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I’m a sophomore taking Multivariable Calculus. Next year I’ll be dual enrolled and taking Linear, Diffeq, Discrete Math, etc. then in Senior year I’ll take real analysis, numerical analysis and maybe some other courses. I got a 35 on my practice ACT math section without having prepared and 750 for math on the PSAT 10.
On the other hand, I am absolutely terrible at math competitions. I have never qualified for the AIME through the AMC 10 or 12 despite taking two online courses, reading the Art of Problem solving books, and practicing by taking many past tests. I understand all the material on the tests, but I have absolutely no intuition for the specific concepts I can use to solve the problems. Even with months of continued practice, my score barely budged and I eventually quit. Because of this, I have been rejected from every math summer program I have applied to.
I’m worried that it would look weird on my application if I talked about how much I love math and how I spend all my free time doing math, and then had no math-related extracurriculars or awards. Can someone please offer any advice? Thanks!

Hello! I'm dead inside and would very much like to change that!
Jokes aside, I want to be part of something spiritual. I want to be able to convince myself that there are supernatural forces at work in the world in order to give my life meaning and direction and to also give me a sense of community. Unfortunately, I'm the kind of guy who feels absolutely nothing in a space where everyone else feels connection to something greater than themselves that is, at least partially, beyond human comprehension. I grew up Christian, going to church, private Lutheran school, bible camp, youth groups, you name it. I never once felt the power of God, no matter how hard I tried. I hit my a-hole atheist phase HARD at 13. I lived for reasonable explanations of how the universe came to be and how animals evolved and how I don't deserve to burn forever for wanting to be a boy.
Now, all my friends are some variety of LGBT+ and many are into witchcraft and horoscopes. I see how happy they are with what they've found after leaving Christianity themselves and I deeply wish I could join them. I've tried doing what they do and feel nothing still. I don't feel empowered, I just feel silly. I want my rocks to heal people and my cards to direct people, but they're really just rocks and cards with pretty pictures. I hate feeling like such a stick in the mud. I hate feeling different. I hate being a spiritual dead-end among such cool, confident, creative people. How can I turn my brain off and trick myself into believing something I don't so I can fit in with people who are supposed to be my peers?

Now that the signed editions of "How to be invisible" are emerging on eBay (of course!), it's interesting to see the many examples of her 'new' signature. I say 'new' because it's simply 'Kate' (no 'Bush') with a really weird squiggly scribble all over it. I can't say that I like it much. I was prepared to buy a copy (even though I have signed items already) but I don't think I'll bother. I thought they'd be pumped out by the scalpers at higher prices but the average is around £80 which might be due to the strange nature of the signature...

When looking at starships I know you can replace cargo space for additional Emplacement Points. My question is besides rare occasions does the use of cargo space actually come up in your games and if so how do you use it. Do you have guidelines on how many credits players might make hauling cargo?

I've seen a lot of posts on this topic so I thought I'd share my own story as a bear builder, well this one being from today. I had got a unicorn (said unicorn will be posted in comments) from thrifting that I just adored at first sight. Keep in mind I have a big collection(not sure how many percise) but, I felt I had to rescue this one even if my wallet may not have agreed.
So I purchased it! I unstuffed it, washed it, and named it. The name in particular being Snuffle McCorny! Well, I had a shift today so I went in with Snuffle in one of the drawstring bags. My manager knowing I often bring friends with me, asked who I brought with me today so, I introduced him to Snuffle. He found Snuffle adorable, even smiling some when I told him that I saw Snuffle as a sherrif. I did however, notice one of my coworkers giving me a look like: really??
I didn't think much of it if I'm being honest, I was more focused on how happy I was to be bringing a new friend to life, as well as going about my shift making others happy. Besides, maybe said coworker was just jealous I had a sweet unicorn and they didn't lol!
Needless to say, Snuffle is now a favorite for me as their weighted, have my favorite scent, a heartbeat, and a outfit I came up with as I had some spare outfits laying around at home. I guess if I had anything more to add on as a way to conclude this is fo what makes you happy. I know it might be hard to move past judgmental whispers, looks, or glances even but at the end of the day maybe their just jealous that your happy and they aren't. For all we know, they might even be going through something and trying to bring you down with them. Does that excuse their behavior? Of course not! But maybe them seeing you carrying a friend around could encourage them to do the same thing eventually, as everyone needs a form of comfort at sometime. So keep your head up high! Not everyone will respond badly to seeing your friend and remember your living your best life!

so my partner is non-binary (they/them) and we’ve been dating for almost 4 years now. They cheated on me months ago but I still haven’t really moved on from it.
I only found out because I was snooping on their computer and I remember they were acting super off before and usually typing a lot. I tried asking so many times even before I caught them but they’d constantly lie to me. I have only been honest with them and I told them I only asked for 100% honesty at the start of the relationship.
We both only recently turned 21 and even before they cheated I wasn’t sure about our relationship. I’m not happy with the sexual relationship either. I want to break up but our lease isn’t up for months and it’s not like I have any support system if I’m being honest. Rent in my state has only gotten more expensive and im still just trying to save up for at least a car so im not as dependent. I feel really alone and I’ve pushed away friends because a lot of my friends are also friends with them.
I’ve told my partner so many times to go to a therapist before and it always ends up not happening and im just tired. They have adhd but I just feel walked over and taken advantage of. They even admitted when I found out they cheated on me that they “didn’t know how much they needed me”. I just don’t even feel the same way about them. My last relationship was toxic and abusive and even this relationship had its red flags at the start but I was hoping it would be different.
I just need some love and support rn. I literally have nobody to talk to and my family was never there for me 💔 I’ve never felt so low in my life and I’ve been through a lot already I just genuinely don’t want to be homeless (I already almost was several times as a teen). I’m doing what I can to save as much as I can rn. And please be gentle in the comments…

I’m so sick of people in my ap classes assuming I’m stupid because I have learning disabilities. People think I’m stupid because I have trouble keeping up with the class and sometimes I need things repeated for me. And sometimes I might get questions wrong in class too (idk if that contributes to it.) It’s so annoying because we take the same or at least some of the same ap classes, and I normally get higher grades on tests and also got a 1390 sat (which is higher than some of theres). I know this sounds like I’m trying to brag and act arrogant, but I promise I really don’t understand why people assume all this stuff about me without getting to know me. It’s like no matter how many good test scores I get, people assume I’m stupid because I have autism and adhd and I really wish they would stop thinking this.

