Good night beautiful images

Hi everyone!
24f, would really appreciate advice and input on what to expect at my first appointment.
On May 25th I got a referral to a hematologist-oncologist, exactly 10 days after my mom died from Stage 4 Colon Cancer & Peritoneal Carcinomatosis - May 15th. Almost exactly 5 months since my dad died from Stage 4 Lung Cancer (squamous cell) & Stage 2b(?) Prostate Cancer. December 18th. He also had Stage 2c adenocarcinoma in '98, resulting in his right lung being removed.
I watched the entire process and moment of their death, and it's tough to deal with. Caught too late because of dismissive doctors.
The timing of this is so weird.
I've been dealing with symptoms that I guess resemble lymphoma or leukemia? Most worrying is a supraclavicular mass. Every lymph node from my torso and up is enlarged. Diagnosed with lymphadenopathy from several dr's. Wonky labs all the time. Swelling. Night sweats. A lot more to go into. I've had other insanely weird health issues for the past 2 years, just too tiring to explain.
I had originally just asked for an ENT referral but walked out with a hematologist-oncologist referral. My heart kinda dropped, didn't expect that.
It's like cancer is contagious in my family at this point. Nearly every direct family member and extended family has passed from this terrible disease.
I'm not diagnosed with cancer right now, and hoping I will not be , so I was really surprised because I thought only those with a diagnosis see oncologists. I did have a melanoma scare earlier in the year but thankfully the biopsy came back negative.
The clinic I go to did tell me they don't have the necessary resources for any of the workups needed for this situation. My insurance (Medicaid) is stubborn with imaging and anything beyond basic labs so that hasn't been an option.
I'd appreciate anyone walking me through what this entire thing entails. Specific tests may be ordered, things like that, I guess?
Thank you - besides this I'm sending love and hugs to everyone in this subreddit. ♡

Sorry if this one ends up being a little bit jumbled. I've been researching so much to try to nail down exactly what im trying to ask here.
I live in Texas. I was parked at my friends apartment complex (private property) which i promptly registered for a 24 - hour parking pass upon arrival. All was well, I received the email confirmation for my parking pass, and we had a good night of poker. Around 4 hours later, my friend notifies me I am getting towed, to which we went outside as the truck was leaving. After looking into why I got towed, calling the tow company and the holding lot where my car was (within 2 hours of getting towed) I found out that I had entered in a single digit incorrectly for my license plate. All other descriptive factors were accurate, and the license entered was 6/7 correct digits, in sequence.
Basically, my question specifically is this :
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Considering the typo I made was a very easily made mistake (Common Mistake I believe?) Is there any recourse for arbitration or mediation of the agreement?
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Note: the mistake was something like this: License plate entered: LLC0520 Actual plate: LCC0520

Throwaway acct…I need help..I know by me sharing this story im setting myself up for lots of hate which I completely deserve and am ready for but I also need true and honest thoughts to help me so here I go. This story will be all over the place and long so bear with me. I have been in a sneaky link type of relationship with a man who has a girlfriend and very recently just had a baby with her. It all started when I was working a couple of years ago. It had been a couple of months into this job and we just had a new hire and i thought he was very attractive and very much my type but a couple of days later i got into a serious relationship with my ex (Me and my ex-boyfriend were long distance and met online) so i lost attraction and I barely talked to him just a small hey..hi sometimes. A couple of weeks later me and we will call him D started talking and becoming good friends and my initial attraction came back and I had a small crush but never acted on it. Me and ex boyfriend started becoming very distant and me and my friends suspected he was cheating on me because of his behavior which later I found out I was right. I never confronted him on my suspicions I don’t know why but we started dating in like SeptembeOctober if I remember correctly in December I left my job and in Jan me and