ultimate Edition
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Hell Girls (delisted, 18+)
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Injustice 2 Legendary Edition
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Life is Strange 2 Complete Season (incl. Mascot Bundle DLC)
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Nickelodeon All Star Brawl
Obduction
Offworld Trading Company
OLLIOLLI WORLD - RAD EDITION
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Ryse: Son of Rome
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Sniper Elite 4
Source of Madness
Spirit Hunter: NG
Starbound
State of Decay: Year-One Survival Edition (steam gift)
Strange Brigade
Sunset Overdrive
Super Star (delisted)
Superliminal
Surviving The Aftermath
Tainted Grail: Conquest
The Dark Pictures Anthology: Man of Medan
The Dark Pictures Anthology: Little Hope
The Dungeon Of Naheulbeuk: The Amulet Of Chaos
The Gardens Between
The Life and Suffering of Sir Brante
The Long Dark
The Stanley Parable
The Witcher: Enhanced Edition (Gift)
This War of Mine: Complete Edition
Thronebreaker: The Witcher Tales
Total War: Empire - Definitive Edition
Total War: Medieval II - Definitive Edition
Total War: Napoleon- Definitive Edition
Tribes of Midgard
Twilight Struggle
War for the Overworld
Warhammer 40,000: Chaos Gate - Daemonhunters
WASTELAND 3
Wizard of Legend
XCOM: Enemy Unknown Complete Edition
Yakuza Kiwami 2
List B: I already own.
112 Operator911 Operator
Aarklash: Legacy
Agent in Depth
Alchemist's Castle
Aliens vs. Predator Collection ( includes Aliens vs. Predator + Aliens vs Predator Swarm Map Pack + Aliens vs Predator: Bug Hunt Pack)
Amnesia: A Machine for Pigs + Amnesia: The Dark Descent (one key)
Among Us
Armello
Army Men RTS
Assault Suit Leynos
Backbone
Battlecruisers
Beat Hazard 2
Behind the Frame: The Finest Scenery
Behold the Kickmen
Between the Stars
Bezier
Bionic Commando
Bionic Commando Rearmed
Blade Assault
Blood And Zombies
Brawlout
Brothers - A Tale of Two Sons
[email protected]
Calico
Call of Juarez Gunslinger
Cats in Time
Chicka Wars Chicken Meat (delisted)
CivCity: Rome
Click and Slay
Conan Chop Chop
Concept Destruction
Cook, Serve, Delicious! 3?!
Corridor Z
Cosmic Express
Cosmonautica
Crayon Physics Deluxe
CROSSBOW: Bloodnight
Dagon - The Eldritch Box DLC
Dead Age
Dear Esther: Landmark Edition
Death Squared
Detached: Non-VR Edition
Disciples: Liberation
Double Cross
Doughlings: Arcade
Doughlings: Invasion
Draw Slasher
Drawful 2
Driftland: The Magic Revival
Due Process
EarthX
El Hijo
Eldest Souls
Emily is Away <3
Epic Chef
Fallout
Farming Simulator 17
Firegirl: Hack 'n Splash Rescue
First Class Trouble
Five Dates
Fling to the Finish
Fobia - St. Dinfna Hotel
Forged Battalion
Fortissimo FA INTL Ver
Founders' Fortune
Frick, Inc.
Full Throttle Remastered
Fun with Ragdolls: The Game
GameGuru Classic
Garfield Kart - Furious Racing
Geometric Sniper
Ghost 1.0
Go Home Dinosaurs!
Going Under
Golf Gang
Grow: Song of the Evertree
Guilty Gear X2 #Reload
Guns & Fishes
Guts and Glory
Hack 'n' Slash bundle (including Hack 'n' Slash + Hack 'n' Slash Soundtrack + Spacebase GIFT)
Halcyon 6: Lightspeed Edition
Heart Fragment - Book Two: Belief Fragments (Shannon & Lana)
Helheim Hassle
Hellbound
Hexologic
Hidden & Dangerous 2: Courage Under Fire
Hidden & Dangerous: Action Pack
Hokko Life
Holy Potatoes! A Spy Story?!
How to Sing to Open Your Heart
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Hyper Gunsport
I’m not a Monster
In Sound Mind
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Interplanetary: Enhanced Edition
Into the Pit
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Iris and the giant
Iron Danger
Izmir: An Independence Simulator
Joggernauts
JYDGE
Kerbal Space Program
Killsquad
Kingdoms of Amalur: Re-Reckoning FATE Edition (including Kingdoms of Amalur: Re-Reckoning + Kingdoms of Amalur: Re-Reckoning Soundtrack + Kingdoms of Amalur: Re-Reckoning - Fatesworn)
Knights of Pen and Paper +1
Labirinto 2
Last Word
Lawn Mowing Simulator
Legend of Keepers
LEGO Batman 2: DC Super Heroes
Leisure Suit Larry - Wet Dreams Don't Dry
Let Them Come
Lighthouse Keeper
Little Orpheus
Lost Planet 3 Complete Pack
Lust for Darkness
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Maid of Sker
Mainlining
Mega Man Legacy Collection
Mekabolt
Meow Express
MirrorMoon EP
Monaco
Monster Prom 2: Monster Camp
Moon Hunters
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Morbid: The Seven Acolytes
Motorcycle Mechanic Simulator 2021
Murder by Numbers
Must Dash Amigos
My Time At Portia
N++
NecroWorm
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Nongunz: Doppelganger Edition
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Of Orcs And Men
Orbital Racer
Out of Reach: Treasure Royale
Override
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Paradise Lost
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Peaky Blinders: Mastermind
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Say No! More
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Shady Part of Me
shapez - Puzzle DLC
Shing!
Sid Meier's Railroads!
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Skullgirls 2nd Encore
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Smile For Me
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Space Crew: Legendary Edition
Spellcaster University
Spirit Hunter: Death Mark
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Starbound
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Stirring Abyss
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Stygian: Reign of the Old Ones
Sunlight
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Surviving the Aftermath
Sword Legacy Omen
SYMMETRY
System Shock 2
System Shock: Enhanced Edition
Telefrag VR
The Amazing American Circus
The Beast Inside
The Deed II
The Golf Club 2019 Featuring PGA TOUR
The Inner World
The Next Penelope
The Serpent Rogue
The USB Stick Found in the Grass
This War of Mine: Complete Edition
Ticket to Ride
ToeJam & Earl: Back in the Groove
TOEM
Tools Up!
Tooth and Tail
Townsmen - A Kingdom Rebuilt
Traffic Jams
Train Station Renovation
Treasure Hunter Simulator
Turmoil
Underland: The Climb
UnMetal
Vanishing Realms
War for the Overworld
Warhammer 40,000: Gladius - Relics of War
WARSAW
We Were Here Too
Where the Water Tastes Like Wine
White Noise 2
Worms Rumble
WRC 7
WWE 2K BATTLEGROUNDS
XCOM 2
X-COM: Complete Pack (including X-COM: UFO Defense + X-COM: Apocalypse + X-COM: Enforcer + X-COM: Interceptor + X-COM: Terror from the Deep)
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Yoku's Island Express
Zombie Driver HD Complete Edition (including + Zombie Driver HD + Zombie Driver HD Apocalypse Pack + Zombie Driver HD Burning Garden of Slaughter + Zombie Driver HD Tropical Race Rage + Zombie Driver HD Brutal Car Skins + Zombie Driver HD Soundtrack)
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Command & Conquer Remastered Collection (ORIGIN key)
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A Hat in Time
monster hunter rise
fight in tight space
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Hell let loose
satisfactory
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Vrising
DOOM Eternal
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Kerbal Space Program
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Quantum Break
Wizard of Legend
Dragon's Dogma: Dark Arisen
Tainted Grail: Conquest
Dicey Dungeons
Talisman: The complete collection (54 game+dlc)
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Source of Madness
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Bloodstained: Ritual of the Night
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Boundless
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Children of Morta: Complete Edition
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Demon Turf
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Depraved
Desperados III
Destroy All Humans
Dicey Dungeons
Dishonored Definitive Edition
Distant Worlds Universe
Dragon Knight (delisted, 18+)
Dragon's Dogma: Dark Arisen
Dragonia (delisted, 18+)
Dungeons 2 - Complete Edition
Dusk
EARTH DEFENSE FORCE 4.1 + 18DLCs (19 game+dlc, 97% positive rating)
EDGE OF ETERNITY
Encased
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Euro Truck Simulator 2
F1 2020
Fable Anniversary
Flynn: Son of Crimson
Full Metal Furies
Getting Over It with Bennett Foddy
GOLDEN LIGHT
GRID Ultimate Edition
Hedon Bloodrite
Hell Girls (delisted, 18+)
HERO'S HOUR
How to Sing to Open Your Heart
Injustice 2 Legendary Edition
IRIS and the Giant
Joggernauts
JURASSIC WORLD EVOLUTION 2
Just Cause 4 Complete Edition
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Late Shift
Life is Strange 2 Complete Season (incl. Mascot Bundle DLC)
Lost Planet 3 Complete Pack
Mafia: Definitive Edition
Mega Man Legacy Collection
Metro Exodus
Mini Metro
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Monster Hunter Rise
Monster Prom 2: Monster Camp
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Nickelodeon All Star Brawl
Obduction
Offworld Trading Company
OLLIOLLI WORLD - RAD EDITION
Othercide
Outward The Soroboreans DLC + soundtrack (no base game)
Paint the Town Red
Pathfinder: Kingmaker - Royal Ascension DLC
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Source of Madness
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State of Decay: Year-One Survival Edition (steam gift)
Strange Brigade
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Wizard of Legend
XCOM: Enemy Unknown Complete Edition
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Aliens vs. Predator Collection ( includes Aliens vs. Predator + Aliens vs Predator Swarm Map Pack + Aliens vs Predator: Bug Hunt Pack)
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Dead Age
Dear Esther: Landmark Edition
Death Squared
Detached: Non-VR Edition
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How to Sing to Open Your Heart
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I’m not a Monster
In Sound Mind
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NecroWorm
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Nongunz: Doppelganger Edition
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Raji: An Ancient Epic
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Remnants of Naezith
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Rogue Heroes: Ruins of Tasos
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Shing!
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Ticket to Ride
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Tools Up!
Tooth and Tail
Townsmen - A Kingdom Rebuilt
Traffic Jams
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Underland: The Climb
UnMetal
Vanishing Realms
War for the Overworld
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We Were Here Too
Where the Water Tastes Like Wine
White Noise 2
Worms Rumble
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WWE 2K BATTLEGROUNDS
XCOM 2
X-COM: Complete Pack (including X-COM: UFO Defense + X-COM: Apocalypse + X-COM: Enforcer + X-COM: Interceptor + X-COM: Terror from the Deep)
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X-Morph: Defense Complete Pack (including X-Morph: Defense + X-Morph: Defense - European Assault + X-Morph: Defense - Survival Of The Fittest + X-Morph: Defense - Last Bastion)
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2023.06.03 21:00 The_Fallen_1 [THJVerse] Arcane Starfarers - ep 39 - Unification
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Despite still being on duty, as Daniel stepped foot onto Olinath Orbital, he felt a wave of relief and relaxation, finally free from the weight of the recent events. He looked to his side as Oprin stepped into the station, who began to look around in wonder at the much larger structure that didn't feel as tight as either the ship or the bunkers. She continued on forward, watching some of the Navy personnel out of the window as they worked, performing initial checks and maintenance on the exterior of the Trailmaker. The pair continued to walk down the docking arm until they reached the main body of the station, where things began to open up further, with many wide and long corridors allowing large groups of people to travel easily, with some smaller ones branching off, allowing access to some of the less busy areas.
Most of the people walking around were Navy personnel, either services the docked ships or the station itself, though there was the odd group of Langan exploring their new temporary home. The pair continued on past them though, heading towards the centre of the station where they were both needed. Daniel guided Oprin to the nearest treadmill, which they both hopped into, speeding up their walk down the long corridor as they made their way to the central hall, stopping a short walk away which they walked unassisted.
As the pair entered the room, they were greeted to the sight of a large crowd, bursting with activity, that upon further inspection turned out to be a few hundred Langan, conversing with a number of UPC officials and three Deities, the first being Celenamartra, but the other two being Deities that Daniel had never met before, though he could identify them by their appearances matching their pictures well.
"I know Celenamartra, but who are the other two?" Oprin asked.
"The large Blue Dragon is Liathock, the God often popularly worshipped by those interested in space and exploration, history, and the mysteries of the world around us, and the Elven woman is Valan'srah, the Goddess often associated with trade, commerce, and powerful magic," Daniel explained.
"Are they nice like Celenamartra?"
"From what I've heard, all the Deities are nice, though they sometimes work in confusing ways that don't always make sense that can leave some people frustrated and annoyed."
"I see…" she replied, getting slightly worried about their reason for being here.
"It's been a long time since any number of them were together in public off of Earth though. Either they wanted to give you a really warm welcome, or they're planning something," Daniel concluded.
"Like what?"
"I have a guess, but I don't want to get your hopes up."
“So you think something good will happen?” Oprin asked.
“Most likely. They tend to only act to do good. It’s usually when they don’t act that people can be disappointed.”
“I see…” she trailed off, looking at some of the people in the crowd. “I don’t recognise everyone here, and some of them look quite healthy…. Did we wake some of them up? Excuse me a moment.”
“Of course,” Daniel replied as she headed into the crowd. He then began to look around, quickly spotting Captain Harris standing at the side of the room on her own, so he headed over, making sure he was still easily spottable to Oprin in case she started looking for him. “Captain.”
“Lieutenant Commander,” Captain Harris replied. “How are you finding things so far?”
“I’ve admittedly only just arrived. Had a report to write and some drama around the sleeping quarters to deal with.”
“Sergeant Richards?” the Captain asked.
“I don’t know his name, but I know he works in engineering. Tall and quite muscular, but I get the feeling he does heavy lifting and not the bulk of the thinking.”
“Thanks for setting him straight before the other senior officers descended on him.”
“You’re welcome, Captain. On another note, am I correct in thinking that some of the Langan here were from cryo pods?”
“Mhm. 187 pods failed in transit, and the occupants woke up.”
“No deaths?”
“None,” she confirmed.
“Those pods are something else….”