I think this chapter may have given us some hints about Imu's true powers from that dark arrow he/she shot . I can also understand why some people would think that the arrow is a tail , but if you look closely in those panels where cobra and sabo got attacked by it , you can see that the arrow is not attached to anything or anyone and it's cut on the opposite side of it's head just like an arrow , it also looks like it's coming out from unexpected angles , this could be due to Imu controlling the darkness of a certain place to conjure that arrow and than he/she shoots it from those places.
so if Oda is not just drawing that arrow in black just to conceal it and that arrow is truly dark in color , and if Imu truly has the powers to manipulate darkness to conjure attacks such as that arrow , then this could be an interesting topic to talk about...
so what if instead of Blackbeard , Imu is the person who has the true darkness that is capable of swallowing anything into nothingness ?
first of all , let's talk about a parallel that has been made in the story that can explain to a certain degree this idea of 'true darkness' that i said.
in chapter 441 , Ace's final attack against Blackbeard and Blackbeard's final words were interesting. here's that panel:
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when Ace created that huge sphere of fire that resembles a sun , Blackbeard said that "between the sun and darkness , only one will win". you could of course take this in a more literal way , but you could also take it in a more figurative way , like the sun and darkness that was talked about here is the representation of the good and evil , Blackbeard also said in the same chapter that the powers of darkness are said to be the most evil in the history of devil fruits . so it's not far fetched to assume that the darkness talked about here represents the 'evil' , and the sun represents the 'good' .
at the end , we know that Ace wasn't the true reprentation of the Sun ,and it was Luffy who was the true representation of that concept as he was the sun god himself , so in a sense , the final struggle/battle between the sun and darkness , or between the good and evil will be with Luffy and Blackbeard because not only Blackbeard has the darkness devil fuit , but he's also opposite to Luffy in many ways , as seen in their first meeting in jaya and in many places... but is that really the case ? will Blackbeard truly be the final evil/darkness that luffy needs to defeat at the end ? i think there is a high chance that he will not be that person, but he's definitely going to be a major obstacle in luffy's way and possibly even he's final pirate enemy , but he probably will not be the final villain of the entire series because the final conflict was not meant to be against another pirate or between two 'D' clan members , but it was always meant to be against the WG and celestial dragons , let me expand further on this...there is a point that has been brought up by Imu in this recent chapter and that we already know of . Imu said that 'D' is the moniker of their ancient enemy . this means that Luffy will have to face him/her at some point in the story because not only he's a carrier of this will and that makes him by default an enemy of Imu , but he's also going to be the most trouboulseme person from this clan by the end of the story , on the other hand , i really can't see the final conflict in the story being the fight between Luffy vs Blackbeard because even though Blackbeard is evil , he's still carries the will of 'D' and he's still more of an enemy to the WG than he is to Luffy , even Imu had he's picture cut up next to Luffy's wanted poster . the final fight was always meant to be between the people who took over the world , the WG and the celestiel dragon and between the person who is going to find the One piece and change the world , it was never meant to be between two D clan members or even more less against someone like Blackbeard who whitebeard himself said that he was not the person that Roger was waiting for . the final conflict and the final battle was already set in stone long ago and it's between the man that Roger, Joyboy and the ancient kingdom was waiting for . Luffy , and the people that took over the world . the celestial dragons , world government and Imu . this was always the core of the story.
also , as far as we know , Blackbeard just has the logia powers of dakrness just like how ace had the logia powers of fire , and just like how the powers of ace were just superficial powers and not the true powers of the sun , Blackbeard's powers could also be just superficial and far from the real deal, and like how ace wasn't the true representation of the sun , Blackbeard may not be the true representation of darkness , instead , Imu could be that person . not only he/she has a high chance of being the final villain , but he/she also has powers like the darkness devil fruit as seen from that dark arrow , and just like Luffy who has the sun god mythical devil fruit , Imu could also have a darkness god mythical devil fruit , or he/she could directly be that diety of darkness , and just like Luffy who is the true representative of the sun , Aka the good . Imu could be the true representative of the darkness , Aka evil .
also , just because they are the sun/darkness it doesn't necessarily mean they both need to have just powers of fire and darkness in their arsenals (although Luffy does have some attacks that uses fire like red hawk or red roc , and Imu used something similar to darkness powers with that black arrow) , but the core of their powers at the end will be more figurative than literal , as i said before , the "sun vs darkness" / the "good vs evil" . their powers will be on a higher plane than materialistic stuff like the logias of darkness and fire , but on a more mythical/celestial plane , like for example the powers of the infinite imagination of the sun god . Imu could have something similar to this .
so at he end , Imu will be the darkness that wants to swallow the world (he already partially achieved that btw) , and a being called the god of darkness or something similar to that , Luffy on the other hand will be the sun that tries to illuminate the darkness and bring upon the "dawn of the world" that was talked about in the previous chapters and the recent one . the sun god.

i’m just wondering how long it took other people from day of claim to first payment for youth allowance? i haven’t got any one close to me that’s done it so i don’t really have many people to ask 😅

I’m a sophomore taking Multivariable Calculus. Next year I’ll be dual enrolled and taking Linear, Diffeq, Discrete Math, etc. then in Senior year I’ll take real analysis, numerical analysis and maybe some other courses. I got a 35 on my practice ACT math section without having prepared and 750 for math on the PSAT 10.
On the other hand, I am absolutely terrible at math competitions. I have never qualified for the AIME through the AMC 10 or 12 despite taking two online courses, reading the Art of Problem solving books, and practicing by taking many past tests. I understand all the material on the tests, but I have absolutely no intuition for the specific concepts I can use to solve the problems. Even with months of continued practice, my score barely budged and I eventually quit. Because of this, I have been rejected from every math summer program I have applied to.
I’m worried that it would look weird on my application if I talked about how much I love math and how I spend all my free time doing math, and then had no math-related extracurriculars or awards. Can someone please offer any advice? Thanks!