D started becoming very close.. we smoked together a lot and one night we started talking and the conversation ended up with spicy questions being asked and one thing led to another and we ended up kissing the days after that we slept together. D and me were both in relationships and we still continued this relationship I know..I know. I ended up breaking up with my ex a couple of months later because of how distant we both were with each other. Me and D continued sleeping with each other here and there for months even though he was still in relationship and we had discussions of how very fucked up people we were for doing what we were doing. Also to note the whole time I was cheating I did feel a little guilty but i stopped myself from thinking abt it yeah again i know what is wrong with me. We continued all the way until June and after that we both got busy and never hit each other up again. I noticed he unaddedd me on snap and just thought he was done and never thought abt it again. i think 4 months later he called me and I refused to pick up for weeks because in those months I had started to develop a relationship with god and didn’t wanna be the old me again. About a month into him still calling me a lot of shit was going on in my life meaning I had gone back to partying alcohol and drugs and ended up picking up his call. He told me he wanted to explain why he never hit me up again and I told him there was no need as it was mutual decision and I simply did not care bccs I never had feelings for him he persisted and I ended up meeting him he told me that he ended up getting his girlfriend pregnant and the decision was to keep it. we continued talking for longer until he made a move to kiss to where i did kiss back but I stopped and asked to be taken home. I didn’t talk to him for awhile after that because yes I know cheating was bad before but adding a pregnant woman into the picture it made it 10x worse. But i inevitably gave in and we started sleeping with each other here and there again with the decided terms that when the baby would get here we would both cut each other off on everything.last night i was on the phone with him and we started having a deep ass conversation out of no where and i was like let me just ask him finally abt the baby like i was just so curious bcs it had been way longer than 9 months but i asked i was like what ever happened to the kid… D said I’m not going to lie like my kid is here my heart like dropped cause after he said that like it just hit me fr like this man is a whole father has a whole baby mama and i wanted to ask more questions but it was so weird so I refrained and after i got quiet and he was like if that changes things just let me know and i was like honestly i don’t know right now and before this we made plans for me to hang with him at his house next week and I don’t know we proceeded to have a conversation after that but like all i could think in the back of my head was that and like im just so iffy on everything and i just feel so guilty like it was bad before but it’s worse now and like the worst part is is i feel like im still gonna fuck him and it’s not cause i have feelings but i feel like i do have some sort of attachment maybe because he was my first but i don’t know there is some attachment and i know it’s also because i spent my whole life just not believing i wasn’t pretty enough like at all like also being a bigger girl having someone attracted to me is so bizarre and as much as i love to act like im not insecure i still very much am and i think like oh having someone who i found attractive found me attractive and we were fucking just gave me that validation but that’s no fucking excuse to be a home wrecker. I have been so anxious over this all day like i truly wonder what happened to me i used to be such a big person on no cheating and now look at me im the biggest cheater of them all. Like just because im insecure it didn’t give me the right to do this to that poor girl. I need help cutting this off completely.

For those of us here, this will contain the comments from both the writer and character designer on the detectives. These are not included in the mini-artbook but is in the hardcover artbook from the collector's edition. Additionally, the hardcover artbook includes more art of the detectives, beta art of the detectives, marketing illustrations, evidence icons, cut-ins, background illustrations, event CGs, character location icons, and LINE stickers. Once again, these comments contain spoilers on the whole game! Please play it before reading.