“They’re very simple, and Langan biology seems particularly resilient to rapid freezing, though it’s evidently a random quirk rather than an evolutionary advantage given how quickly they need to be frozen to survive.”
“They’re very lucky then.”
“Indeed,” the Captain agreed.
“So, what happens now?”
“Overseer Tenmus and a few Langan politicians that have been woken up are working out some finer details that were put as delayed negotiation points on the original offer to join the UPC. Political structures and integration targets, that sort of thing.”
“Do you think there’s going to be any issues?”
“That depends on the old politicians. The government they were a part of was an oligarchic meritocracy, and we’re a social capitalist democracy. It’s going to cause some integration pains if they stick to that, but given that the old government doesn’t exactly have a lot of power, and a lot of the Langan that are awake don’t exactly revere them, things might change.”
“What about the sleeping ones? Do you think they might have a lot of their elite still frozen that will disagree?”
“They were in Bunker 02. There were no intact pods in that one, despite being designed to be the safest of the lot.”
“Ah, yes, the one with too much concrete to shield them,” Daniel replied, remembering the video of the improperly supported ceiling resting on top of thousands of smashed cryo pods. “I wonder how many bunkers would have survived if they’d figured out the importance of rebar.”
“Nine bunkers were lost due to structural failure. There’s no guarantee that they wouldn’t have succumbed to any of the other many issues the other bunkers did, which some likely would have, but they might have made it,” she replied. “There’s also no guarantee that the rebar they would have used would have been suitable for weather that cold. It could have caused uneven contractions that might have caused cracks to form faster.”
“Maybe…” Daniel sighed, trying not to focus on the loss of life.
The room suddenly grew quiet as one of the doors to the room opened, and four Langan walked in, one of which was Overseer Tenmus, as well as a number of UPC officials, including the President of the UPC: a tall male Human who was noticeably aged, but Daniel knew was undergoing immortality treatments every so often. A microphone was presented to the Overseer, and he cleared his throat as he prepared to speak.
"Welcome all in attendance. It is with great privilege that I can declare that the Langan people have officially joined the UPC," Overseer Tenmus announced, gaining cheats from the crowd of Langan, and claps from everyone else in attendance. "There will be some changes, but given what we've all been through, I'm sure you'll all agree that change is most welcome. Going forward, we shall be changing how we decide who is in charge, and nominating people into the UPC's political forms, of which we currently have a seat in both the two main bodies to ensure fair representation, with more seats available once our population increases so that we are no longer a minor colony. These positions will be filled by a vote of all people on our new home. These votes will happen shortly after the celebrations.
"We have also decided to switch our local government to a similar system, with a transitional period of ten years from the current leadership to ensure the initial stages go smoothly, with votes occurring every five years after that. A technological enlightenment program has been established, and the plan is for students in schools to be taught about the new technologies, while analogues for what we have been used to will be made available so there isn't a harsh transition. Learning about the new technologies is encouraged however, as they provide many benefits. All other details of the agreement remain unchanged, and the vote on naming our new planet is still planned to be held once everyone has been woken up. With that, I thank you for listening, and I will now hand over to President Finley."
There was another round of cheers and clapping as the Human President stepped forward, quickly shaking hands with the Overseer as he took the microphone.
"Thank you, Overseer Tenmus," the President began, glancing at the camera at the back of the room. "There has been a dream from long before the peoples of the UPC reached the stars that one day we would find that we are not alone out there. We knew there was a strong chance we weren't, but despite us looking, the Universe was always silent. Today, however, we now know that we are not alone, and I am proud that we can stand hand-in-hand with people from another world, and that we can work together to make the Universe a better place. The UPC stands fully committed to supporting the Langan people as they grow, and our hand is outstretched so we may stand side by side as one people. Today marks a turning point in history that will be remembered for millennia. Thank you all for listening."
There was an awkward momentary shuffle as the three Deities walked over to the microphone, positioning themselves in front of the camera, the size of the two Dragons forcing it to be tilted upwards so that a window overlooking the planet below was in shot.
"Greetings, everyone," Celenamartra began. "Today, the three of us have met with many of the Langan people, heard their plights, and listened about many of their woes. Their world was far outside our jurisdiction, and I am saddened to see what happened because of that. However, the Langan people now have the full support of all Deities."
"We all agree that we should help them," Valan'srah added. "They have lost too much to start over with no help from us."
"And I'm sure many of you feel that you'd want to help in any way you can after what they've been through," Liathock took over. "Too often do tragedies happen, but their entire home becoming uninhabitable through no fault of their own is an unspeakable tragedy."
"Which is why we're committed to doing what we can to help them," Celenamartra continued. "During the rescue efforts, a number of plant seeds and animal eggs were recovered from their home, and the plan was to use them to slowly terraform their new home. There’s not enough to restore the full biodiversity they were used to, but there is enough to create a stable biosphere. It would be a slow process that would have left the Langan people station-bound for months or likely even years, and would take decades to complete. The UPC has already brought the planet into a position where the process can start, so we thought we ought to do our part."
The crowd began to murmur in disbelief as the planet behind the Deities began to turn greener and greener, until the once rocky surface was completely transformed into a lush forest that spanned almost the whole planet, only stopping at the oceans, frozen poles, and a thin strip of desert near the equator. Daniel couldn't help but smile to himself as his earlier guess proved to be right.
"We are now equally committed to the Langan as we are to any other people, and we will ensure that they get the help they need. Thank you for listening," Valan'srah concluded, heading off camera with the other two Deities.
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"Hey, so, do you think they're expecting us to worship them now?" Oprin asked Daniel as they headed towards the hangar they had been directed to.
"Probably not. The Deities have never been ones to ask for worship, and have even discouraged it at times," he replied, checking which shuttle they were on. "At most they'd like to be respected as Deities, or an equivalent that is suitable in your culture."
"I think they will get that," Oprin assured him, entering the hangar.
Daniel led her over to their shuttle, which was a medium sized cargo shuttle that had a small prefabricated house attached to its cargo mounting point. After they boarded, a few more Langan joined them on board, and the shuttle took off, sliding out of the hangar and immediately heading for the planet. The ride was relaxingly smooth compared to the ones from the Langan's old home, and before too long, they reached the green plain near a large river that was destined to be where the first Langan settlement was established. The house was dropped off at its designated spot, where a waiting team quickly installed it, and the shuttle then landed to let its passengers disembark.
As Daniel and Oprin stepped on onto the grass-like plant growth beneath them, Oprin took in a deep breath of fresh air, and sat herself down, looking up at the sky as shuttles flew past, delivering people, supplies, and more buildings. She watched as a particularly large ship floated down to the nearby river, depositing the foundations of a water treatment plant, which it then began to construct properly. She then watched as a freighter dropped off a series of large buildings, with a hospital, a school, and a UPC embassy being the three dropped off close enough for her to make out.
"It's really over now, isn't it?" Oprin asked.
"Yes, it is," Daniel confirmed, sitting down next to her. "It might take a little while for things to properly settle into the new normal, but you're not in any danger anymore."
"I'm not wasting your time, am I?"
"No, my current duty is to help the person who helped us. Basically, you've got me for a few days to help you with whatever you need."
“So I have a servant?”
“I guess,” Daniel shrugged.
Oprin let out a small chuckle before watching more buildings be installed. “I’m surprised by how many buildings you have already if this wasn’t something that the UPC planned to happen today.”
“The station in orbit is designed to quickly churn out most buildings needed for the early colonisation phase. All you need to do is feed the factories with the right resources, and the prefabs can be churned out in a few dozen minutes. The prefabs aren’t exactly as good as properly built structures, but they are still pretty good. I don’t know the resource situation, but I doubt we’ll get everything needed to wake up all the cryo pods before the stockpiles run out and more have to be shipped in.”
“It looks like there's more than enough for a thousand people already though.”
“Ture, but bear in mind there will be some other people from the UPC living here to work in the power plant, water treatment, hospital, and so on. We can’t just dump foreign tech on you and expect everything to go smoothly, can we?”
“I suppose…. Hey, do you think my new house is installed yet?” she asked.
“No idea. Wanna find out?”
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Despite still being on duty, as Daniel stepped foot onto Olinath Orbital, he felt a wave of relief and relaxation, finally free from the weight of the recent events. He looked to his side as Oprin stepped into the station, who began to look around in wonder at the much larger structure that didn't feel as tight as either the ship or the bunkers. She continued on forward, watching some of the Navy personnel out of the window as they worked, performing initial checks and maintenance on the exterior of the Trailmaker. The pair continued to walk down the docking arm until they reached the main body of the station, where things began to open up further, with many wide and long corridors allowing large groups of people to travel easily, with some smaller ones branching off, allowing access to some of the less busy areas.
Most of the people walking around were Navy personnel, either services the docked ships or the station itself, though there was the odd group of Langan exploring their new temporary home. The pair continued on past them though, heading towards the centre of the station where they were both needed. Daniel guided Oprin to the nearest treadmill, which they both hopped into, speeding up their walk down the long corridor as they made their way to the central hall, stopping a short walk away which they walked unassisted.
As the pair entered the room, they were greeted to the sight of a large crowd, bursting with activity, that upon further inspection turned out to be a few hundred Langan, conversing with a number of UPC officials and three Deities, the first being Celenamartra, but the other two being Deities that Daniel had never met before, though he could identify them by their appearances matching their pictures well.
"I know Celenamartra, but who are the other two?" Oprin asked.
"The large Blue Dragon is Liathock, the God often popularly worshipped by those interested in space and exploration, history, and the mysteries of the world around us, and the Elven woman is Valan'srah, the Goddess often associated with trade, commerce, and powerful magic," Daniel explained.
"Are they nice like Celenamartra?"
"From what I've heard, all the Deities are nice, though they sometimes work in confusing ways that don't always make sense that can leave some people frustrated and annoyed."
"I see…" she replied, getting slightly worried about their reason for being here.
"It's been a long time since any number of them were together in public off of Earth though. Either they wanted to give you a really warm welcome, or they're planning something," Daniel concluded.
"Like what?"
"I have a guess, but I don't want to get your hopes up."
“So you think something good will happen?” Oprin asked.
“Most likely. They tend to only act to do good. It’s usually when they don’t act that people can be disappointed.”
“I see…” she trailed off, looking at some of the people in the crowd. “I don’t recognise everyone here, and some of them look quite healthy…. Did we wake some of them up? Excuse me a moment.”
“Of course,” Daniel replied as she headed into the crowd. He then began to look around, quickly spotting Captain Harris standing at the side of the room on her own, so he headed over, making sure he was still easily spottable to Oprin in case she started looking for him. “Captain.”
“Lieutenant Commander,” Captain Harris replied. “How are you finding things so far?”
“I’ve admittedly only just arrived. Had a report to write and some drama around the sleeping quarters to deal with.”
“Sergeant Richards?” the Captain asked.
“I don’t know his name, but I know he works in engineering. Tall and quite muscular, but I get the feeling he does heavy lifting and not the bulk of the thinking.”
“Thanks for setting him straight before the other senior officers descended on him.”
“You’re welcome, Captain. On another note, am I correct in thinking that some of the Langan here were from cryo pods?”
“Mhm. 187 pods failed in transit, and the occupants woke up.”
“No deaths?”
“None,” she confirmed.
“Those pods are something else….”
“They’re very simple, and Langan biology seems particularly resilient to rapid freezing, though it’s evidently a random quirk rather than an evolutionary advantage given how quickly they need to be frozen to survive.”
“They’re very lucky then.”
“Indeed,” the Captain agreed.
“So, what happens now?”
“Overseer Tenmus and a few Langan politicians that have been woken up are working out some finer details that were put as delayed negotiation points on the original offer to join the UPC. Political structures and integration targets, that sort of thing.”
“Do you think there’s going to be any issues?”
“That depends on the old politicians. The government they were a part of was an oligarchic meritocracy, and we’re a social capitalist democracy. It’s going to cause some integration pains if they stick to that, but given that the old government doesn’t exactly have a lot of power, and a lot of the Langan that are awake don’t exactly revere them, things might change.”
“What about the sleeping ones? Do you think they might have a lot of their elite still frozen that will disagree?”
“They were in Bunker 02. There were no intact pods in that one, despite being designed to be the safest of the lot.”
“Ah, yes, the one with too much concrete to shield them,” Daniel replied, remembering the video of the improperly supported ceiling resting on top of thousands of smashed cryo pods. “I wonder how many bunkers would have survived if they’d figured out the importance of rebar.”
“Nine bunkers were lost due to structural failure. There’s no guarantee that they wouldn’t have succumbed to any of the other many issues the other bunkers did, which some likely would have, but they might have made it,” she replied. “There’s also no guarantee that the rebar they would have used would have been suitable for weather that cold. It could have caused uneven contractions that might have caused cracks to form faster.”
“Maybe…” Daniel sighed, trying not to focus on the loss of life.
The room suddenly grew quiet as one of the doors to the room opened, and four Langan walked in, one of which was Overseer Tenmus, as well as a number of UPC officials, including the President of the UPC: a tall male Human who was noticeably aged, but Daniel knew was undergoing immortality treatments every so often. A microphone was presented to the Overseer, and he cleared his throat as he prepared to speak.
"Welcome all in attendance. It is with great privilege that I can declare that the Langan people have officially joined the UPC," Overseer Tenmus announced, gaining cheats from the crowd of Langan, and claps from everyone else in attendance. "There will be some changes, but given what we've all been through, I'm sure you'll all agree that change is most welcome. Going forward, we shall be changing how we decide who is in charge, and nominating people into the UPC's political forms, of which we currently have a seat in both the two main bodies to ensure fair representation, with more seats available once our population increases so that we are no longer a minor colony. These positions will be filled by a vote of all people on our new home. These votes will happen shortly after the celebrations.
"We have also decided to switch our local government to a similar system, with a transitional period of ten years from the current leadership to ensure the initial stages go smoothly, with votes occurring every five years after that. A technological enlightenment program has been established, and the plan is for students in schools to be taught about the new technologies, while analogues for what we have been used to will be made available so there isn't a harsh transition. Learning about the new technologies is encouraged however, as they provide many benefits. All other details of the agreement remain unchanged, and the vote on naming our new planet is still planned to be held once everyone has been woken up. With that, I thank you for listening, and I will now hand over to President Finley."