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Sora Unchained Examined to Unconsciable levels.
Part one of an as yet unknown number of posts listing assorted triva, observations, and other neat stuff from the Sora Unchained arc. I've been going back over my old posts on this series and collecting whatever I'd said about the stories while waiting for others to get their copies. Now I'm going to post them in chapter order along with whatever else I might have on that chapter. If anyone else wants to contribute, feel free. Afterwards I'm going to consolidate these posts into one article and post it for general information. If this works out well maybe I'll go back and do this for some of the other arcs.
Sora Unchained arc - Dark Horse Trade Paperback number 19/20 Issued Jan. 2005, To be Reissued Feb. 2012 Kodansha Tankouban Vol. 19 and 20
Part 1 - I Choose You, Sora. Dark Horse issue 105, Feb. 2004 release Let's Decide The New Chief Kodansha chapt. 119, July 1998 release Tankouban Vol. 19
Sora Hasegawa, closet debutant.
The cover illustration shows Sora wearing a "Lolita, Clash, Lolita Lempic... , Paris" shirt. While I'm still looking for details (My daughter seems to recall a punk/SKA group called Lolita Clash) it seems more likely this is a reference to a fancy french perfume label "Lolita Lempicka". It seems to be a fairly high end brand of fragrences with VERY fancy bottles. Further information is desired.
The idea of cheating when drawing lots is a common theme in manga and anime. It's been pointed out on other sites that Tamiya and Otaki are shown setting up poor clueless Keiichi to win the drawing for who gets to be the driver in the OAV's motorcycle contest, and cheating on such selection processes has been used in story plots in Sailormoon and Maison Ikkoku.
There are several ways this supposedly random drawing can be rigged, mostly by whoever sets up the lots in the first place. Hence the comments by the club members about irregularities by Sora's promoters and Keiichi's comeback line of "is this the face of a cheater?!" (Belldandy wouldn't cheat if life itself depended on it. She'd just be sure the right decision would come about.)
The untranslated names of the club members on the bottom of the Choosing Maze are Mitsuwa, Ishii, Hasegawa, Chikafuji, and Kawada. Exactly which name goes with which member other than Sora hasn't been firmly established, but I believe the one with the mustach is Kawada (kon) Suzuki (dou) and the large gentleman is Watanabe (based on wild speculation using information from the Hill Climb Motorcycle and Singing Contest stories). Exactly how this maze game works to select someone is something I'd love to learn, anyone know?
(Addendum - see next post)
Part 2 - The Shortcut To Winning. Dark Horse issue 106, Mar. 2004 release The Way Of Competition Kodansha chapt. 120, Aug. 1998 release Tankouban Vol. 19
The Racing Board shown is a real item. I found an advertisment and website for a Tanaka Paveracer, 40cc power cart that looks remarkably like the ones in the story.
The little creature Belldandy is using is called an Airbug Spiralee. It will be appearing in later chapters. Why Dark Horse felt the need to put an "and" in the name here is unknown.
A most important developement in this story is how a running theme that has existed throughout the series is made absolutely clear here. It wasn't really obvious at first, but a character trait BOTH Belldandy and Keiichi share is that they are gung-ho competitors and nothing makes them happier than squaring off against a new opponent. In the past, their pleasure in such competitions has been clouded by outside circumstances or unhappy results if they lose, but both Bell and Keiichi love a pure challenge they can devote themselves to totally. (This is first mentioned by Bell in the Anime Otoku story.)
This wasn't very clearly shown earlier in the manga, and many stories even made it seem as if Belldandy was rather timid about taking risks. (I know I thought that at first, and from the older posts on the subject I wasn't the only one.) That's why her occasional outbursts of excessive force or effort seemed so out of character. Actually, she's an all or nothing sort of competitor, who is just very choosy about what she decides to get involved in. Normally she tries not to upset things or push herself into situations, but when she decides to go for it (or she feels she's forced to), look out! This aspect of Bell's personality will become more noticable in the manga stories from here on, and if you go back and review the older stories I think you'll see what I mean.
Part 3 - The Director's Curse. Dark Horse issue 107, April 2004 release The Cursed Chief Kodansha chapt. 121, Sept. 1998 release Tankouban Vol. 19
If you didn't notice, Sora is still steering the racing board while riding tandem with Belldandy.
Belldandy HAS driven a go-cart before. She learned by copying Diana Lockheed's moves while racing her back in Winner Take All. However, this race WAS before Chihiro and the other current club members had joined the story.
This is also one of the story arcs where her competitive nature starts showing. (Observe her efforts to win in the races, fight off the sleep demon, and how she can ignore K-1's behavior without embarassment in order to get back on track.)
And for those of you following the TV anime, the next part of the arc (What A Miracle) is where we first see Tamiya in his cheerleader outfit.
It's interesting how Sora never questions just how Belldandy has such an accurate inventory of the interesting wildlife in the area in her head. (Especially as the animals in question would be in motion and not likely to be in the same places day after day. Well maybe the owl would, but otherwise how could a normal person know all those detail with such certainty?) Of course it is Bell saying it, and Sora was distracted.
Still its fun noticing how people just accept what Belldandy tells them without worrying about how she might know such things. (P. S. The Japanese text is just slightly less specific as to the racoons and owls locations, but more specific as to where the starlings are.)
Part 4 - Special Training Dark Horse issue 108, May 2004 release Crash Course Continues Kodansha chapt. 122, Oct. 1998 release Tankouban Vol. 19
The most fascinating aspect of this story is that it shows a 180 turnabout on the part of Bell's sisters. Skuld is going off on a rant about how Belldandy and Keiichi should always be together (at least as far as racing's concerned) , while Urd is saying (at least publically) that it's okay for them to do things apart.
We also haven't seen Skuld do the "PBTTT!" bit for awhile.
I try to not take sides in translation conflicts. I cannot speak or read any Japanese so I don't feel qualified to judge who's version is correct. (I do feel qualified to compare different versions however.) In this story however there are two places where the Dark Horse and independent translations differ in ways that I felt should be pointed out.
In the Japanese version, Keiichi is commenting on how Skuld and Urd are such sisters rather than Belldandy and Skuld.
More importantly, there's a joke in the sequence where the club members are preparing for Sora's next attempt to drive through them that Dark Horse left out. In the panel where the club member in the bandana is standing in front of the really large member, in the English version the smaller member is thinking, "Am I fast enough to dive for cover?" The Japanese version goes more like, "If I have to, I'll hide behind him... " That's what the arrow that Dark Horse left between them is refering to, and if they decided to remove the joke they should have removed the arrow.
Part 5 - Drive Dark Horse issue 109, June 2004 release Everybody Races Kodansha chapt. 123, Nov. 1998 release Tankouban Vol. 19
Not much trivia to report in this story.
The biggest discussion point here is how Dark Horse reinterpreted Keiichi's comments while he's practicing with Sora and what he and Belldandy say to each other that night in the temple garden. The Japanese text doesn't have him actually challanging Sora to follow him or making statements to Belldandy later that he thought he might have been considered as helping Sora. However, the drawings do seem to be depicting him doing just that, so in this case I think the Dark Horse/Studio Proteus version is closer to what Mr. Fujishima intended.
Part 6 - Miles and Miles Dark Horse issue 110, July 2004 release Keiichi's Distance, Hasegawa's Distance Kodansha chapt. 124, Dec. 1998 release Tankouban Vol. 20
Those stamps Tamiya, Otaki, and later Chihiro, are using at their check points are their signature stamps. The letters printed by them are their names.
Keiichi DOES have a Check Point list, his senpais are just choosing to stamp his face to aggravate him.
As a bit of speculation on my part, I'm sure you've noticed how Tamiya and Otaki put on hapi coats with the Whirlwind logos on them after they've stamped both Keiichi and Sora (so Sora and K-1 won't see them wearing them). Such coats are a form of advertising used by shops and worn by people employed by the shop to do things in public places. One of these things is handing out flyers and brochures at special events, which is what I think Chihiro is having them do for her after the racers have passed. More on this in the last story.
Part 7 - The Race Gets Hot, A Goddess Gets Hotter! Dark Horse issue 111, Aug. 2004 release The Race Begins! Goddess Acts Too! Kodansha chapt. 125, Jan. 1999 release Kodansha chapt. 126, Feb. 1999 release Tankouban Vol. 20
One can only wonder how Keiichi heard them tell Sora she might have to pay a toll.
As has been pointed out by many sources, the poster next to the locker room door for the sea slug society is the same poster found on the bulletin board next to the NIT-MCC recruiting poster put up by Keiichi in the movie. I believe this is the first example of a movie reference in the manga.
Urd and Skuld's assistance to Keiichi is interesting for a number of points, not the least of which is that it shows Skuld as probably being able to teleport and levitate the same as Urd. (She seems to have gotten there on her own, and later disappears behind her smoke cloud cover. It doesn't seem like she just ran away and does wind up in the tree with Urd. Now Urd may have been providing transport for both of them, but judging from their conversation I can't see them cooperating to that degree.
They both seem to feel they have a duty to help Keiichi, like he was family. Or to score points with Belldandy. Either way, Keiichi is now an insider in their world view.
The Freaky Potion - Stupid New Machine rivalry is finally firmly established.
Urd establishes the use of a kiss (first seen in the movie) as a method of passing on a spell to someone.
The car next to Belldandy in the parking lot where she's waiting for the race to end is a Caterham Super 7, the same car driven by Sena Wakabayyashi, Ken Nakajima's stepmother in You're Under Arrest. This is the first guest crossover between the two series that I'm aware of.
The conversation between Belldandy and the club members actual marks the end of Kodansha's chapter 125. Chapter 126 starts with the aftermath of Urd's kiss and Skuld's indignation at it. Chapter 126 is then split between Dark Horse issue 111 and 112.
For those (very) few readers who didn't get it, Keiichi is making steam train sounds (chuffa-chuffa! Whoo-woo!)
The trash stalls Keiichi lands in (marked flammable and non-flammable) is a recyling station. Wood and paper goes in the flammable side, plastics and metals are in the non-flammable side. Keiichi crashed in the side with the harder, sharper objects.
911 is not an emergency number in Japan. What Sora is refering to in the Japanese text are emergency procedure numbers in the community disaster response handbook. (There are guideline procedures for fires, floods, earthquakes, car crashes, injuries, heart attacks, etc.)
When Keiichi drives off the ledge and crashes into the recycling bin, he's saved from serious injury by Holy Bell spinning an air cushion for him to land on. But why was she there to save him in the first place? Belldandy is at the finish line in the parking lot, talking to the other club members and waiting for the race to finish, and Holy Bell should be with her. Unless . . .
Maybe Belldandy had already split off a copy of herself at the start of the race and had been keeping an eye on Keiichi, just in case. (The rules of competition are sacred, but she also has a prior commitment to take care of Keiichi.) Which is why she was in a position to dispatch Holy Bell just in time to save him. And also how she knew instantly that Urd had put a spell on Keiichi.
Which would mean she might also have known about Urd kissing Keiichi, but had dismissed it as just the method Urd used to get the spell into him. (So it was probably a good thing K-1 didn't finish saying "incredible kiss". Bell might have reconsidered just how harmless it was and gotten a little jealous.)
As an additional observation, I don't think that angels can be multipled, only the goddesses. As a seperate entity the angel would need to copied seperately and giving each mini-goddess their own angel would be just a bit too much power out there. Rather, I think its more likely that the angel can manifest itself through any one of the copies as needed. Thus, if mini-Bell needs Holy Bell to save Keiichi, she can summon her, but then Bell back at the parking lot cannot while mini-Bell is using her at the recycling center.
Part 8 - The Best Magic Dark Horse issue 112, Sept. 2004 release Aberrant Kiss The Strongest Magic Kodansha chapt. 126, Feb. 1999 release Kodansha chapt. 127, Mar. 1999 release Tankouban Vol. 20
Dark Horse issue 112 contains both Kodansha chapter 126 and 127 Chapter 126 is split between Dark Horse issue 111 and 112. Chapter 126 ends after Belldandy leaves Keiichi to fix his racing board and continue the race.
It was fitting that Dark Horse would celebrate its long established habit of recombining Kodansha manga chapters with its last two comic book issue releases.
When Belldandy and Holy Bell leave Keiichi after he wakes up, they transport themselves through a piece of chromed metal (a mirrored surface).
So Keiichi re-invents the motorized skate board with just the items in his pockets. Now that's a mechanic! I wonder if Mr. Fujishima wanted a chance to do a skateboard montage without making it look like that was what he wanted to do.
It's interesting to note that since the sign says "NO BIKES OR CYCLES" Keiichi is not actually breaking any rules since what he's riding doesn't fit either of those catagories.
As is revealed at the end of this story, a hidden sub-plot of this arc was how mercantile Chihiro can be. Her plot to use the Motor Club's race as an advertising stunt to sell the racing boards is foreshadowed by the scene in the first part of the story where we see how fast Chihiro can put on her "Salesperson Face" and Keiichi's comments on how she can "Turn It On." Later there are hints that she's doing something on her own behind the scenes, then we see she's got Tamiya and Otaki in Whirlwind coats at the check points, but doesn't want Keiichi or Sora to see the coats. Finally, at the end we discover they've been handing out sales brochures, that the race had been advertised as a sales stunt, and that Chihiro has already made a sign exploiting Keiichi's emergency conversion to a motorized skateboard as a sales feature.
This doesn't mean she wasn't honestly trying to help Sora and the NIT-MCC resolve their leadership crisis. It's quite obvious she was. It's just that its also being shown that she's not above using this as an opportunity to further her own mercantile efforts as well.
Kurthy133 Question and Answer
Tim, since you had some speculations about the cover illustration involving Sora's shirt in Part One of the Sora Unchained arc, I was wondering if you had any ideas about Bell's shirt in the cover illustartion of Part Two (39 hat and all.) It is much harder to read, but I figured that if anyone might know, it would be you!
While there might be some significance to the 39, I'm not aware of any. In general what she's wearing seems to be a fairly typical example of race crew wear.
In almost any motorized vehicle race (and many others as well) in Japan where there's enough money available for such things, the support team for a racer is dressed in similar, stylized, color coordinated, semi-casual clothes, often with the name of the sport, the racer's name or number, and the event or team's sponsers on them. (This is common for most professional sports around the world.)
What Belldandy is wearing seems pretty close to what other manga and anime characters I've seen wear at such events (including in the earlier AMG manga and OAV stories.) The board is a lap board where the driver's time is recorded for each lap and held up so the drivers can see how they're doing, Whatever that logo on the shoes is, it's probably a parody of some real sneaker label. And the visible lettering on her sleeve starts with a "G" and ends with "RT", the rest being to my eyes unreadable. While in no way defendable, I'd guess it reads "Go-Cart".
Now, did you notice that Belldandy seems to be wearing the same shirt while sitting on the motorcycle two stories later? The printing on the sleeve is either missing or not visible, but the shirt back has what appears to be "Team Hasagawa" printed on it.