There was another round of cheers and clapping as the Human President stepped forward, quickly shaking hands with the Overseer as he took the microphone.
"Thank you, Overseer Tenmus," the President began, glancing at the camera at the back of the room. "There has been a dream from long before the peoples of the UPC reached the stars that one day we would find that we are not alone out there. We knew there was a strong chance we weren't, but despite us looking, the Universe was always silent. Today, however, we now know that we are not alone, and I am proud that we can stand hand-in-hand with people from another world, and that we can work together to make the Universe a better place. The UPC stands fully committed to supporting the Langan people as they grow, and our hand is outstretched so we may stand side by side as one people. Today marks a turning point in history that will be remembered for millennia. Thank you all for listening."
There was an awkward momentary shuffle as the three Deities walked over to the microphone, positioning themselves in front of the camera, the size of the two Dragons forcing it to be tilted upwards so that a window overlooking the planet below was in shot.
"Greetings, everyone," Celenamartra began. "Today, the three of us have met with many of the Langan people, heard their plights, and listened about many of their woes. Their world was far outside our jurisdiction, and I am saddened to see what happened because of that. However, the Langan people now have the full support of all Deities."
"We all agree that we should help them," Valan'srah added. "They have lost too much to start over with no help from us."
"And I'm sure many of you feel that you'd want to help in any way you can after what they've been through," Liathock took over. "Too often do tragedies happen, but their entire home becoming uninhabitable through no fault of their own is an unspeakable tragedy."
"Which is why we're committed to doing what we can to help them," Celenamartra continued. "During the rescue efforts, a number of plant seeds and animal eggs were recovered from their home, and the plan was to use them to slowly terraform their new home. There’s not enough to restore the full biodiversity they were used to, but there is enough to create a stable biosphere. It would be a slow process that would have left the Langan people station-bound for months or likely even years, and would take decades to complete. The UPC has already brought the planet into a position where the process can start, so we thought we ought to do our part."
The crowd began to murmur in disbelief as the planet behind the Deities began to turn greener and greener, until the once rocky surface was completely transformed into a lush forest that spanned almost the whole planet, only stopping at the oceans, frozen poles, and a thin strip of desert near the equator. Daniel couldn't help but smile to himself as his earlier guess proved to be right.
"We are now equally committed to the Langan as we are to any other people, and we will ensure that they get the help they need. Thank you for listening," Valan'srah concluded, heading off camera with the other two Deities.
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"Hey, so, do you think they're expecting us to worship them now?" Oprin asked Daniel as they headed towards the hangar they had been directed to.
"Probably not. The Deities have never been ones to ask for worship, and have even discouraged it at times," he replied, checking which shuttle they were on. "At most they'd like to be respected as Deities, or an equivalent that is suitable in your culture."
"I think they will get that," Oprin assured him, entering the hangar.
Daniel led her over to their shuttle, which was a medium sized cargo shuttle that had a small prefabricated house attached to its cargo mounting point. After they boarded, a few more Langan joined them on board, and the shuttle took off, sliding out of the hangar and immediately heading for the planet. The ride was relaxingly smooth compared to the ones from the Langan's old home, and before too long, they reached the green plain near a large river that was destined to be where the first Langan settlement was established. The house was dropped off at its designated spot, where a waiting team quickly installed it, and the shuttle then landed to let its passengers disembark.
As Daniel and Oprin stepped on onto the grass-like plant growth beneath them, Oprin took in a deep breath of fresh air, and sat herself down, looking up at the sky as shuttles flew past, delivering people, supplies, and more buildings. She watched as a particularly large ship floated down to the nearby river, depositing the foundations of a water treatment plant, which it then began to construct properly. She then watched as a freighter dropped off a series of large buildings, with a hospital, a school, and a UPC embassy being the three dropped off close enough for her to make out.
"It's really over now, isn't it?" Oprin asked.
"Yes, it is," Daniel confirmed, sitting down next to her. "It might take a little while for things to properly settle into the new normal, but you're not in any danger anymore."
"I'm not wasting your time, am I?"
"No, my current duty is to help the person who helped us. Basically, you've got me for a few days to help you with whatever you need."
“So I have a servant?”
“I guess,” Daniel shrugged.
Oprin let out a small chuckle before watching more buildings be installed. “I’m surprised by how many buildings you have already if this wasn’t something that the UPC planned to happen today.”
“The station in orbit is designed to quickly churn out most buildings needed for the early colonisation phase. All you need to do is feed the factories with the right resources, and the prefabs can be churned out in a few dozen minutes. The prefabs aren’t exactly as good as properly built structures, but they are still pretty good. I don’t know the resource situation, but I doubt we’ll get everything needed to wake up all the cryo pods before the stockpiles run out and more have to be shipped in.”
“It looks like there's more than enough for a thousand people already though.”
“Ture, but bear in mind there will be some other people from the UPC living here to work in the power plant, water treatment, hospital, and so on. We can’t just dump foreign tech on you and expect everything to go smoothly, can we?”
“I suppose…. Hey, do you think my new house is installed yet?” she asked.
“No idea. Wanna find out?”
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2023.06.03 20:59 Used_Ad_6209 something triggered me and I've been spiraling hard
about two weeks ago i almost died. i work as a merchandiser for home depot in the garden area, we haul around these huge and heavy metal racks, basically shelves of steel on wheels.
one that i was hauling to a spot to put it got caught on something and started to tip. i had a second, one whole second to make a decision on what to do in that timeframe. one half considered stepping aside, the other trying to push it back upright. at that point it was about 50% tipped over. i went with trying to push it back upright.
these things weigh almost 300 on a bad day. i have no idea how i barely managed to keep it up, but it was at an angle and there was no way i was going to right it entirely by myself. i am not that strong. it almost crushed me. there wouldn't've been any way i could have walked away from it unharmed or outright dead. i would've been crushed either to death between it and the asphalt or horrifically mangled by it if i did manage to live. some people ran to my rescue after a solid 10 seconds of struggling to hold it upright, and they helped me get it straight again and moved to where it needed to go. i clocked out and started to have a breakdown in the car on the drive home.
my whole childhood had been spent exclusively in survival mode. my whole teenage time as well. extensive abuse from family, being homeschooled and isolated from the rest of the world during incredibly important formative years of my life. i have never, ever known safety. the environment was unsafe, the people were unsafe. mental, physical, emotional abuse, horrific neglect. i was an unwanted pregnancy out of my three older brothers. we lived in poverty. i slept on the floor for most of my childhood, the only clothes i had were hand-me-downs from my brothers. i was the youngest. i was the easiest target. i was the only daughter, only sister. you probably already have an idea what I'm implying with that.
at age 23 i met a man and we started a relationship long distance. 9 months in, he flies me out to stay with him for ten days. those ten whole days were the absolute best of my entire life. it was like we were made for each other, like it all just felt so right. it was agonizing having to go back to my family after being with someone i genuinely, for once in my fucking life, felt safe with. that memory still causes heartache even now.
about 9 more months after that visit, i left my family behind to move in with him. i left everything i knew, i had to put my cat, my best friend of 15 years, to sleep in order to do it. she was too old to travel with me, and changing her world like that so drastically would've been far too hard on her. it was a decision that needed to be made regardless, but i miss her every day.
we've been living together now for a year, been together for 2, and married for almost a month. yesterday morning before going into work, when i woke up, i felt like everything was attacking me. I felt like i was being neglected in the relationship, like everything was crumbling down. i felt like there were all these problems between us, and what i did was i sent a long winded text to him while he was still sleeping.
i was so thoroughly fucking wrong about all of it.
i don't get it. I don't get why i had convinced myself everything was bad. that he didn't do anything right. i don't know why i attacked him like that. i don't know why my mental health has deteriorated so drastically. i hate being like this. i hate being so damaged. i hate having awful depression and anxiety that no amount of medication can help. i really just fucking hate myself most of all.
i love him so much. i would do anything for him. we talked things out, after i spent a very long afternoon thinking about why i felt the way i did and where it stems from, what caused it, at what point in my life did the abuse developed that.
but i know I've done permanent damage to the relationship. said things i can never ever take back. hurt him in more ways than one. he loves me too. he doesn't hurt me. he doesn't make me feel unsafe. he has his own trauma too. i so desperately want him to just leave me and go be with somebody he deserves, that isn't so mentally and emotionally messed up from extensive, nonstop abuse. to the point where i end up abusing him too. but that decision isn't mine to make.
i have a therapy appointment on june 7th. i really hope it helps, and that this therapist doesn't ghost me or drop me like the others have because what I've been through is too much to handle. i don't want to be the way that i am for my husband. i want to be what i know he deserves. and i will do whatever i possibly can to achieve it.
thank you for listening.
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one that i was hauling to a spot to put it got caught on something and started to tip. i had a second, one whole second to make a decision on what to do in that timeframe. one half considered stepping aside, the other trying to push it back upright. at that point it was about 50% tipped over. i went with trying to push it back upright.
these things weigh almost 300 on a bad day. i have no idea how i barely managed to keep it up, but it was at an angle and there was no way i was going to right it entirely by myself. i am not that strong. it almost crushed me. there wouldn't've been any way i could have walked away from it unharmed or outright dead. i would've been crushed either to death between it and the asphalt or horrifically mangled by it if i did manage to live. some people ran to my rescue after a solid 10 seconds of struggling to hold it upright, and they helped me get it straight again and moved to where it needed to go. i clocked out and started to have a breakdown in the car on the drive home.
my whole childhood had been spent exclusively in survival mode. my whole teenage time as well. extensive abuse from family, being homeschooled and isolated from the rest of the world during incredibly important formative years of my life. i have never, ever known safety. the environment was unsafe, the people were unsafe. mental, physical, emotional abuse, horrific neglect. i was an unwanted pregnancy out of my three older brothers. we lived in poverty. i slept on the floor for most of my childhood, the only clothes i had were hand-me-downs from my brothers. i was the youngest. i was the easiest target. i was the only daughter, only sister. you probably already have an idea what I'm implying with that.
at age 23 i met a man and we started a relationship long distance. 9 months in, he flies me out to stay with him for ten days. those ten whole days were the absolute best of my entire life. it was like we were made for each other, like it all just felt so right. it was agonizing having to go back to my family after being with someone i genuinely, for once in my fucking life, felt safe with. that memory still causes heartache even now.
about 9 more months after that visit, i left my family behind to move in with him. i left everything i knew, i had to put my cat, my best friend of 15 years, to sleep in order to do it. she was too old to travel with me, and changing her world like that so drastically would've been far too hard on her. it was a decision that needed to be made regardless, but i miss her every day.
we've been living together now for a year, been together for 2, and married for almost a month. yesterday morning before going into work, when i woke up, i felt like everything was attacking me. I felt like i was being neglected in the relationship, like everything was crumbling down. i felt like there were all these problems between us, and what i did was i sent a long winded text to him while he was still sleeping.
i was so thoroughly fucking wrong about all of it.
i don't get it. I don't get why i had convinced myself everything was bad. that he didn't do anything right. i don't know why i attacked him like that. i don't know why my mental health has deteriorated so drastically. i hate being like this. i hate being so damaged. i hate having awful depression and anxiety that no amount of medication can help. i really just fucking hate myself most of all.
i love him so much. i would do anything for him. we talked things out, after i spent a very long afternoon thinking about why i felt the way i did and where it stems from, what caused it, at what point in my life did the abuse developed that.
but i know I've done permanent damage to the relationship. said things i can never ever take back. hurt him in more ways than one. he loves me too. he doesn't hurt me. he doesn't make me feel unsafe. he has his own trauma too. i so desperately want him to just leave me and go be with somebody he deserves, that isn't so mentally and emotionally messed up from extensive, nonstop abuse. to the point where i end up abusing him too. but that decision isn't mine to make.
i have a therapy appointment on june 7th. i really hope it helps, and that this therapist doesn't ghost me or drop me like the others have because what I've been through is too much to handle. i don't want to be the way that i am for my husband. i want to be what i know he deserves. and i will do whatever i possibly can to achieve it.
thank you for listening.
2023.06.03 20:58 Fancy_Fishing5405 Faith of the forest (new game alert)
After a plane Crash a 17-year-old Passenger landed in a lush Beautiful forest that was seemingly untouched by anyone but it is hiding a dark secret
Faith of the forest is a dinosaur survival horror game on Roblox. I am recently working on find out what the lore of the island is and what happened there many years ago by exploring abandoned churches lab facilities all while running away from danger you cannot kill the dinosaurs or the hybrid dinosaurs, despite them being a bit weak then the other dinosaurs Also, there is biblically accurate angels in this world approach them, they would do one of two things disappear stare at you or tell you to please go away there are three types of Angels hundred scattered around the island cherubim Seraphim and thrones they are there to protect the dinosaurs while dinosaurs are there to protect the island because it is their only home
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Faith of the forest is a dinosaur survival horror game on Roblox. I am recently working on find out what the lore of the island is and what happened there many years ago by exploring abandoned churches lab facilities all while running away from danger you cannot kill the dinosaurs or the hybrid dinosaurs, despite them being a bit weak then the other dinosaurs Also, there is biblically accurate angels in this world approach them, they would do one of two things disappear stare at you or tell you to please go away there are three types of Angels hundred scattered around the island cherubim Seraphim and thrones they are there to protect the dinosaurs while dinosaurs are there to protect the island because it is their only home
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2023.06.03 20:54 Extra_life_spent Progress Report and dealing with clay stain
 | Folks! I'm done with another large portion of my decorative and semi practical retaining wall. submitted by Extra_life_spent to landscaping [link] [comments] My first post was here: https://www.reddit.com/landscaping/comments/123vvu3/out_with_the_railroad_ties_in_with_back_pain/?utm_source=share&utm_medium=android_app&utm_name=androidcss&utm_term=1&utm_content=share_button After successfully building my first wall and having no issues for a few weeks I wanted to give a more ambitious wall a go. I wanted to do the other side of my house where my neighbors ran their car into an old landscape timber wall. The going was tough and I learned a bunch of lessons. I was an armor officer in the army, but forgot how much a mattock pick helps while digging in red clay, so make sure if you are hitting hard dirt to go grab one from home depot for $40. And don't forget eye protection. Make sure to plan for a bit of drainage. Use emmiters and plan to where you are going to place them. Eye out and call for utilities like power and internet. I hit my fiber line about midway through the build. Now for my issue. I have a large stain of clay whenever it rains. Any ideas how to stop that? I know I should place some grass or rocks in front of the wall, but I'm at a loss and looking for resources. |
2023.06.03 20:54 RichieP3 Child’s mother wants to take her
My daughter is 8 years old and I haven’t been with the mother since she was about 2. I’ve had her 3 nights a weeks vs her 4 for as long as I can remember. A few years ago she said she wanted to move back home to Texas (about 10 hours from my current location) so I filed for a CO to stop her. It worked. Now recently she’s met some military guy who’s stationed a few hours away and she’s been doing the long distance thing. She’s known him for 8-12 months if I had to put my best estimate, and has met my daughter 5 times at most. She is now saying that she is getting married and he’s getting stationed in Georgia and she’s moving down there and wants to take my daughter the school year and I can have her the summers and holiday breaks. I’m outraged for the following reasons: 1. I’ll get to see my daughter 3 months outta the year? 2. She barely knows this guy 3. All of my daughters immediate family/friends are here (except a few people, but they’re not in Georgia either) on top of that taking her out of her current school which she’s been in since the beginning. 4. Even if the custody swapped and I had her during the school years, it’s not fair to my daughter to only see 1 parent for 3 months while they’re having to work the summer. 5. He’s military so I’m sure he can be stationed somewhere else in a year or two which is no life for a little one.
I’m sure I can think of a few more reasons, though those are the main ones. My current CO has me getting her the 3 nights vs her 4 although we changed the days/pickup times throughout the years and it does state we can’t move without the others permission if it disrupts parental rights. Georgia is 12 hours away from me. After disagreeing over text messages, she is saying she is gonna file relocation papers and have the courts decide. Which also sucks because a day or two before finding this out I got my first accepted offer on a house. I didn’t budget in full weeks of daycare if worse comes to worse which could cost thousands a month in the summer. I don’t currently pay Child support being it been pretty much half and half and we’ve been pretty civil her whole life. although I would gladly pay it if it means my daughter stays in my life year round. So now I don’t know if I go through with the purchase although that’s the least of my worries now. I know I need to talk to my lawyer. but my questions are what can I expect a court to rule a case with these circumstances. What are all possible outcomes? Does she have the right to do this? Any further advice is much appreciated.
Further information: as far as I know she doesn’t have a job lined up down there (I could be wrong). She also states they wanna buy a house down there which if he’s stationed there he could be moved again so idk how that works. She said she wants it to be mid September which is only a few months away, so to find a house and close seems a little unrealistic and plus it’s super quick just to uproot my daughters life like that. We also both live without parents although I’m in the paperwork stage for a house.
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I’m sure I can think of a few more reasons, though those are the main ones. My current CO has me getting her the 3 nights vs her 4 although we changed the days/pickup times throughout the years and it does state we can’t move without the others permission if it disrupts parental rights. Georgia is 12 hours away from me. After disagreeing over text messages, she is saying she is gonna file relocation papers and have the courts decide. Which also sucks because a day or two before finding this out I got my first accepted offer on a house. I didn’t budget in full weeks of daycare if worse comes to worse which could cost thousands a month in the summer. I don’t currently pay Child support being it been pretty much half and half and we’ve been pretty civil her whole life. although I would gladly pay it if it means my daughter stays in my life year round. So now I don’t know if I go through with the purchase although that’s the least of my worries now. I know I need to talk to my lawyer. but my questions are what can I expect a court to rule a case with these circumstances. What are all possible outcomes? Does she have the right to do this? Any further advice is much appreciated.
Further information: as far as I know she doesn’t have a job lined up down there (I could be wrong). She also states they wanna buy a house down there which if he’s stationed there he could be moved again so idk how that works. She said she wants it to be mid September which is only a few months away, so to find a house and close seems a little unrealistic and plus it’s super quick just to uproot my daughters life like that. We also both live without parents although I’m in the paperwork stage for a house.
2023.06.03 20:51 General_Gengar I want to stop thinking about relationships. I am too much of a disaster to date
I am the kind of person who would seriously damage anyone who dates me. I face an insurmountable road to improve myself to a point where I wouldn't just traumatize some random woman.
I just want the thoughts to stop. I tried to run away from any space that talked about loneliness, but I just got lonelier. If I could get better at suffering in silence, the lives of those around me would improve dramatically.
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- I am 26 years old and male
- I am fat (at least 210 pounds)
- I am not tall enough (5'9", maybe on a good day)
- I am ugly (I will upload a picture if you need proof, but I have posted to various rating subreddits and have been rated below average every time. Most people didn't even bother to call me ugly, they just called me fat. My celebrity lookalike is probably Macaulay Culkin as a child, and I am a 26-year-old man)
- My eyes are a horrible, lifeless grey. For the longest time, I thought they were blue, but my vision is also bad and I couldn't tell
- My lips are huge. My mom would occasionally call me n-word lips when I was a child
- I cannot grow decent-looking facial hair. It is too light and patchy to groom into anything that would look good on me
- I look significantly younger than I am. No, this is not a good thing. I look like an ugly teenager
- Every woman I have ever asked out has told me no
- No one has ever been attracted to me
- I live with my parents and brother
- I have very little money, and I couldn't afford to move out if I wanted to
- I work at home caring for my brother, because he has Duchenne Muscular Dystrophy, and it seems like I will be doing it for the rest of my life, even if it isn't my job
- I told my old therapist that my mom was being verbally abusive and short-tempered towards my brother. They called Adult Protective Services on me, which started an argument with my parents when I told them. My dad told me I needed to clean more, and I shouldn't have told the therapist anything before telling my mom, and my mom told me I was there to talk about myself, not them. I was also kicked out of therapy after the interview in which I said it. I am never going back, straight up
- I haven't made any new friends in years, and all of my old friends have moved on with their lives
- Everyone my age has a career, and I haven't even gotten a Bachelor's degree yet
- My parents argue every week, and I have to deal with it because my brother needs me. There were times when arguments between my parents were about me and my behavior
- I get stressed out around my mother and her demands, even though she is my mother
- I am absolutely worthless at cooking
- I am a lazy piece of garbage who can't get off the couch to clean enough to keep the house not dusty
- I am constantly freaked out and on edge, thinking about whether or not my parents are arguing and if my brother needs anything from me
- I can't stop thinking about opportunities that I screwed up to at least have friends. I know that no woman has ever felt attracted to me in that way, but if I hadn't been so boring and actually had something to talk about, I could've been friendly with them
- I am at least partially responsible for many of the rules on this subreddit, including rule nine, due to my past behavior here
- I am not ready to be a functional, decent person
I just want the thoughts to stop. I tried to run away from any space that talked about loneliness, but I just got lonelier. If I could get better at suffering in silence, the lives of those around me would improve dramatically.
2023.06.03 20:50 Dragoness_Eather AITA for catching a feral kitten?
I (24 F) live at home with my mum and dad. We have several cats, all who are rescues, 3 who come and go from the house and one who lives in a Cattery (cat kennel) outside.
Recently up at the field we lian for the horses, there's a 9 strong colony of feral cats, 7 adults 2 kittens. We've been slowly gaining their trust by feeding them, and today I managed to trap one of the kittens (Who I've named Bobby/ie. Y if boy ie if girl). We had just come back from a horse riding lesson, and my mum wanted me to release it since she thought it was "too young to take away from its mother". The thing is, my Aunty R rescues and trapps cats to get then neutered/spayed and found homes, and she's said that as long as it's eating solid food -which Bobs is- then they can be brought in. It even started eating food in it's cage when we got it home! It's in the Cattery since its used to being outside and we hope that the Feral (Fern) will help it to calm down.
The part where I might be TA is because of my mum.
My mum gas an opinion, and that's fine, but I told her what my plans were for the kittens and she said she wasn't getting involved... but she has! She has been shouting at me because "Who's going to feed it?" (Me obviously) and "It shouldn't be away from it's mum!" (Despite Ve, our current 2 year old cat, coming home with us at 7 weeks and exactly the same as this kitten).
I asked my dad if he'd help me set up the cage and he said yes, but of course, being the control freak she is, mum had a complete melt down, while I was on the phone to Aunty R to make sure we were setting the cage up right, and started screeching demands at my dad.
If this all wasn't bad enough, she then brought the horse box onto the drive in a way that blocked my dads car from getting in, is refusing to move it and has hidden the keys.
AITA for catching these kittens and having my mum scream at me even though she said she wasn't getting involved?
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Recently up at the field we lian for the horses, there's a 9 strong colony of feral cats, 7 adults 2 kittens. We've been slowly gaining their trust by feeding them, and today I managed to trap one of the kittens (Who I've named Bobby/ie. Y if boy ie if girl). We had just come back from a horse riding lesson, and my mum wanted me to release it since she thought it was "too young to take away from its mother". The thing is, my Aunty R rescues and trapps cats to get then neutered/spayed and found homes, and she's said that as long as it's eating solid food -which Bobs is- then they can be brought in. It even started eating food in it's cage when we got it home! It's in the Cattery since its used to being outside and we hope that the Feral (Fern) will help it to calm down.
The part where I might be TA is because of my mum.
My mum gas an opinion, and that's fine, but I told her what my plans were for the kittens and she said she wasn't getting involved... but she has! She has been shouting at me because "Who's going to feed it?" (Me obviously) and "It shouldn't be away from it's mum!" (Despite Ve, our current 2 year old cat, coming home with us at 7 weeks and exactly the same as this kitten).
I asked my dad if he'd help me set up the cage and he said yes, but of course, being the control freak she is, mum had a complete melt down, while I was on the phone to Aunty R to make sure we were setting the cage up right, and started screeching demands at my dad.
If this all wasn't bad enough, she then brought the horse box onto the drive in a way that blocked my dads car from getting in, is refusing to move it and has hidden the keys.
AITA for catching these kittens and having my mum scream at me even though she said she wasn't getting involved?
2023.06.03 20:45 HufflepuffPrincess96 AITAH for blocking part of my family?
I (26f) have a great aunt, M, who is in her 60's I think and a son, J, in his 40's. She has another son who is mentally handicapped. And they have 3 out of 6 of J's kids, 3 of her nephews kids, and my niece living with her. My niece went through a traumatic event and is with her until my sister can find housing near where my niece wants to be. My sister (32f) and I drove the 2 hours to go see her daughter, but M and J were not there. All of the kids were. Only one of the kids is 18 and she was not involved in any of this. There is a 13 year old girl, O, there that honestly she acts like a wannabe gangster. She acts tough and every time she had seen me in the last 5 years had called me a cow... so I don't really want anything to do with her to begin with. Anyways we got there and my nerves were already shot and I hadn't eaten all day which had made it so much worse. I had tried to talk to my niece and O kept trying to interrupt and pull my niece away from me and the caught a whole attitude when my niece stayed with me. Then I had went outside because it is beyond chaotic in that house. While I was walking away O in a snobby voice said bye, and I had responded that I was going to smoke I wasn't going anywhere. I'll admit it was sharper than intended. Well we were told to wait in my car. When M and J pulled in M jerked the car to a stop, called my sister inside, and told J to "handle me." Instead of asking what my deal was which I would have said sorry to, J starts screaming at me to get in my car and that those kids deserve respect. Then J, O, and all of the other kids accept the 18 year old begin flipping me off every time they walk by my car. O keeps running her mouth telling me to take my car off the property and shut my door and what not. When we got home I was honestly heart broken. I grew up around these people and I ended up blocking all of them, except my niece. I know I'm going to get an earful come Monday, but I just want to make sure, AITAH?
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2023.06.03 20:44 procrastin8or951 The First Proposal
I'm on approximately my 53rd rewatch of Gilmore Girls and I just got to the season 1 Chris-proposed-to-Lorelai moment.
There are so many things to unpack about this proposal, but what I always come back to is how much Christopher internalized the old-money family ideals and how opposite that is to what Lorelai believes about family.
A few episodes before, when Richard has his attack of angina, Lorelai tells Luke how her father was never warm or affectionate with her, but that he "did what he thought he was supposed to do" - going to work, providing financially, and creating a stable life for them. That his expectation as a father was that if he provided financially, his daughter should act in accordance with the ideals of the society he raised her in. In "Christopher Returns," we see that Chris was raised in much the same way. Straub had the same sort of expectation for Chris that the Gilmores had for Lorelai - go to [Specific Legacy College] and become [Specific Legacy Career]. Straub is every bit the same sort of non-affectionate, financially providing father that Richard is, and it's likely that Chris believes that's what fathers are.
It plays out a lot in his interactions with Rory in particular, that he is "ready to be a father" once he inherits a bunch of money, because now he can financially provide. That he thinks he deserves her respect for being her father when he's never been present for her emotionally (or physically), because in his mind, that's not part of the requirements of being a father.
Back to my point, in this proposal, I think you can really see some of those values come out of Christopher. First of all, there is exactly zero awareness of Lorelai's emotional state. She's clearly having a meltdown about the previous night and is extremely upset, and he springs a proposal on her as though this is at all an appropriate time or way to do that? It's 100% about what he wants - he even phrases it that way: "I want to marry you." There's no regard at all for what she needs in that moment or at all.
Beyond that, he goes on to say they are "already a family." She retorts that he doesn't know what a family is, and he responds "people living together." (BRO YOU DON'T EVEN LIVE HERE). He asks if she wants financial statements to prove he's ready to be a part of their family. Because that's the only requirement on the fatherhood end. She had listed a bunch of other things including coming home to the same place every day, being present for your family. He didn't engage about any of that, he only offered the financial thing. As an aside, it's also wild to me that the only thing he's offering is financial stability and it's revealed in that same conversation that that was also a lie. The family she has created with Rory is definitely not based in these same values that Chris is espousing.
Anyway, I just always think it's interesting because by and large, Lorelai has walked away from the high society old money world very easily, but Chris is the one thing she can't seem to walk away from, and he is so ingrained in those values. It's the one piece of that world she can't seem to walk away from.
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There are so many things to unpack about this proposal, but what I always come back to is how much Christopher internalized the old-money family ideals and how opposite that is to what Lorelai believes about family.