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2. You’re exhilarated to jump into the market with your products/services, without knowing the pros & cons of starting your own small business?
3. You want to take your business online to grow it but lack knowledge of the Internet.
4. You have no marketing strategies to elevate your small business to the international level.

If the answer to all of the above questions is ‘Yes’, you’ve come to the right place!
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If you often wonder how to start your own small business online, Here, you’ll learn the simple yet major steps to start your own business, the steps which were followed by business tycoons. And you’ll also get to know if starting a business will work for you or not.

How to Start Your Own Business?

1. First thing first – Come up with a good business Idea!

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Learn from successful businesses and think of a good business idea first. An idea that can help you build a product or service that solves the problem, fulfills the need of not only local consumers’ but also global consumers.
Do researches before jumping into anything.
Not just a business idea but a good business idea is really important to stay & grow in the market and make profits because according to the U.S. Bureau of Labor, 25% of the new businesses startups don’t survive the first year, 31% drops out in the second, and only 50% of businesses make it to the third year in the market.
So, whether you’re setting up a business following your passion, or just to earn more money, you need to find & follow the right business idea and growth strategy so that you can launch your business online to make your brand recognized internationally.
Below are mentioned some easy startup ideas you can start with low investment-

• Personal fitness trainer.
• Activities for children.
• Yoga instructor
• Business consultancy
• Event management
• Copywriting services
• Computer training.
• IT support
• Financial planner

1. Do research on your business idea

Once you finalize your small business idea, it’s time to take the next step which is to see if your business idea is worth shooting.
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For this, you can trust market research. Ensure to analyze your competitive businesses before starting your own business. Market research will help you to –

• Understand the need of your audience/customers.
• Lower the financial loss.
• Recognize the possible issues with your product/service
• Guide your business in the right direction by setting goals.

Important market research factors –

• Identify your targeted audience:

Search and pinpoint your target audience by studying the beneficiaries of your products or services. You should also consider the factors like age group, location, etc.

• Engage with your audience:

Once you come to know who your target audiences are, you can start surveys and talk to people directly to engage them. You can use any social media platform to engage with your audience. Social media is the perfect place to engage with your audience.

• Competitor analysis:

When you start your own business. Analysation of competitors’ products or services gives you a glance at the strategies and performance for you to find faults and improve your small business ideas accordingly.

1. Form a good Business Plan

By making a business plan, you’re setting your current and future business goals. You can take notes from other successful businesses on how they do their business planning. By making a plan, you can make the required arrangements to give direction to your company.
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A business plan is important because it helps you make efficient decisions for your business, to accomplish your goals by implying the best strategies.
Making a good business plan helps you also with-

• Identifying weaknesses
• Arranging a workflow.
• Arranging your business information in order.
• Hiring the right & responsible employees.

1. It’s Time To Make Your Business Official

Since you were working hard to finalize your business idea by doing market research, you must’ve found the answer to the most important question – What small business shall I start?
Once you decided on your niche and make the necessary preparations, it’s time to take your strategy to the next level and make your small business OFFICIAL.
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To start your own business officially, or to make your small business official, the following points might help you –

• First of all, you need to register your business with the country or state where you live to move further with your brand
• Apply for the required permit and license.
• Open a bank account for your business after getting a tax id number. This is required for your legal business transactions.

These steps will help you to make a patent of your brand so that no one else can use your brand name.
When all these formalities are completed and your business is official, you can set up a small office for the physical and an online presence.

1. Arrange Funds

“How to start a business with no money?” Has this thought ever struck your mind? Well, it’s true that some businesses don’t need many investments but if you want to start your own business and make your brand recognized and popular in the market, you might need funding because funding is fuel to business growth.
Here, read some tips to get the funding for your business to maintain your hold in the market.
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“From where I can get funds for business easily?”–

• An angel investor: Your friends or family can also participate in your business as angel investors by providing backup when you need funds.
• Crowdfunding: Nowadays crowdfunding is being popular among entrepreneurs. They receive small amounts of funds from a large number of individuals to finance their new business. But it takes time and needs a successful campaign.
• Government schemes: You can get a business loan under government schemes from the authorized bank.
• Small business loan: You can apply for a small business loan from any private bank.

BONUS: If you’re wondering “what business I can start with no money?”
Here is a short and effective business ideas list to help you out to start your own business with literally no money!

• Freelance content writing
• Business consultant
• Graphic designer
• Tutoring
• Web designer
• Personal fitness trainer
• Child care
• Bookkeeping
• Interior designer
• Copywriter
• Digital marketer

1. Grow Your Business

Without building your small business up, you can never grow your wallet as well as your company. For which you’ll need time, money, hard work, and a good marketing plan to grow your business.
For centuries, The most common question of small business owners is “How do I grow my business?”
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Before the internet, I might tell you several complicated different options or strategies to imply your business and pray for it to grow.
But in today’s time, traditional methods only work if you want to limit your business, Where the internet is a blessing for everyone, I can tell you a simple secret to grow your business not only locally but globally! Let’s sum up the solution in 2 words – Digital marketing!
Yes, simple yet powerful. To build your business, your brand needs a website and social media presence.

Feel free to contact us to discuss the marketing hacks and strategies to grow your business with Digital Marketing.

Moreover, if you want to add employees to your team, hire the best people who will support your tasks and lead you to your business goals.
Now, we’ll discuss the pros and cons of starting a business, to find out if it’s for you or not.

Cons:

• Minimal or no income in the early years.
• No benefits and perks from employers like paid vacations, medical insurance, increments, etc.
• No set income, sometimes you get less or none at all.
• No guidance or work procedure initially.
• Sometimes you will feel alone.
• longer hours of hard work.
• Failure feels unbelievably bad

Pros:

• Independency and freedom.
• Fulfillment and satisfaction to work for yourself.
• You can make more money than doing a regular job.
• You have control over your own destiny.
• You’ll feel joy and pleasure when you see someone using your brand product.
• You make your own wealth.
• Success feels good

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There are so many times that my feelings for you peak and I come here to type out a super long letter then simply press delete and move on with my day.
I think about you all the time. I wish you thought of me half as much. The truth is I don't know. I believe there was a point in time that you loved me as much as I loved you. We just skirted around it, hid it from eachother. Spoke coded language around one-another. Whenever we lock eyes I get lost, so do you, I can feel it. I don't feel that with the others, just you. It's like in those moments we're speaking telepathically. Shouting I want you, whispering I am in love with you.
I miss you so much. Now that things have changed, we won't see eachother as often, or be able to have super deep conversations anymore. I miss those early mornings with the dim lighting, where you'd become vulnerable with me. I will try my hardest though, to keep you in my life.
I realized how strong my affections are for you, I am hurting myself to keep you safe. Loving you selflessly and unconditionally because I want what is best for you, I want you to experience pure happiness. So I will keep my distance. Whenever you mention other women my heart stings a little, I just let it go knowing you'll find someone much prettier than me one day.
Until then, I will cherish every glance, every joke. I will dive in to the deep eye contact and let my eyes linger just a second longer than the last. Never knowing when it will be the last time.
I am convinced I will love you forever.