A few episodes before, when Richard has his attack of angina, Lorelai tells Luke how her father was never warm or affectionate with her, but that he "did what he thought he was supposed to do" - going to work, providing financially, and creating a stable life for them. That his expectation as a father was that if he provided financially, his daughter should act in accordance with the ideals of the society he raised her in. In "Christopher Returns," we see that Chris was raised in much the same way. Straub had the same sort of expectation for Chris that the Gilmores had for Lorelai - go to [Specific Legacy College] and become [Specific Legacy Career]. Straub is every bit the same sort of non-affectionate, financially providing father that Richard is, and it's likely that Chris believes that's what fathers are.
It plays out a lot in his interactions with Rory in particular, that he is "ready to be a father" once he inherits a bunch of money, because now he can financially provide. That he thinks he deserves her respect for being her father when he's never been present for her emotionally (or physically), because in his mind, that's not part of the requirements of being a father.
Back to my point, in this proposal, I think you can really see some of those values come out of Christopher. First of all, there is exactly zero awareness of Lorelai's emotional state. She's clearly having a meltdown about the previous night and is extremely upset, and he springs a proposal on her as though this is at all an appropriate time or way to do that? It's 100% about what he wants - he even phrases it that way: "I want to marry you." There's no regard at all for what she needs in that moment or at all.
Beyond that, he goes on to say they are "already a family." She retorts that he doesn't know what a family is, and he responds "people living together." (BRO YOU DON'T EVEN LIVE HERE). He asks if she wants financial statements to prove he's ready to be a part of their family. Because that's the only requirement on the fatherhood end. She had listed a bunch of other things including coming home to the same place every day, being present for your family. He didn't engage about any of that, he only offered the financial thing. As an aside, it's also wild to me that the only thing he's offering is financial stability and it's revealed in that same conversation that that was also a lie. The family she has created with Rory is definitely not based in these same values that Chris is espousing.
Anyway, I just always think it's interesting because by and large, Lorelai has walked away from the high society old money world very easily, but Chris is the one thing she can't seem to walk away from, and he is so ingrained in those values. It's the one piece of that world she can't seem to walk away from.
2023.06.03 20:44 lutherwriteshorror After a class reunion we knocked over a headstone. It was a terrible mistake.
A heavy mist settled on the cemetery, just as it always had when we were children. Thwack! I ran straight into another headstone and fell into the mud, breathless. Scrambling to my feet, I looked behind me, hoping that whatever was chasing me had gone off somewhere else.
It was a mistake to come back to Endeavor for my 25 year reunion. I swore I’d never step foot in this town again, with its three block main street where everyone was either a drunk, an abuser, or a holier-than-the saints-themselves wannabe street preacher, or some combination of all of the above.
How the hell do I get out of this cemetery?
I’d gotten drunk, but not so drunk that I shouldn’t have been able to find my way out, even in this heavy mist. It descended as soon as we kicked over Mr. Grantz’ headstone, that old, blustering asshole. He deserved some sort of retribution after the shit he put kids through for decades in this town. He was Mister Evangelical himself, somehow granted the right to stuff his convoluted ideologies on us in the place of an actual science education.
After we turned a bit tipsy Derrick, Anne, Roger, and I decided to leave the bar that was hosting the reunion to stagger out to the cemetery one last time — pay homage to our old midnight refuge. What better way to relive our inglorious days?
Damn! I hit my knee on another headstone. I just wanted out, an escape from this hellhole. “I’ll go home and never bother this place again!” I shouted into the mist.
Derrick played football — still as skinny and probably at least half as fast as that knobby-elbowed teenager who was practically chased out of town for not scoring a winning touchdown to get us to state. Anne was the girl we were all in love with. She stayed in town and teaches history, or I'm sure as much actual history as she can get away with uttering aloud. Roger couldn’t do anything right, but could still get away with anything by his smile.
On June nights like this we’d always go hang out late at night drinking non-age-appropriate beverages at the Endeavor cemetery. It was about a half-mile walk on the train tracks from “town.” We’d all sneak out with our flashlights and walk there, sometimes solo, sometimes in pairs, and even then it sort of creeped me out to go it alone, walking on that path of lonesome steel between the walls of tall grass that swayed in the wind.
My alcohol tolerance had gone way down since I grew up and life stopped being about partying. Otherwise I would have been way too inhibited to let those old friends pry me back to the cemetery. Whose idea was this? It was Roger's ideas wasn't it?
The only good idea he had in his entire life is that we needed to get out of Endeavor.
Was I running in circles or something? I limped in a direction I believed had to be the way out. Tipsy, sure, but there’s no way I was drunk enough that I couldn’t find my way out of a small town cemetery.
In high school Roger has been spared, but the rest of us had been Mr. Grantz’ personal classroom punching bags, all because our families didn’t go to church, or didn’t go enough for Mr. Grantz’ liking. My heathen mother even had the gall to speak the word “evolution” in public once, so as far as the church folk were concerned (meaning nearly everyone) my family needed to be chased out of town.
Congratulations. Endeavor wasn't a paradise. It was a graveyard of aspiration.
So yeah, we stomped to the cemetery in the delirium of getting drunk together one last time in Endeavor after spending half our lives away from each other.
Derrick is the one who stumbled onto Mr. Grantz’ headstone. “Whoa!? That psychopath finally died. Hallelujah!” he yelled.
“Derrick!” Anne said, “I know you had your differences but that’s no reason to celebrate his passing. He was a human being.” She must have made her peace with the people of this town years ago. The rest of us did our real growing up once we got outside.
“Differences? Do you remember when I missed that touchdown, how it was because my family was unclean? He was the one who kept telling people we needed to go back to the old ways and they should burn me on a pyre for it. It was one bad play against a team of kids who were twice our size.” Derrick caught the wind in his throat, “It would be hard for me to mourn someone who wanted to kill a kid over a touchdown.”
“I gotta piss,” Roger said, smirking.
“No,” Anne said.
“See, even Roger wants to get this guy, and he wasn’t even one of Mr. Grantz’ targets.”
As they argued I swayed in the wind getting angrier and angrier remembering that old blowhard. Once, when I was having trouble sleeping, I fell to sleep on my desk in the middle of his science class, and he dropped a bowling ball on my desk to wake me up and “teach me a lesson.” It slid off the desk and landed on my foot breaking some small bones that never healed well and still bother me to this day.
“Let’s tip it over,” I said.
They all looked at me wide eyed, then grins spread over Derrick and Roger’s faces, devious in the moonlight.
“Hell yeah!” they agreed.
“You’re all going to hell for this,” Anne said, trying to stop them. But we were all already kicking at the marble headstone, trying to get it to budge from the Earth. My foot throbbed in that old familiar way, but this was worth it.
“Are you being serious, Anne? Are you a believer now? Don’t tell me this town got to you,” Derrick said.
“‘Got to me?’If that’s what you call growing up and getting over my youthful rebellious phase, then yes. Earl Grantz was a town hero. He only wanted the best for the people here and I can’t just let you desecrate his grave.”
Roger blocked Anne from stopping us while Derrick and I kept kicking the headstone. Hard and heavy, the thing didn’t want to budge. I got on its level and tried pushing it with my shoulder while Derrick kept kicking it.
After a minute I fell to the ground to rest.
Anne looked at me, “If you’re having a heart attack you deserve it. You don’t even know what will happen if you manage to knock that thing down. You don’t know what they’ll do.”
“Oh come on, I’m going to be out of this town for the rest of my life in about six hours. There’s nothing the community of Endeavor will be able to do to me ever again.”
“We’ll see about that,” she said.
I got back up and resumed kicking with Derrick who hadn’t stopped for a second. In fact, it was like he was getting stronger and stronger, maybe remembering more of Mr. Granz’ vitriolic outbursts. I could still see the old man with his white beard and loud, sharp face barrelling down at me for any perceived sleight.
“It’s starting to give,” Derrick said.
Then all at once, with one last kick the headstone cracked at its base and thudded over into the damp grass.
“Whoa, we did it.” Derrick took a step back.
We all stood there for a moment, struck by a kind of awe. That old man who had made things so hard for us in high school, he was really dead. He was dead in the ground and could never yell at us or throw bowling balls at us or set the entire town against us ever again. He was being eaten by worms. A sad meal. We’d survived him and this town.
I guess Anne was struck by a different kind of awe. Probably she was surprised at the audacity of her old friends, drunk and stupid in the cemetery. Whatever her feelings were, by the time I turned to look for her she’d already disappeared into the night.
We had a good laugh, the three of us, reunited for this taste of revenge. The headstone lay there in the barely tended grass and I thought of how pointless his attacks on us had been, the harassment, the ostracization, the constant preaching and withholding of an actual education — we were all doing fine to spite him. Derrick worked as head of sales at a sportswear company, I was the top non-profit tax whiz in my city, Roger had one of those vague program manager positions at an even more vague start-up gone big, and we all had families waiting for us at home. "Here lies a failure in life and death" is what the headstone should have read.
That’s when we heard it, a placeless whispering descended onto the cemetery.
It was as if the wind was made of barely audible voices, speaking in rolling anger that went on and on. And with it a dark mist fell on us.
“What the —” Roger said.
“It’s just the mist playing tricks on us, an auditory illusion,” Derrick said.
But up the back of my spine a tingling sensation had already started to warn me that something insidious was happening. Even when we were children, we’d joked about how the mist in the cemetery felt unnatural, but now it came on twice as quickly and it was twice as thick. I could barely see the others. “We should start making it back to our cars," I said.
"I don't remember the fog ever being this bad," Derrick said.
"We had actual flashlights with us. That might have made a difference," I offered. We only had the flashlights on our phones, and as the moments passed the mist deepened until they were nearly useless.
"Climate change," Roger said.
"Don't tell that one to Mr. Grantz," I said.
Laughing, Derrick stumbled on a small divet in the ground, rolling onto his back. I think he saw something then. I can’t say for sure, but as I looked down at him, my mind still blurred by the alcohol, I saw a serious fear drawn over his eyes, stifling his laughter. For a moment his lip quivered before he let out a scream that was swallowed by the thick country air. A column of mist poured into his mouth. It might have been the shock, but I thought in the mist I saw a torrent of pale hands forcing their way down his throat.
Derrick’s body convulsed. He shook harder and harder until the attack ceased and he sank, limp, into the ground.
“Help!” Roger screamed as he was pulled into the mist by something I couldn’t see.
I didn’t wait a moment longer. I didn’t try to stay and help my friends or check to see if Derrick was still alive. I bolted. Whatever that was in the mist, if I could put some distance between myself and it, maybe I could get out of this cemetery, follow the traintracks back to town, get back into my Honda Civic and drive away from this godforsaken town.
The mumbling whispers grew louder behind me, but I didn’t dare look. I’d give anything just to make it out of this cemetery. This was a stupid night. I never should have come back, but I wasn’t going to let this drunken mistake leave my children to grow up without a father.
Sorry Derrick, I thought. Sorry Roger. And, what in the hell happened to Anne? What was it she said, we didn’t know what they’ll do? Is that what’s happening now?
I ran until my lungs burned, bumping into headstones left and right. This place wasn’t a labyrinth. How was it that I hadn’t gotten out of it by now? The cemetery couldn’t be bigger than a couple few city blocks. Hardly anyone lived in Endeavor to begin with. It didn’t take much space to house their dead. How many of these people have been completely forgotten to time by now? How many of them were succeeded only by children like me, children who they chased out of town. How many of them had bigoted, evil hearts like Mr. Grantz?
My knee smacked on something hard, another headstone, and I cried out. I could hardly move anymore from all the bruises I’d just taken. But I limp-ran in desperation, my hurt leg skidding on the ground. The mist was close behind me. I could feel it wet on the back of my neck, but I knew I only needed to make it a little further.
An exposed tree root caught my foot and I tumbled to the ground, my head knocking against something hard. I frantically crawled back toward my feet but I kept falling back down. I wasn’t seeing straight. Why is this happening to me? I swore I’d never come back.
It was Anne that reached out to us all. She’d wanted to bring the old gang back together for the reunion. Over half the class had stayed in town after graduation, but the rest of us had left Endeavor, and from what I gathered none of us spared a look back. Why didn’t we ever think of how that would have felt for Anne? She didn’t have the same agency as the rest of us. Heck, her parents had threatened to pull her from school and homeschool her in their traditional way. Of course she ended up like this. We were her lifeline.
Damn it!
Every time I tried to get up I twisted some other muscle and collapsed back to the ground. I’d never put my body through something like this before, especially after the age of forty. I’d already been dreading the day-long hangover I saw in my future as we left the bar, but at this rate I’d be lucky to be able to walk — that is, if I even got out of this cemetery alive.
Anne had gone to the trouble of mailing us each nice, handwritten letters on stationary inviting us to the reunion. She wanted everyone to get together. It was incredibly thoughtful of her. Apparently she’d worked with all the others to make sure everyone else who’d abandoned Endeavor had an invitation. Of course, not everyone came, but most of the class made it.
We met at Freddy’s, an old country dive we’d never been able to get into before. In Endeavor everybody knows everybody, so there’s no sneaking into bars with a fake id.
I’d been in city dives, but Freddy’s was something else. It reminded me more of a barn where bats would live in the rafters than a bar — a big open space with tables strung about here and there, a pool table near the corner, dust counting the years on the floor. Just my guess, but I don’t think the owner knows what the flooring is made of, that’s how often it looked like it’d been cleaned. Still, it was nice coming back and seeing this part of Endeavor we’d always wondered about.
The folks that stayed in town welcomed us back in, but it was obvious there was a sort of familiarity and camaraderie among them that the rest of us would never have again — the kind of camaraderie that comes from spending forty years with the same small group of people, of having small town secrets and knowing all the things in a human life that can go unsaid.
It was Anne’s idea to go to the cemetery, wasn’t it?
She could tell we were all a bit uncomfortable and wanted to catch up more privately. As always, she was the sensitive person who could tell what we were all feeling and gave us direction. There was a time when I was young when I thought I’d grow up to marry her — funny to think of it now, that I pictured my life in Endeavor, of scraping out an existence in this place that now seemed so desolate, an isolated island away from everything that truly mattered to me. I’m sure Derrick and Roger felt like that too. Did Anne think about us like that? In her imagination, had she pictured the future with each of us, trying us on like coats, only to be abandoned in the end.
The mist had gotten so deep I couldn’t see where I was going, though I’d slowed to a crawl. My hand felt something cold and hard on the ground. I pulled myself close and I saw the inscription, “Here lies Earl Grantz.” After all that running I was back at Mr. Grantz’ headstone where I’d started.
I lifted myself to my feet and noticed two long shapes beside me on the ground. Derrick and Roger. My heart dropped. Something had dragged them back.
A cold hand grabbed onto my hair and pulled my head back. The mist poured into my open mouth like a thousand frozen beads of pain. I tried to scream, but it kept pouring into me as I collapsed to the damp dirt on my already bruised and skinned knees. Stop! Please, I can’t take any more! I wanted to beg. It kept going until I lost consciousness.
I awakened to the sun already high in the sky, my whole body throbbing with pain. Derrick was nudging me with his foot.
“Good,” he gasped, “we’re all alive then.”
“What? What just happened?” I asked.
He stood above me with Roger. Alive. Somehow after the events of last night we’d made it to the morning in the land of the living. I didn’t orphan my kids.
“I saw the mist get you, both of you. I ran, but I couldn’t escape the cemetery,” I said.
“All I know is that I’m getting out of here and I’m not looking back,” Roger said.
“I’m with ya.” Derrick helped me up to my feet.
Neither of them was as outwardly hurt as I knew I was. I could feel every scrape and bruise down to my bones, not to mention the hangover. “What about Anne?” I asked.
“No sign of her.”
Before we limped back to town I pulled out my cellphone to see the worried messages from my wife. She assumed I’d only gotten drunk and let my phone die. I sent her a selfie of my swollen face and said that last night hadn’t gone as planned, but I was on my way home — desperate to get out of godforsaken Endeavor — and would explain everything to her. How could I explain this? I can’t even explain it to myself.
I told the others about the events of last night after I’d lost them, and they nodded, listening. None of us had anything resembling a logical explanation.
My phone dinged with a message. “I’m glad you’re safe! I was so worried. But are you using some sort of filter? Your eyes are green in this picture.”
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It was a mistake to come back to Endeavor for my 25 year reunion. I swore I’d never step foot in this town again, with its three block main street where everyone was either a drunk, an abuser, or a holier-than-the saints-themselves wannabe street preacher, or some combination of all of the above.
How the hell do I get out of this cemetery?
I’d gotten drunk, but not so drunk that I shouldn’t have been able to find my way out, even in this heavy mist. It descended as soon as we kicked over Mr. Grantz’ headstone, that old, blustering asshole. He deserved some sort of retribution after the shit he put kids through for decades in this town. He was Mister Evangelical himself, somehow granted the right to stuff his convoluted ideologies on us in the place of an actual science education.
After we turned a bit tipsy Derrick, Anne, Roger, and I decided to leave the bar that was hosting the reunion to stagger out to the cemetery one last time — pay homage to our old midnight refuge. What better way to relive our inglorious days?
Damn! I hit my knee on another headstone. I just wanted out, an escape from this hellhole. “I’ll go home and never bother this place again!” I shouted into the mist.
Derrick played football — still as skinny and probably at least half as fast as that knobby-elbowed teenager who was practically chased out of town for not scoring a winning touchdown to get us to state. Anne was the girl we were all in love with. She stayed in town and teaches history, or I'm sure as much actual history as she can get away with uttering aloud. Roger couldn’t do anything right, but could still get away with anything by his smile.
On June nights like this we’d always go hang out late at night drinking non-age-appropriate beverages at the Endeavor cemetery. It was about a half-mile walk on the train tracks from “town.” We’d all sneak out with our flashlights and walk there, sometimes solo, sometimes in pairs, and even then it sort of creeped me out to go it alone, walking on that path of lonesome steel between the walls of tall grass that swayed in the wind.
My alcohol tolerance had gone way down since I grew up and life stopped being about partying. Otherwise I would have been way too inhibited to let those old friends pry me back to the cemetery. Whose idea was this? It was Roger's ideas wasn't it?
The only good idea he had in his entire life is that we needed to get out of Endeavor.
Was I running in circles or something? I limped in a direction I believed had to be the way out. Tipsy, sure, but there’s no way I was drunk enough that I couldn’t find my way out of a small town cemetery.
In high school Roger has been spared, but the rest of us had been Mr. Grantz’ personal classroom punching bags, all because our families didn’t go to church, or didn’t go enough for Mr. Grantz’ liking. My heathen mother even had the gall to speak the word “evolution” in public once, so as far as the church folk were concerned (meaning nearly everyone) my family needed to be chased out of town.
Congratulations. Endeavor wasn't a paradise. It was a graveyard of aspiration.
So yeah, we stomped to the cemetery in the delirium of getting drunk together one last time in Endeavor after spending half our lives away from each other.
Derrick is the one who stumbled onto Mr. Grantz’ headstone. “Whoa!? That psychopath finally died. Hallelujah!” he yelled.
“Derrick!” Anne said, “I know you had your differences but that’s no reason to celebrate his passing. He was a human being.” She must have made her peace with the people of this town years ago. The rest of us did our real growing up once we got outside.
“Differences? Do you remember when I missed that touchdown, how it was because my family was unclean? He was the one who kept telling people we needed to go back to the old ways and they should burn me on a pyre for it. It was one bad play against a team of kids who were twice our size.” Derrick caught the wind in his throat, “It would be hard for me to mourn someone who wanted to kill a kid over a touchdown.”
“I gotta piss,” Roger said, smirking.
“No,” Anne said.
“See, even Roger wants to get this guy, and he wasn’t even one of Mr. Grantz’ targets.”
As they argued I swayed in the wind getting angrier and angrier remembering that old blowhard. Once, when I was having trouble sleeping, I fell to sleep on my desk in the middle of his science class, and he dropped a bowling ball on my desk to wake me up and “teach me a lesson.” It slid off the desk and landed on my foot breaking some small bones that never healed well and still bother me to this day.
“Let’s tip it over,” I said.
They all looked at me wide eyed, then grins spread over Derrick and Roger’s faces, devious in the moonlight.
“Hell yeah!” they agreed.
“You’re all going to hell for this,” Anne said, trying to stop them. But we were all already kicking at the marble headstone, trying to get it to budge from the Earth. My foot throbbed in that old familiar way, but this was worth it.
“Are you being serious, Anne? Are you a believer now? Don’t tell me this town got to you,” Derrick said.
“‘Got to me?’If that’s what you call growing up and getting over my youthful rebellious phase, then yes. Earl Grantz was a town hero. He only wanted the best for the people here and I can’t just let you desecrate his grave.”
Roger blocked Anne from stopping us while Derrick and I kept kicking the headstone. Hard and heavy, the thing didn’t want to budge. I got on its level and tried pushing it with my shoulder while Derrick kept kicking it.
After a minute I fell to the ground to rest.
Anne looked at me, “If you’re having a heart attack you deserve it. You don’t even know what will happen if you manage to knock that thing down. You don’t know what they’ll do.”
“Oh come on, I’m going to be out of this town for the rest of my life in about six hours. There’s nothing the community of Endeavor will be able to do to me ever again.”
“We’ll see about that,” she said.
I got back up and resumed kicking with Derrick who hadn’t stopped for a second. In fact, it was like he was getting stronger and stronger, maybe remembering more of Mr. Granz’ vitriolic outbursts. I could still see the old man with his white beard and loud, sharp face barrelling down at me for any perceived sleight.
“It’s starting to give,” Derrick said.
Then all at once, with one last kick the headstone cracked at its base and thudded over into the damp grass.
“Whoa, we did it.” Derrick took a step back.
We all stood there for a moment, struck by a kind of awe. That old man who had made things so hard for us in high school, he was really dead. He was dead in the ground and could never yell at us or throw bowling balls at us or set the entire town against us ever again. He was being eaten by worms. A sad meal. We’d survived him and this town.
I guess Anne was struck by a different kind of awe. Probably she was surprised at the audacity of her old friends, drunk and stupid in the cemetery. Whatever her feelings were, by the time I turned to look for her she’d already disappeared into the night.
We had a good laugh, the three of us, reunited for this taste of revenge. The headstone lay there in the barely tended grass and I thought of how pointless his attacks on us had been, the harassment, the ostracization, the constant preaching and withholding of an actual education — we were all doing fine to spite him. Derrick worked as head of sales at a sportswear company, I was the top non-profit tax whiz in my city, Roger had one of those vague program manager positions at an even more vague start-up gone big, and we all had families waiting for us at home. "Here lies a failure in life and death" is what the headstone should have read.
That’s when we heard it, a placeless whispering descended onto the cemetery.
It was as if the wind was made of barely audible voices, speaking in rolling anger that went on and on. And with it a dark mist fell on us.
“What the —” Roger said.
“It’s just the mist playing tricks on us, an auditory illusion,” Derrick said.
But up the back of my spine a tingling sensation had already started to warn me that something insidious was happening. Even when we were children, we’d joked about how the mist in the cemetery felt unnatural, but now it came on twice as quickly and it was twice as thick. I could barely see the others. “We should start making it back to our cars," I said.
"I don't remember the fog ever being this bad," Derrick said.
"We had actual flashlights with us. That might have made a difference," I offered. We only had the flashlights on our phones, and as the moments passed the mist deepened until they were nearly useless.
"Climate change," Roger said.
"Don't tell that one to Mr. Grantz," I said.
Laughing, Derrick stumbled on a small divet in the ground, rolling onto his back. I think he saw something then. I can’t say for sure, but as I looked down at him, my mind still blurred by the alcohol, I saw a serious fear drawn over his eyes, stifling his laughter. For a moment his lip quivered before he let out a scream that was swallowed by the thick country air. A column of mist poured into his mouth. It might have been the shock, but I thought in the mist I saw a torrent of pale hands forcing their way down his throat.
Derrick’s body convulsed. He shook harder and harder until the attack ceased and he sank, limp, into the ground.
“Help!” Roger screamed as he was pulled into the mist by something I couldn’t see.
I didn’t wait a moment longer. I didn’t try to stay and help my friends or check to see if Derrick was still alive. I bolted. Whatever that was in the mist, if I could put some distance between myself and it, maybe I could get out of this cemetery, follow the traintracks back to town, get back into my Honda Civic and drive away from this godforsaken town.
The mumbling whispers grew louder behind me, but I didn’t dare look. I’d give anything just to make it out of this cemetery. This was a stupid night. I never should have come back, but I wasn’t going to let this drunken mistake leave my children to grow up without a father.
Sorry Derrick, I thought. Sorry Roger. And, what in the hell happened to Anne? What was it she said, we didn’t know what they’ll do? Is that what’s happening now?
I ran until my lungs burned, bumping into headstones left and right. This place wasn’t a labyrinth. How was it that I hadn’t gotten out of it by now? The cemetery couldn’t be bigger than a couple few city blocks. Hardly anyone lived in Endeavor to begin with. It didn’t take much space to house their dead. How many of these people have been completely forgotten to time by now? How many of them were succeeded only by children like me, children who they chased out of town. How many of them had bigoted, evil hearts like Mr. Grantz?
My knee smacked on something hard, another headstone, and I cried out. I could hardly move anymore from all the bruises I’d just taken. But I limp-ran in desperation, my hurt leg skidding on the ground. The mist was close behind me. I could feel it wet on the back of my neck, but I knew I only needed to make it a little further.
An exposed tree root caught my foot and I tumbled to the ground, my head knocking against something hard. I frantically crawled back toward my feet but I kept falling back down. I wasn’t seeing straight. Why is this happening to me? I swore I’d never come back.
It was Anne that reached out to us all. She’d wanted to bring the old gang back together for the reunion. Over half the class had stayed in town after graduation, but the rest of us had left Endeavor, and from what I gathered none of us spared a look back. Why didn’t we ever think of how that would have felt for Anne? She didn’t have the same agency as the rest of us. Heck, her parents had threatened to pull her from school and homeschool her in their traditional way. Of course she ended up like this. We were her lifeline.
Damn it!
Every time I tried to get up I twisted some other muscle and collapsed back to the ground. I’d never put my body through something like this before, especially after the age of forty. I’d already been dreading the day-long hangover I saw in my future as we left the bar, but at this rate I’d be lucky to be able to walk — that is, if I even got out of this cemetery alive.
Anne had gone to the trouble of mailing us each nice, handwritten letters on stationary inviting us to the reunion. She wanted everyone to get together. It was incredibly thoughtful of her. Apparently she’d worked with all the others to make sure everyone else who’d abandoned Endeavor had an invitation. Of course, not everyone came, but most of the class made it.
We met at Freddy’s, an old country dive we’d never been able to get into before. In Endeavor everybody knows everybody, so there’s no sneaking into bars with a fake id.
I’d been in city dives, but Freddy’s was something else. It reminded me more of a barn where bats would live in the rafters than a bar — a big open space with tables strung about here and there, a pool table near the corner, dust counting the years on the floor. Just my guess, but I don’t think the owner knows what the flooring is made of, that’s how often it looked like it’d been cleaned. Still, it was nice coming back and seeing this part of Endeavor we’d always wondered about.
The folks that stayed in town welcomed us back in, but it was obvious there was a sort of familiarity and camaraderie among them that the rest of us would never have again — the kind of camaraderie that comes from spending forty years with the same small group of people, of having small town secrets and knowing all the things in a human life that can go unsaid.
It was Anne’s idea to go to the cemetery, wasn’t it?
She could tell we were all a bit uncomfortable and wanted to catch up more privately. As always, she was the sensitive person who could tell what we were all feeling and gave us direction. There was a time when I was young when I thought I’d grow up to marry her — funny to think of it now, that I pictured my life in Endeavor, of scraping out an existence in this place that now seemed so desolate, an isolated island away from everything that truly mattered to me. I’m sure Derrick and Roger felt like that too. Did Anne think about us like that? In her imagination, had she pictured the future with each of us, trying us on like coats, only to be abandoned in the end.
The mist had gotten so deep I couldn’t see where I was going, though I’d slowed to a crawl. My hand felt something cold and hard on the ground. I pulled myself close and I saw the inscription, “Here lies Earl Grantz.” After all that running I was back at Mr. Grantz’ headstone where I’d started.