One thing TRP got right was to ask whether there were any evolved psychological traits in women that supported the near universality of what anthropologists called hypergamy: marrying up in class or status or resources. Simply noting the existence of the dynamic seemed like insufficient investigation to me.
I do not really agree with how many TRP thinkers have answered the above question, though. Too many very specific conclusions about female biology have been drawn with insufficient evidence, particularly when it comes to parsing nature from nurture. That said, I do think there is a very real, biologically instantiated hypergamous instinct in women that has evolved in them over time. We can get into what I think more specifically. But what do you think?

1. Sara’s at the diner where Ethan calls Sara a monster; he confronts his fear
   
2. Victor and Jade venture outside of town; Victor mentions the trees are changing again (this could indicate the parameters of the trap are moving). We, along with Jade, learn Victor made the car graveyard, he’s been moving the cars ever since he was a kid being the sole survivor of his “cycle”
   
3. Victor finds his mother’s car and has Jade play Twinkle, Twinkle–the lullaby, hence the title (another reference to sleeping) on his violin. Victor’s mom used to play it when he was scared, telling him as a kid to think of the lullaby when the monsters scream so he wouldn’t be afraid anymore. We finally see the depths of Victor’s trauma.
   
4. Elgin and Sara have a heart to heart in the church, both teenagers are unique and are connected to the place, especially since both teens experience seizures and may have a connection to each other. We learn Nathan’s ornament is a reminder when things were normal which is why she’s desperate to retrieve it considering her strained relationship with the town. Sara confesses to Elgin about killing Nathan.
   
5. Ethan and Jim return, informing Tabitha he faced his fear. They hug and Tabitha sees the puzzle blocks Ethan built reminding her of her fear regarding the sick kids
   
6. Sara visits the diner to get her stuff back as Tian-Chen confronts her about “taking from her” and storms off to cry
   
7. Kenny flips out seeing Sara leave the diner, dumps her stuff and breaks the ornament, threatening her in front of an audience.
   
8. Marielle gives Kristi the Dudley Moore cut making her hideous ;p . Tillie shows up again as we finally learn she’s been wanting to give Kristi, the town’s doctor, her liquid morphine because she's dying, which explains Tillie’s strange behavior. She accepts her fate and her role may be helpful since she will be dead regardless.
   
9. Victor finally sheds some truth; the man in the Polaroid is named Christopher, Victor explains Christopher was genuinely liked, made people laugh, but he changed; the topic makes Victor extremely uncomfortable clearly showing his trauma and starts to lose it the more Jade pushes him
   
10. FINALLY, we learn everyone died once Christopher started seeing the symbol and things changed. “He changed and he didn’t make people laugh anymore. He stopped smiling.” Further implying the ventriloquist belonged to Christopher, especially since Jade saw it earlier in a vision and how Victor lost it once he saw the dummy in the cave. “One night, my mother told me to hide somewhere new, somewhere different, somewhere Christopher didn’t know, and when I woke up the next morning, everyone…” *Call back to the flashback of kid Victor emerging from the bunker, mutilated bodies everywhere as a smiling BIW rides the carousel and dogs are running around. May imply that cycle was a success.
    
11. Victor: “There are bad things here. They make people do bad things.” More confirmation people are being manipulated (Sara) and strengthens the validity of Jade being the NEXT Christopher. *Proves the symbol Jade sees is a BAD symbol.** Call back to his convo with Ethan about the quest* plus Jade only sees visions of death. His latest vision of Christopher showing Jade the symbols with blood provides more proof.
    
12. Facing her fear, Tabitha arrives at the cave entrance and builds the puzzle block tower (may actually belong to sick kids) inviting them to “come out” —Anghkooey!!! who tf knows what this means lol. It’s quite possible these kids are speaking a different language if they’re from a different world entirely OR they’re a part of the design to influence her since her trauma was losing her baby, so maybe Anghkooey is a trigger word
    
13. Ghost kids were sick; we know many people arrived sick (Boyd, Kenny’s dad, Tillie), possible clue as to why they’re chosen too–they’re already emotionally weak.
    
14. Jade runs into Tabitha, her nose is bleeding. Maybe the kids trying to connect with her was that strenuous.
    
15. About Sara, Jim tells Boyd “I saw a broken kid and I’m looking around, I’m seeing a lot of people pushed to their edge”— call back to Kahtri’s “broken people” comment. Jim: “You ever wonder if that’s the point?” Yes, Jim, yes!!! ;p
    
16. Jim confesses to Boyd they heard a voice on the radio, rehashes details, pushes his theory that it's an experiment. Boyd refuses to confide in him–he’s still not ready. Jim questioning how everything works and to uncover the truth may be his role in the grand scheme of things.
    
17. Boyd enters diner as jukebox plays Sandman song—a nod to the cosmic being who controls dreams–another detail mentioning dreaming, sleeping. Worms activate in Boyd’s arm again. Does music imply “They” are making moves? Afterthought: I need to go back in S1 to see if anything major happened whenever the jukebox played.
    
18. Marielle steals the morphine, we learn she’s an addict.
    
19. Randall sits on top of the bus installing one of the bus seats, hinting he’ll go on a shooting spree. He carves something.
    

I got to broodguard lv 17 on wt2 and it decimated me once it starts spawning the millions of spiders. You are too slow to avoid attacks, too soft to tank attacks, and no dps to kil things fast.
I lowered tier and had to redo the entire dungeon because in the devs infinite wisdom you should be punished more for lowering the tier by having to redo it all.
Now it still out dps's me with a million spiders, poison puddles, and the freaking webs that root you. Even polygon says play in a group for this boss.
How are people playing this stupid class? It's seriously made me want to just quit since you can't do anything in the early game.
I have iron skin, dual wield, hammer of ancients, war cry. That's as many skills as you can get on lv 17.