I lifted myself to my feet and noticed two long shapes beside me on the ground. Derrick and Roger. My heart dropped. Something had dragged them back.
A cold hand grabbed onto my hair and pulled my head back. The mist poured into my open mouth like a thousand frozen beads of pain. I tried to scream, but it kept pouring into me as I collapsed to the damp dirt on my already bruised and skinned knees. Stop! Please, I can’t take any more! I wanted to beg. It kept going until I lost consciousness.
I awakened to the sun already high in the sky, my whole body throbbing with pain. Derrick was nudging me with his foot.
“Good,” he gasped, “we’re all alive then.”
“What? What just happened?” I asked.
He stood above me with Roger. Alive. Somehow after the events of last night we’d made it to the morning in the land of the living. I didn’t orphan my kids.
“I saw the mist get you, both of you. I ran, but I couldn’t escape the cemetery,” I said.
“All I know is that I’m getting out of here and I’m not looking back,” Roger said.
“I’m with ya.” Derrick helped me up to my feet.
Neither of them was as outwardly hurt as I knew I was. I could feel every scrape and bruise down to my bones, not to mention the hangover. “What about Anne?” I asked.
“No sign of her.”
Before we limped back to town I pulled out my cellphone to see the worried messages from my wife. She assumed I’d only gotten drunk and let my phone die. I sent her a selfie of my swollen face and said that last night hadn’t gone as planned, but I was on my way home — desperate to get out of godforsaken Endeavor — and would explain everything to her. How could I explain this? I can’t even explain it to myself.
I told the others about the events of last night after I’d lost them, and they nodded, listening. None of us had anything resembling a logical explanation.
My phone dinged with a message. “I’m glad you’re safe! I was so worried. But are you using some sort of filter? Your eyes are green in this picture.”
2023.06.03 20:41 Pro-4K Difficult one!
I’m trying to find a really old movie. It’s been several years since I’ve seen it, so I’ll do my best to describe it, but it won’t be great.
Year unknown, somewhere in 50’s or 60’s was when it was produced, but it wouldn’t hurt to look for movies from the 40’s.
There’s a murder near a koi pond and during the struggle, the murdered guy loses his glasses in the pond in the back yard of a mansion owned by a really old guy that lives with his daughter and grand daughter. The body is moved and they try to clean up any evidence, but they don’t notice the glasses that fell in the pond (we’ll come back to this later)
The gun used to kill the guy ended up being owned by the daughter living in the home and she’s afraid she’ll go to jail.
She makes her way to the office of an Attorney and he lets her stay there for the evening. A detective comes by asks if the attorney knows about this woman who is a murder suspect. The atty lies and the detective leaves. The attorney then start to investigate the murder on his own and is lead all over California looking for suspects. There’s a lot of talk about water distribution to various areas in California and how they’re re-routing water away from farms and it’s a business scheme worth millions of dollars. There’s a chase scene where two guys are chasing the attorney and the woman in a car and the baddies get shot and go down into a ravine. Cops later find the bodies and start comparing the rounds used. They were different from her gun, but she thought it was the same gun used (that she owned) in the original murder.
At one point the attorney gets attacked up on a hill overlooking the city in a dirt parking lot.
Eventually it comes out that the grand father is a creep and he used to m*lest his daughter. She was trying to get out of that mansion because she was worried he was messing around with her daughter as well.
Anyway, long story short, they figure it all out and are about to take all the evidence, including the glasses they found to the police when the woman (can’t remember why) tries to drive away in a car and is killed. The movie ends with the grand father taking custody of the young girl.
If you’ve seen this movie, you’ll know exactly what I’m talking about. I can’t figure it out… it’s actually a great movie, written well and the bad guy wins in the end, which again, is unusual because the only time the bad guy wins, is if he’s the one you’re rooting for throw out the movie. The grandfather was hardly seen in the movie.
When you’re watching the movie, there’s so much going on at once, it’s as if you’re watching 3 different movies that all mingle together.
Anyway, I hope you all can help.
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Year unknown, somewhere in 50’s or 60’s was when it was produced, but it wouldn’t hurt to look for movies from the 40’s.
There’s a murder near a koi pond and during the struggle, the murdered guy loses his glasses in the pond in the back yard of a mansion owned by a really old guy that lives with his daughter and grand daughter. The body is moved and they try to clean up any evidence, but they don’t notice the glasses that fell in the pond (we’ll come back to this later)
The gun used to kill the guy ended up being owned by the daughter living in the home and she’s afraid she’ll go to jail.
She makes her way to the office of an Attorney and he lets her stay there for the evening. A detective comes by asks if the attorney knows about this woman who is a murder suspect. The atty lies and the detective leaves. The attorney then start to investigate the murder on his own and is lead all over California looking for suspects. There’s a lot of talk about water distribution to various areas in California and how they’re re-routing water away from farms and it’s a business scheme worth millions of dollars. There’s a chase scene where two guys are chasing the attorney and the woman in a car and the baddies get shot and go down into a ravine. Cops later find the bodies and start comparing the rounds used. They were different from her gun, but she thought it was the same gun used (that she owned) in the original murder.
At one point the attorney gets attacked up on a hill overlooking the city in a dirt parking lot.
Eventually it comes out that the grand father is a creep and he used to m*lest his daughter. She was trying to get out of that mansion because she was worried he was messing around with her daughter as well.
Anyway, long story short, they figure it all out and are about to take all the evidence, including the glasses they found to the police when the woman (can’t remember why) tries to drive away in a car and is killed. The movie ends with the grand father taking custody of the young girl.
If you’ve seen this movie, you’ll know exactly what I’m talking about. I can’t figure it out… it’s actually a great movie, written well and the bad guy wins in the end, which again, is unusual because the only time the bad guy wins, is if he’s the one you’re rooting for throw out the movie. The grandfather was hardly seen in the movie.
When you’re watching the movie, there’s so much going on at once, it’s as if you’re watching 3 different movies that all mingle together.
Anyway, I hope you all can help.
2023.06.03 20:37 count2infinity2 How can I make vinyl railing tops flat for flower boxes?
I just installed vinyl railings on my new deck… something I didn’t think about is that the old railings were flat and my wife had flower boxes that just lay on top of the rail.
They’re the veranda railing from Home Depot… any ideas on how to make the rounded surface flat for plant boxes?
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They’re the veranda railing from Home Depot… any ideas on how to make the rounded surface flat for plant boxes?
2023.06.03 20:36 ShingekiTitan Do u guys recommend moving to columbus
Do you guys recommend moving to Columbus Ohio from NJ
My info 1. Spouse - stay at home mom for now and might find a job later for may be 100-150k 2. One 3month old daughter and 2 year old mini aussie dog 3. Planning for 1 more kid after 3-4 years. 4. Income - 300k from software job and no other income 5. NW - 200k (non retirement) and 200k retirement 6. H1-B for life as I am Indian and will stay in USA till kicked out, I will wait for my 3 month old US citizen daughter to grow up and sponser me. 7. No property in USA but I got some ancestral non income generating homes in India.
Probs with NJ I don't want to pay like 700k or 800k for a home which I am don't like or barely like and 6.5-7 % interest for 30 years(may be less rate in future) and high property taxes to go to public schools while I want private schools (for political reasons and my preference on schools). NJ New homes is only for families with close to a million dollars in bank for a cash offer or for families earning 500k+ yearly income to easily afford 160k down payment with good backup cash and 5-8k monthly payment on property which I am neither. I think I can only do either a small, old, ugly or far away home in NJ for 600k or less which I don't want.
Pros of Columbus I can get a big good looking home for less amount with low property taxes. The home will look better than any other friend's home I had seen in NJ with similar income. Decent private schools for 8-15k per year. (Just need to keep my remote job and future job changes might be hard, also social life needs to be restarted).
Requirements
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My info 1. Spouse - stay at home mom for now and might find a job later for may be 100-150k 2. One 3month old daughter and 2 year old mini aussie dog 3. Planning for 1 more kid after 3-4 years. 4. Income - 300k from software job and no other income 5. NW - 200k (non retirement) and 200k retirement 6. H1-B for life as I am Indian and will stay in USA till kicked out, I will wait for my 3 month old US citizen daughter to grow up and sponser me. 7. No property in USA but I got some ancestral non income generating homes in India.
Probs with NJ I don't want to pay like 700k or 800k for a home which I am don't like or barely like and 6.5-7 % interest for 30 years(may be less rate in future) and high property taxes to go to public schools while I want private schools (for political reasons and my preference on schools). NJ New homes is only for families with close to a million dollars in bank for a cash offer or for families earning 500k+ yearly income to easily afford 160k down payment with good backup cash and 5-8k monthly payment on property which I am neither. I think I can only do either a small, old, ugly or far away home in NJ for 600k or less which I don't want.
Pros of Columbus I can get a big good looking home for less amount with low property taxes. The home will look better than any other friend's home I had seen in NJ with similar income. Decent private schools for 8-15k per year. (Just need to keep my remote job and future job changes might be hard, also social life needs to be restarted).
Requirements
- City with good safety where my wife/daughter can walk at night
- City where I can afford private schools for 10-15k per year
- City with somewhat less state income tax and less property tax
- City where I can buy a big home 2k -3k square feet with 4-5 bedroom and 3 bathrooms and backyard for my dog to play for a total price of 600k or less, preferably 400-500k.
- I love the cold NJ/NY weather, my favorite outside is 50-60f (I can live with 40f but hard to tolerate 70f + ) and I can't stand the heat as I came from super hot Indian city.
- I would like free space of 0.5 -2 acres around but not a requirement
- I would like a single floor home so that I don't need to keep climbing up.
- I work in software but permanent remote job. If there are some software in person jobs in the city it would be good as I can get the in person job if I am fired from remote job.
- I mostly stay at home but I want some accessibility for music classes, self defense classes, gym, warehouse clubs,
2023.06.03 20:36 FightingforKaizen Do your friends value & respect your childfree lifestyle?
 | An interesting article about a lady who loves hearing the adventures of her childfree friends. submitted by FightingforKaizen to antinatalism [link] [comments] |
2023.06.03 20:33 Year_Popular Long-lasting, reliable pc for parents
>**What will you be doing with this PC? Be as specific as possible, and include specific games or programs you will be using.**
Building a pc for my parents who just need a reliable pc that should be able to last for the next 10 or so years (for reference, they're upgrading from a mini pc with an i3-2120T). They need it for work and general use - mostly through the browser and office apps with maybe some *very* light gaming. Onboard audio is a must (assuming thats optional on some mobos idk), Bluetooth would be nice, and wifi is welcome but not necessary. I've had a look for parts myself totaling Au$797 (including windows) that are in stock at my nearest store listed below. Any recommendations or alternatives would be greatly appreciated.
>**What is your maximum budget before rebates/shipping/taxes?**
We're looking around Au$800 but the budget is flexible.
>**When do you plan on building/buying the PC? Note: beyond a week or two from today means any build you receive will be out of date when you want to buy.**
Next week
>**What, exactly, do you need included in the budget? (ToweOS/monitokeyboard/mouse/etc\)**
Tower and win11 home (looks like I can get it for Au$130)
>**Which country (and state/province) will you be purchasing the parts in? If you're in US, do you have access to a Microcenter location?**
Queensland, Australia with the nearest store being MSY (they currently have some sales atm)
>**If reusing any parts (including monitor(s)/keyboard/mouse/etc), what parts will you be reusing? Brands and models are appreciated.**
Reusing an old case
>**Will you be overclocking? If yes, are you interested in overclocking right away, or down the line? CPU and/or GPU?**
Only memory oc to get full rated speeds
>**Are there any specific features or items you want/need in the build? (ex: SSD, large amount of storage or a RAID setup, CUDA or OpenCL support, etc)**
SSD, iGPU
>**Do you have any specific case preferences (Size like ITX/microATX/mid-towefull-tower, styles, colors, window or not, LED lighting, etc), or a particular color theme preference for the components?**
Reusing case (full atx, no side window) and no rgb
>**Do you need a copy of Windows included in the budget? If you do need one included, do you have a preference?**
Yes, windows 11 home (Au$130)
>**Extra info or particulars:**
PCPartPicker Part List: https://pcpartpicker.com/list/WCwRZw
CPU: Intel Core i3-12100 3.3 GHz Quad-Core Processor
Motherboard: Gigabyte B660 DS3H AX DDR4 ATX LGA1700 Motherboard
Memory: Corsair Vengeance LPX 8 GB (2 x 4 GB) DDR4-2400 CL16 Memory
Storage: Kingston KC3000 1.024 TB M.2-2280 PCIe 4.0 X4 NVME Solid State Drive
Power Supply: Silverstone Strider 650 W 80+ Gold Certified Fully Modular ATX Power Supply
*Note on PSU: its the cheapest 80+ gold psu available and the lowest available wattage is 500w so i figured it would be the best choice (with the added benefit of being modular)
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Building a pc for my parents who just need a reliable pc that should be able to last for the next 10 or so years (for reference, they're upgrading from a mini pc with an i3-2120T). They need it for work and general use - mostly through the browser and office apps with maybe some *very* light gaming. Onboard audio is a must (assuming thats optional on some mobos idk), Bluetooth would be nice, and wifi is welcome but not necessary. I've had a look for parts myself totaling Au$797 (including windows) that are in stock at my nearest store listed below. Any recommendations or alternatives would be greatly appreciated.
>**What is your maximum budget before rebates/shipping/taxes?**
We're looking around Au$800 but the budget is flexible.
>**When do you plan on building/buying the PC? Note: beyond a week or two from today means any build you receive will be out of date when you want to buy.**
Next week
>**What, exactly, do you need included in the budget? (ToweOS/monitokeyboard/mouse/etc\)**
Tower and win11 home (looks like I can get it for Au$130)
>**Which country (and state/province) will you be purchasing the parts in? If you're in US, do you have access to a Microcenter location?**
Queensland, Australia with the nearest store being MSY (they currently have some sales atm)
>**If reusing any parts (including monitor(s)/keyboard/mouse/etc), what parts will you be reusing? Brands and models are appreciated.**
Reusing an old case
>**Will you be overclocking? If yes, are you interested in overclocking right away, or down the line? CPU and/or GPU?**
Only memory oc to get full rated speeds
>**Are there any specific features or items you want/need in the build? (ex: SSD, large amount of storage or a RAID setup, CUDA or OpenCL support, etc)**
SSD, iGPU
>**Do you have any specific case preferences (Size like ITX/microATX/mid-towefull-tower, styles, colors, window or not, LED lighting, etc), or a particular color theme preference for the components?**
Reusing case (full atx, no side window) and no rgb
>**Do you need a copy of Windows included in the budget? If you do need one included, do you have a preference?**
Yes, windows 11 home (Au$130)
>**Extra info or particulars:**
PCPartPicker Part List: https://pcpartpicker.com/list/WCwRZw
CPU: Intel Core i3-12100 3.3 GHz Quad-Core Processor
Motherboard: Gigabyte B660 DS3H AX DDR4 ATX LGA1700 Motherboard
Memory: Corsair Vengeance LPX 8 GB (2 x 4 GB) DDR4-2400 CL16 Memory
Storage: Kingston KC3000 1.024 TB M.2-2280 PCIe 4.0 X4 NVME Solid State Drive
Power Supply: Silverstone Strider 650 W 80+ Gold Certified Fully Modular ATX Power Supply
*Note on PSU: its the cheapest 80+ gold psu available and the lowest available wattage is 500w so i figured it would be the best choice (with the added benefit of being modular)
2023.06.03 20:32 -number22 Dear dad. I promise I will sing again.
You died on a ventilator two years ago. How many of the last weeks of your life were you on pain drugs. You had no idea what was eve going on. Breathing with a machine, dying just a little bit every moment until you died? I never got to say goodbye to you or even see you before you left us. Your ashes lie in a cemetery across the country that I'll probably never be able to visit.
Today you would have turned 75. I just turned 50 a couple weeks ago. You would have called me and busted my ass for being over the hill and an old man. No one called me on my birthday, but you would have not forgotten. Not the big FIVE - OH.
But I wanted you to know today, well so far, today isn't a sad day at all.
I sat out in the park and sang to Suki this morning for a couple hours. I sang some Willie Nelson too. Remember Angel too Close to the Ground, and Georgia? Those were two of your favorites and I sang those to an empty park and Suki, (yep, my dog is still a 12 year old puppy) just looked at me like I was crazy and I could tell she was just judging me ahahahah. My voice has gotten worse over the years, but I'm slowly working up to being able to sing again, like we used to sing.
I remember growing up and singing country songs and old classic rock songs while we worked on cars or drove to Home Depot or built picnic tables together. My whole life was filled with you and me singing something. You're really the one that made singing something normal. I haven't really sang much since you left. I'm sorry.
I remember the last time I sat with you in our backyard with steve and a few other friends and I played the guitar and we sang those songs together after a few drinks when the bonfire was getting low. I remember your voice hadn't changed in all the years I knew and sang with you. I learned Pancho and Lefty and played Wish you were Here and a bunch of cool songs you thought I had forgot, but I hadn't. I had to look up a couple on my phone I think...
Anyway. This past year's been fucking rough, but I didn't want to take anything away from your birthday with all the shit that I've had to deal with. I didn't want to tell you that I've been failing at taking your advice for a while now and I regret that so badly. I wish you were here to tell me what I needed to hear so many times. I wish you were here to remind me that I'm smart and loving and kind and "fuck whoever doesn't see that". I wish I could have called you all those nights I was confused and felt taken advantage of so you could have given me advice that I so desperately needed. I really just wish you were here.
I just wanted to tell you I love you, I miss you, and I promise I will sing again.
And I'm sorry that what I've been doing with my life would have let you down for the past year or so.
I promise i will sing again.
I love you, Pops.
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Today you would have turned 75. I just turned 50 a couple weeks ago. You would have called me and busted my ass for being over the hill and an old man. No one called me on my birthday, but you would have not forgotten. Not the big FIVE - OH.
But I wanted you to know today, well so far, today isn't a sad day at all.
I sat out in the park and sang to Suki this morning for a couple hours. I sang some Willie Nelson too. Remember Angel too Close to the Ground, and Georgia? Those were two of your favorites and I sang those to an empty park and Suki, (yep, my dog is still a 12 year old puppy) just looked at me like I was crazy and I could tell she was just judging me ahahahah. My voice has gotten worse over the years, but I'm slowly working up to being able to sing again, like we used to sing.
I remember growing up and singing country songs and old classic rock songs while we worked on cars or drove to Home Depot or built picnic tables together. My whole life was filled with you and me singing something. You're really the one that made singing something normal. I haven't really sang much since you left. I'm sorry.
I remember the last time I sat with you in our backyard with steve and a few other friends and I played the guitar and we sang those songs together after a few drinks when the bonfire was getting low. I remember your voice hadn't changed in all the years I knew and sang with you. I learned Pancho and Lefty and played Wish you were Here and a bunch of cool songs you thought I had forgot, but I hadn't. I had to look up a couple on my phone I think...
Anyway. This past year's been fucking rough, but I didn't want to take anything away from your birthday with all the shit that I've had to deal with. I didn't want to tell you that I've been failing at taking your advice for a while now and I regret that so badly. I wish you were here to tell me what I needed to hear so many times. I wish you were here to remind me that I'm smart and loving and kind and "fuck whoever doesn't see that". I wish I could have called you all those nights I was confused and felt taken advantage of so you could have given me advice that I so desperately needed. I really just wish you were here.
I just wanted to tell you I love you, I miss you, and I promise I will sing again.
And I'm sorry that what I've been doing with my life would have let you down for the past year or so.
I promise i will sing again.
I love you, Pops.
2023.06.03 20:32 TheDarkArtsHeFancies Discharged from neuro after normal MRI, spinal tap, blood tests, ultrasound, and x-ray. But he is still disoriented, not walking normally, and does not seem okay.
11 year-old-feline (neutered male bengal), 8-9 pounds, located in Houston, TX. He is kept indoors, but he does have a covered and screened catio (connected to our house and he can come back inside freely) and I believe he was in the catio when whatever happened to him began.
He eats Royal Canin PR dry food and PurinaPro urinary tract wet cat food (oceanfish mostly). He has had the wet food a few times, but we recently switched to mostly that kind instead of mixing in the PurinaPro duck (non-urinary tract health kind). General history--lump removed and sent to a lab 1 year ago (benign), urinates outside his box regularly but has seen specialists who said it's a social issue. He has had dentals, teeth are currently in good shape. His vaccines were overdue as of April. He takes Revolution Plus monthly and has for about a year. He has always been pretty clumsy and has always walked with a bit of a sway.
About 3-4 weeks ago, we discontinued giving him gabapentin (1mL twice daily). He had been on it for a few years.
5/21: He fell off a cat shelf about 9 feet from the floor, but he seemed fine after.
5/29 at about 3:30 AM, he woke me up drooling all over me. He has hypersalivated a handful of times in the past due to licking or sniffing something. He fell asleep next to me but continued to drool a lot in his sleep.
The drooling continued in the morning, and he did not want breakfast. He was biting at the air some, like he had something stuck in his mouth. He seemed lethargic.
I took him to the ER at noon 5/29 after no improvement. They examined him, said he seemed normal, and sent us home.
5/30 I dropped him off at his regular vet. They said he was totally normal, then called me back and said he vocalized weirdly, laid down on a plate of food, and began foaming at the mouth. They said it was not a full-blown seizure but could have been a neurological event.
Tests they did: Chem(11), CBC, T4, urinalysis, SDMA, FeLV/FIV, and x-rays of what they characterized as "full cat." They noted mild gallbladder debris and "dietary indiscretion," but it wasn't causing a blockage and they didn't think it was relevant. Everything else was normal.
5/31 Regular vet told me to give him Elura. By that night, he still wasn't eating, so I took him to a different ER at around 8PM. The person who examined him in triage said she thought he was blind or almost blind because he did not respond to the menace test and his pupils were huge and not responding to light normally. They put him in a larger run, and he bumped into walls. They kept him overnight so their specialists could examine him in the morning.
6/1 Ophthalmology examined him and said his vision had returned but he wasn't blinking much. Neurology examined him. They did:
- an ultrasound, which found slight intestinal thickening that they said was possibly IBD or potentially lymphoma (he has no history of GI issues), and a liver nodule, which they didn't think was anything worrisome;
- an MRI, which was completely normal;
- and a spinal tap, which was also completely normal.
They kept him overnight again to see if he'd start eating.
6/2 He ate half his food, so they said I could bring him home. Within 30 minutes of getting home (around 2PM), he was doing this: https://drive.google.com/file/d/1W3r0FOP77Z3DOfLHijqi7EQtRIoBcKOm/view?usp=sharing
I emailed the video to the neurology team. The intern called and said he wasn't acting like that there. They weren't very concerned since his tests were so normal, but said I could always go back to the ER if I wanted. He did not have any medicine or anything between getting home and acting like that. He sniffed canned food, then walked away, got water, and went outside to the catio, and I took that video.
Today, 6/3, we gave him 1mL of gabapentin at around 8:30AM (regular vet said it wouldn't hurt to add it back in case it had been helping control some sort of neurological issue) and transdermal mirataz per neuro discharge instructions. At 11AM, he approached me like this: https://drive.google.com/file/d/1XSWESo3p70vGy-wuWuMmk8\_E7gzWaP7t/view?usp=sharing
The only other things I can think of that changed in our home (vets said none of these were relevant):
- We put cedarcide granules in the yard. I guess it's possible some could have gotten under the catio screen. The other cats/dogs are fine.
- He found Scout's Honor Probiotic Deodorizer (Evergreen scent) when he jumped in my closet a few nights before this began. He acted like he loved the smell, so I sprayed some on my hands and ran my hands over him. We did this for 3-4 nights in a row before this began. It said it was cat/dog safe. Vet looked it up and wasn't worried about it.
- I opened a new waterproof blanket from Amazon and put it over a pet gate without washing it first Sunday night.
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He eats Royal Canin PR dry food and PurinaPro urinary tract wet cat food (oceanfish mostly). He has had the wet food a few times, but we recently switched to mostly that kind instead of mixing in the PurinaPro duck (non-urinary tract health kind). General history--lump removed and sent to a lab 1 year ago (benign), urinates outside his box regularly but has seen specialists who said it's a social issue. He has had dentals, teeth are currently in good shape. His vaccines were overdue as of April. He takes Revolution Plus monthly and has for about a year. He has always been pretty clumsy and has always walked with a bit of a sway.
About 3-4 weeks ago, we discontinued giving him gabapentin (1mL twice daily). He had been on it for a few years.
5/21: He fell off a cat shelf about 9 feet from the floor, but he seemed fine after.
5/29 at about 3:30 AM, he woke me up drooling all over me. He has hypersalivated a handful of times in the past due to licking or sniffing something. He fell asleep next to me but continued to drool a lot in his sleep.
The drooling continued in the morning, and he did not want breakfast. He was biting at the air some, like he had something stuck in his mouth. He seemed lethargic.
I took him to the ER at noon 5/29 after no improvement. They examined him, said he seemed normal, and sent us home.
5/30 I dropped him off at his regular vet. They said he was totally normal, then called me back and said he vocalized weirdly, laid down on a plate of food, and began foaming at the mouth. They said it was not a full-blown seizure but could have been a neurological event.
Tests they did: Chem(11), CBC, T4, urinalysis, SDMA, FeLV/FIV, and x-rays of what they characterized as "full cat." They noted mild gallbladder debris and "dietary indiscretion," but it wasn't causing a blockage and they didn't think it was relevant. Everything else was normal.
5/31 Regular vet told me to give him Elura. By that night, he still wasn't eating, so I took him to a different ER at around 8PM. The person who examined him in triage said she thought he was blind or almost blind because he did not respond to the menace test and his pupils were huge and not responding to light normally. They put him in a larger run, and he bumped into walls. They kept him overnight so their specialists could examine him in the morning.
6/1 Ophthalmology examined him and said his vision had returned but he wasn't blinking much. Neurology examined him. They did:
- an ultrasound, which found slight intestinal thickening that they said was possibly IBD or potentially lymphoma (he has no history of GI issues), and a liver nodule, which they didn't think was anything worrisome;
- an MRI, which was completely normal;
- and a spinal tap, which was also completely normal.
They kept him overnight again to see if he'd start eating.
6/2 He ate half his food, so they said I could bring him home. Within 30 minutes of getting home (around 2PM), he was doing this: https://drive.google.com/file/d/1W3r0FOP77Z3DOfLHijqi7EQtRIoBcKOm/view?usp=sharing
I emailed the video to the neurology team. The intern called and said he wasn't acting like that there. They weren't very concerned since his tests were so normal, but said I could always go back to the ER if I wanted. He did not have any medicine or anything between getting home and acting like that. He sniffed canned food, then walked away, got water, and went outside to the catio, and I took that video.
Today, 6/3, we gave him 1mL of gabapentin at around 8:30AM (regular vet said it wouldn't hurt to add it back in case it had been helping control some sort of neurological issue) and transdermal mirataz per neuro discharge instructions. At 11AM, he approached me like this: https://drive.google.com/file/d/1XSWESo3p70vGy-wuWuMmk8\_E7gzWaP7t/view?usp=sharing
The only other things I can think of that changed in our home (vets said none of these were relevant):
- We put cedarcide granules in the yard. I guess it's possible some could have gotten under the catio screen. The other cats/dogs are fine.
- He found Scout's Honor Probiotic Deodorizer (Evergreen scent) when he jumped in my closet a few nights before this began. He acted like he loved the smell, so I sprayed some on my hands and ran my hands over him. We did this for 3-4 nights in a row before this began. It said it was cat/dog safe. Vet looked it up and wasn't worried about it.
- I opened a new waterproof blanket from Amazon and put it over a pet gate without washing it first Sunday night.
2023.06.03 20:29 DifficultContext Do not steal flower pots.
 | Saw this on a street going away from Chomps (GREAT restaurant for those who do not know) submitted by DifficultContext to providence [link] [comments] Who steals a flower pot? They are like, $2 at Home Depot or Christmas Tree Shop. Enjoy being cursed. Also, I was taught (by friends who are witches) that cursing anyone would be thrown back at you three-fold. They must have been nice pots. |