I swear these bunch of old farts at blizzard who doens't even play games as much since they started working are clueless on how to make the game. They just sit in their offices, giving themselves items and "play test" and think things work fine.
What is wrong with the design with combat. It's tedious kiting, anti melee, anti fun, anti ARPG style beat them up. Alot of these regular "elites" swing for 1/3 of your health, forcing you to burn that limited amount of potions. They have this badly telegraphed 90% - 1shot cheese moves that is hard to tell with how cluttered the combat is. So many "increased health" trash mobs wasting time and cluttering combat as mentioned, because they simply wont die as fast. So many filler skills in every class does close to no damage, they just exist to make you feel like you built something and require some key legendary aspects to work. Don't even mention these side quest / stronghold arena bosses. Cheesy af, swings for 50-70% per hit, 1 shot moves, stupid aoe mechanics around them forcing you to kite them instead of actually actively fighting them, some even summon more mobs to again clutter up your view. In D2 / PoE, we can choose to increase our health in order to counter these difficulties and keep up with the ramping, in D4 you are F-ed in the ass every elite/ boss fight hoping your can DPS the boss down before you run out of potions and pray they drop something at least slightly useful.
There are so many problems with combat really. It feels like the devs have no clue what is fun about ARPG. They make the game artificially "difficult" because they think it's cool. This is an ARPG, this is DIABLO. Not Dark Souls/ Elden Ring. it's a totally different playstyle and genre, copying 1 shot cheesing isn't going to win you the next GOTY award. This is stupid
/rant

What are your thoughts about people becoming more and more isolated?
It seems to me that technological advances over the past decade in particular are making it so we need less and less social interaction. You can get food, groceries and pretty much anything else delivered. Work from home is still a thing. Many people are self-absorbed and addicted to social media. Can you blame them?
This car-centric society is lacking in community. Most people work a lot. So they fulfill that human need for connection and community through things like politics and religion. Now both have their place, but can be divisive.
In some scandinavian country i believe they have communal living where groups of people live together in large buildings and share chores like cooking and cleaning. They also eat meals and spend time together playing games, etc. This country is also consistantly ranked as one of the happiest in the world.
This ‘loneliness epidemic’ also causes and exacerbates mental health issues, which are not being resolved with psych meds and are contributing to violence, drug use and poverty. I feel AI and virtual reality will only exacerbate this.
If you agree, what can be done? If not, how so?

There is a book called "The Cramp Twins: Lucien's Little Book of Love/Whats with Wayne". The book series/cartoon is by Brian Wood. The only identifier of its existence is on a few book cataloging websites, such as Goodreads,PaperBackSwap,AbeBooks and BetterWorldBooks.
I cannot find any listings on any shopping websites, wikipedia, or even a synopsis of what the book is about however. I am not sure if it is its own book or perhaps another version of an existing book in the series, A Trip to Twinsanity(also...Look how much it is now! The book is 61 dollars since it is out of print.)
It makes me think that perhaps not many copies were printed. This book appears to have been published in 2005, and the cartoon itself was canceled in 2006 by Cartoon Network. Perhaps the timing has something to do with why this book became lost. Ebay is where I was able to find the other 3 books for this series. This is the first book, published in 1995 before it got its own cartoon, The second book, Swamp Fever, which was made after it became a cartoon network show, and A Trip to Twinsanity, the third book.
Unfortunately, I have not seen a single picture or inkling of this 4th books existence other than the art cover, its title and some publisher information on the book catalog websites I linked in the first paragraph. I really love this show and it is the one book I am missing from my collection. I would feel happy if any leads were found. I figured posting here was my best shot.
Also as a curiosity... is the Brian Woods who created the Cramp twins the same as the one who worked on Marvel comics? Finding information on the Cramp Twins is very very difficult in general despite the fact that the cartoon itself has every episode available, and the 3 other published books are fairly well documented/available to purchase even.
EDIT: There is a possible 5th lost book called High Noon in Soap City!! I just found this on amazon with no book cover. This puzzle gets more and more difficult as I look more into it.

Hi everyone. This is going to be a long post so I apologize in advance. My boyfriend and I are frequently having heated arguments that are escalating quickly. We have one year old twins with another on the way and I don't know what to think or do. My brain feels like a jumbled mess.
To help explain what is going I'm going to provide the most recent example of our fight from earlier today. I will try to be as unbiased as possible and explain my wrongdoings as well. I'm not sure if I'm the problem (or at least part of it), and I genuinely want and need help/advice.
Earlier this morning I was taking care of the boys when I got violently ill (morning sickness - but reallllllly bad). I couldn't keep anything down and was sticky all over with sweat, and I kept feeling dizzy.
Because of this I took a nap during the twins nap once I got them to sleep. The twins woke up before I did, and my boyfriend brought them downstairs. When I woke up I asked my boyfriend what time the boys woke up from their nap, and he answered "2pm" (which means they'd be due to go to bed at around 6pm). My boyfriend works from home and he went to the basement to work. I was taking care of the babies and playing with them until about 4 30. Then I set them up with some toys and turned or my laptop to study (I'm currently in college).
My boyfriend came upstairs about 15 minutes later (4 45) saying that the boys needed to go to bed and that they had been up since 1. I was confused and said "you told me 2pm earlier", to which he replied that he did NOT say that and he said 1pm (maybe I misheard him I honestly don't know or if he is just making it up for some reason, but why would he do that?). Anyway, I said "OK, I will get them ready in a moment." I finished the page I was reading so I didn't lose my train of though with my studies, and then I started to get the boys ready for bed.
Unfortunately I was anticipating having a whole extra hour, and was now needing to rush. I made the boys dinner and got them fed (by this time it was after 5), and then I went upstairs to grab them some pajamas. On my way back I had to make another stop to the washroom as I started getting sick again. I'm not sure how long it lasted for because I didn't check the time again until HOURS later (after the fight was already over).
Anyway, after getting sick I was changing the babies diapers and putting them in their pj's. The one took my phone out of my pocket and freaked out when I took it away from him, and then started flailing around screaming and wouldn't let me get a fresh diaper on him. I felt like I was about to puke and broke out in a sweat, and in what was certainly not my finest moment I yelled out "STOP MOVING AROUND!".
My boyfriend ran up the stairs and snatched the child away from me and instantly accused me of shaking him (I never would), and said the baby was acting like an abused child (he was rubbing his face into the pillow - but he does this when he is tired). My boyfriend then started on me about not having the boys in bed yet and "look what you're doing to them".
I have REALLY bad anxiety and post partum depression (I'm seeing a therapist bi-weekly to work on it and i'm also taking medication), and my boyfriends attitude and the energy he was projecting just instantly put me right on edge. I tried to explain to him that I was overwhelmed, exhausted and sick, and that I was doing the very best I could, but that I was getting ill and I thought I had more time before they were due for bed. He wouldn't listen to anything and just kept cutting me off and talking over me going in circles about my abusive and neglectful behavior and going on and on and on and on and onnnnnnn about how I didn't have the boys in bed on time yet.
At this point I felt my brain starting to break. I told him he was giving me an anxiety attack to which he replied "every time I give you the tiniest bit of advice you have an "anxiety attack"." I just felt so unheard and unloved. Meanwhile the baby was STILL screaming this entire time (and my boyfriend was yelling this entire time too and I think I was too trying to get him to hear me). He said "look what I get to deal with - you just make more and more work for me".
At this point I was feeling totally overwhelmed with emotions and was having really bad negative thoughts that my family might actually be better off without me. I went upstairs to get away and left him downstairs with the kids. He followed me upstairs with the crying baby and stood over me with the baby while I was crying hysterically and the baby was crying hysterically and he was saying "look what you're doing to our child!". I begged him to leave because I didn't want the baby to see me like that, but he wouldn't.
So once again I tried to leave. I exited the room and he was hot on my tail. I was so frustrated I knocked the first thing off the counter that I walked past (apparently it was his speaker which he claims is now broken). He then started freaking out even more because I broke his things, and I then threw my phone on the ground and also kicked a stool (the leg of the plastic stool broke when I did this, and he freaked out ever more).
At this point I felt so uncontrollable that I was lying on the ground sobbing just begging him to leave me alone and stop yelling at me and to give me some space. But he wouldn't. And he KEPT going on. I reminded him I was pregnant and that none of this was good for me or baby, and he said "oh who cares, you act like this even when you aren't pregnant. I am going to tell you what I think and feel."
I can't explain how low I felt. These were the thoughts running through my head: I'm an abusive mother, I'm a bad partner, my family would be better off without me, I create more work for my partner, I'm permanently broken, I'm a BAD mom, maybe an abortion would be best.
All of these thoughts were swimming in my head and I told my boyfriend I was having really dark intrusive thoughts and I kept picturing stabbing myself. I don't even remember what his response was, but it must not have been helpful because the next thing I did was grab my anxiety medication and I put the whole bottle in my mouth. My boyfriend shoved his fingers down my throat and made me puke everything up.
Then I went to the bathroom and laid on the ground and was so upset I started banging my head on the floor. He claims he grabbed me by the hood of my sweater and that a few hairs got caught. But it felt like he grabbed a fistful of my hair and pulled me up with so much force that i went from laying to standing. I bit him on the shoulder and told him to leave me alone.
Then he said he was going to call the police on me on started telling me how abusive I was (its not the first time I've been physical with him like that - but the situations leading up to it were all very similar to today. I've never been violent with other people before....). My panic attack continued to the kitchen floor where I was still sobbing and hyperventilating. At this point my best friend and roommate of over a decade came home, and he instantly asked me if I was okay. Rafael started telling him his one sided story of me being an abuser and showing the bite mark to my friend.
My friend took me outside and sat me down and started helping me to do breathing exercises. Meanwhile my boyfriend kept coming outside and saying he was going to call the cops. My friend got him to agree to wait 20 minutes before doing anything - but the entire time my boyfriend was outside yelling a mile per minute at me.
After the 20 minutes was over he told me I had two options - I could go to the hospital with him in his car or I could sit outside on the front lawn and wait for an ambulance to get me. I told him I was not leaving (my friend was with me now and had calmed me down from crisis mode). So my boyfriend called the cops (non emergency number).
While he was on the phone with them I looked at him and told him very seriously that our relationship was over. That there was no coming back from this. He then promptly started trying to persuade the person on the phone that everything was okay, and then hung up.
Once he was off the phone he tried to pick the argument back up, and I replied that I was taking a bath and that I did not wish to speak to him. I went into the bathroom and he forced the door open behind me and sat on the toilet yelling and continuing to go on about everything. I closed the curtain and he kept opening it to which I replied " I am not your girlfriend anymore, and I do not wish for you to see me named. At this point he told me he had videos of me having the anxiety attack and that he was going to call the cops back. I said "whatever, I'm taking my bath" and ignored him.
About 5 minutes later I hear him on the phone with them AGAIN. I hear the man on the other line say they are sending people over. I said loud enough to the man on the phone could hear "I am fine sir!" Then my boyfriend started flipping out again to the point that the man on the line told him to stop escalating the situation (I was being totally calm at this point).
For some reason my boyfriend once again decided to convince the person on the phone that everything is okay and he once again hung up. Afterwards he didn't say anything, but he stood outside the open bathroom door for 20 minutes before returning to the basement to work again.
A couple hours later he asked if I was okay and I said "no". Now it is after midnight and he is sitting next to me showing me the occasional funny video acting like nothing happened or something???
What do I do? We have children!! I want what's best for them. I've told him so many times that I need to be treated with love when that's happening, but he seems to think it's a manipulation tactic (he has downright said that I cry just to try to make him feel bad). I don't know how to communicate with him and he won't do therapy with me. I am all fucked up and I know this, but he has issues too... how can things get better if he refused to admit that? My friend calmed me down in 10 minutes. They reminded me I was loved and cared for, and helped me breathe.
My boyfriend says I don't listen to him... but I heard EVERYTHING. He is upset that I yelled with the baby (totally understandable it was completely inappropriate, but he HAS had his moments too), and he was upset about the babies being late for bed, he was upset that I was "crazy" during my panic attack, and he was upset about the bite. But all I was trying to communicate was that I am totally overwhelmed, sick and feeling unheard, unloved and not needed, and that I am doing the best I can... I don't think he heard any of those things...
Sorry for venting so much and for the post being so long. Any thoughts are welcomed....

Beloved brothers and sisters,
I'm writing to you today with a special prayer request on my heart. I ask that you join me and my church in prayer for our mission in Mozambique. It is an exciting time for our church as we are experiencing significant growth and witnessing how God is moving mightily in this land.
I specifically request your prayers for the many orphaned children who have come to the congregation of our Mozambique mission. Their stories are heart-wrenching, and my desire is for them to find comfort, hope, and the love of Christ amidst their hardships. Let us pray that they may experience the care and affection of a spiritual family surrounding them, and that they may know they are loved and cherished in God's eyes.
I ask that we also intercede for our newly consecrated Mozambican pastor, Alberto. Just this month, he was entrusted with the leadership of our congregation in Beira, and it is crucial that he receives God's abundant wisdom, strength, and guidance. May the Holy Spirit empower him with discernment, vision, and the ability to shepherd the congregation with love and grace.
Furthermore, I ask for ongoing prayers for Mozambique as a whole. May the light of the Gospel shine brightly in this nation, transforming lives and bringing healing and restoration. May God abundantly bless our mission and everyone involved in it.
I'm deeply grateful for your prayers and support. I know that together, in communion with God, we can make a difference in the lives of those who serve in Mozambique. May our prayers rise like incense before the throne of God.
God bless you all