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[Incompetent Detective]
Writer's Comment:
We initially took Wato in a cooler, more handsome direction, but once Katsumata read the scenarios, he got a lot cuter. Many of the cast's female characters are the free-spirited type, so Wato ended up becoming the "mom" of the group. (Jobana)
Designer's Comment:
My first impression of Wato was a troublesome one. Not only was he 'incompetent' despite being the main character, he couldn't have too many or too few characteristics. I wrestled with giving him a defining trait without straying too far from a conventional protagonist... In a sense, he took the most trial and error. (Katsumata)
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[Ideal Detective]
Writer's Comment:
She seems happier after she's dead. Her clothing and conduct keep in line with the "Ideal Detective" image, but her personal belongings and mannerisms have a girlish, childlike quality to them, too. I kind of want to write a story about her day-to-day life... (Jobana)
Designer's Comment:
I remember doing a quick sketch of her right at the outset. Jobana told me to make her albino and mysterious at a glance, so that's what I drew. The challenge was deciding how much of her childishness to let slip in her expressions. (Katsumata)
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[Renegade Detective]
Writer's Comment:
This guy savored life until the very end. His hair and heels represent his attachment to his mother, whom he murdered. Like Wato and the Quartering Duke, he too was restrained, but since he actually enjoys this, there's no way he'll see eye-to-eye with Wato. (Jobana)
Designer's Comment:
I wrestled with this design the most, wondering right until the very end how far to take it. He has a long black braid, piercing glasses, high heels... so many unique points. But at least his actual clothes are simpler than the other characters. (Katsumata)
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[Posh Detective]
Writer's Comment:
It was fun to create this 21-year old. She was intended to be totally unpleasant, but she was too good a person for that to be possible. The initial idea was to have her be a classic nasty girl, but when Katsumata read the scenarios, her faded grandeur became more prominent. (Jobana)
Designer's Comment:
Her initial keyword was "aristocratic",* so I drafted a blond princess in an evening gown-esque outfit. Since she works as her company's president, however, she ended up with a more subdued design. She's high maintenance, but a very nice boss. (Katsumata)
*Posh's original title in Japanese
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[Mystic Detective]
Writer's Comment:
This was the hardest character to kill, both in terms of abilities and personality. That's exactly why the Quartering Duke had him taken out immediately- he didn't want to be discovered. Mystic takes any opportunity to buy occult goods, which always makes Booky mad. (Jobana)
Designer's Comment:
Mystic is another character whose design barely changed from the initial draft. We just added the ragged cape to suggest he's been in battle. He's well-built for a clergyman. I remember thinking, "Does this design really work as a detective?" lol (Katsumata)
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[Gourmet Detective]
Writer's Comment:
The sexpot specialist. She was at risk of being too much of a one-trick pony to fulfill her role, though (the same mistake I made with Bokuhime!). She has the same basic fighting abilities as Ideal Detective, but her origins are in amateur wrestling, so her moves all start with grabs. Unfortunately, this made her a bad match for the SPXs. (Jobana)
Designer's Comment:
Here she is: the gag boob character. I put her in a motorcycle suit on a whim, and from there, the bike-rider-slash-rest-stop-hopper was born. She's always smiling and likes to fill the older sister role, but occasionally shows off her tough, badass side. (Katsumata)
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[Workaholic Detective]
Writer's Comment:
No matter what he does, it always backfires. He trusted Doleful with all his heart. His upbringing makes him hot-tempered, something Ideal Detective chides him for regularly (like in Chapter 1). He never learns, though... (Jobana)
Designer's Comment:
I was sure a waistcoat was the way to go when I drew him. He's overworked, and his appearance reflects that he's too busy to get a haircut and has a habit of rolling up his sleeves. I hope players will enjoy the contrast between his kind and harsh expressions. (Katsumata)
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[Doleful Detective]
Writer's Comment:
Doleful is a contradictory soul; he resents totalitarianism and sacrifices himself more than anyone else for the sake of others. His words as a detective aren't total lies, either, and his thinking resembling Wato's- hence the mixture of good will and hatred in their relationship. (Jobana)
Designer's Comment:
I initially designed him without knowing he was the mastermind, so he had droopier eyes and looked more forlorn. His current design came from me wanting him to look pitiful most of the time, but be able to project intensity when his true nature was revealed. (Katsumata)
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[Bookworm Detective]
Writer's Comment:
Booky is a breath of fresh air and a useful character. Put her next to Posh Detective, and the dialogue writes itself. Like Rowdy Detective, she's so emotionally complete that I debated killing her off. Ultimately, however, I chose not to because I didn't think Wato or the players would be able to recover.(Jobana)
Designer's Comment:
Her outfit took some trial and error, since she's in elementary school, but quite grown-up inside. The rare occasions when she smiles are very cute. Since she's paired with Mystic, I made sure she wouldn't look out-of-place standing next to him. (Katsumata)
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[Techie Detective]
Writer's Comment:
I made the most requests for this design. It's nice having a young boy in a wheelchair for a character. The lab coat and tights are perfect. I've noticed that characters in wheelchairs either die or are the culprit in many mysteries, and wanted to subvert this trope. His presence is meant to mislead the player. (Jobana)
Designer's Comment:
Jobana-san had a lot of requests for this character. Techie's a cute little boy, but he's quite put together, so he has a rich range of expressions, from sharp and smart to pouting and sulky. I'm sure he'll grow up to be a handsome, sophisticated young man. (Katsumata)
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[Downtown Detective]
Writer's Comment:
I arrived at "Downtown"* by plugging in any word I could think of before "Detective". From there, I continued to work on her character concept with the mention of making her the "true" heroine, and as a result, she ended up killing someone right away. She decided the direction of the game in more ways than one. (Jobana)
*(Originally "Shibuya" in Japanese)
Designer's Comment:
I struggled with whether or not to put her in a school uniform until the last minute. Her friend had been killed, so I didn't want her to be too childlike. Instead, I settled on a fairly eclectic design that allowed Downtown's personality to show. (Katsumata)
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[Rowdy Detective]
Writer's Comment:
Her strength of spirit is what ends up killing her. Normally, those heroic qualities would see through her safely, but this isn't that kind of game. Losing Rowdy and Downtown changed the feel of the dialogue dramatically, and I felt that loss when writing scenes. (Jobana)
Designer's Comment:
I personally really like her. She has a nice silhouette... but what's up with that ponytail? Lol. She often appears with Gourmet, so her design is spikier to contrast Gourmet's softness. (Katsumata)
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[Armor Detective]
Writer's Comment:
Armor is the rare case of a character's appearance and personality not changing at all from the initial draft. He's there as a red-herring character, but I made him too stupid... He became a livelier character for it, though. Even now, I'm sure he's off somewhere fighting whoever is behind that transcendental armor case. (Jobana)
Designer's Comment:
I intended him to look cool, but his words and actions made him cuter than I expected, lol. He's a little tricky to draw, but I'm pretty happy with the design. Just where is that fluffy mane attached? (Katsumata)
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[Senior Detective]
Writer's Comment:
The ringleader, in a sense. He goes out of his way to deceive Wato and stuff him in a locker because, at his core, he's just that nasty. Senior Detective is a good example of how age and "seniority" alone doesn't make you a good person. (Jobana)
Designer's Comment:
Once the mustache was decided on, the rest of the design followed. He's elderly, but I wanted to give him a mischievous quality. Like, what's with his coat collar...? I've never seen an old man with a popped collar like that. He just oozes confidence. (Katsumata)

It is the Amazon Package Plot from Mr EE. Chatgpt said it was 31/40 (I didnt use it to write this response!) I dont know if I can really believe that I got that high. Good night guys!
Left untouched and forsaken, I yearned for a glimmer of purpose. The chance to fulfill my destined role for which I have awaited for 5 years. I began to question myself, why hasn't anyone purchased me? Am I inadequate?
As I grew impatient and indignant, a miracle occurred. I was clutched from the shelf and deposited into the trolley to then be purchased. Beep, beep, beep! , the sound of an alarm went off, the lights blazed on. Euphoric, a shimmer of hope was awakened in me. Finally, someone purchased me and my destiny had been fulfilled. This was unprecedented for me, I was dumbfounded!.
Departing.
In the midst of my elation, I was getting prepared to be transported to my final destination. I felt like I was in a blissful spa-like experience; being pampered up, cleansed and sealed tight. I was in uncharted territory, as I finally experienced what I craved for the past 5 years; freedom. Serene and jubilant, we were ready to depart.
Exuberant.
I ventured outside for the first time in years as I was scooped and meticulously placed into the remarkable, astonishing; mesmerising Amazon Prime Van. I felt gratified and fulfilled.
At the threshold of the van’s motion, the employee came clamoring;
“Stop, stop there has been a mistake!”. I froze like a statue, my legs were quivering and my heart was trembling as I awaited my fate. Befuddled and startled, I was clutched and taken back to the store to retreat to my former desolate life.

I’m currently in a hole of shame, anxiety, dread and fear. Fear of what exactly I don’t know but another ‘incident’ happened again where I lost my shit and I am deeply ashamed.
Has anyone else noticed that their anger can often lead them into trouble? Even if said anger was not the direct cause of the eventual trouble and there were other factors, your reaction triggers some already not-so-nice-people into reacting back and in my case last night, I think illegally. But though I can outwardly place blame elsewhere for what happened, ultimately I know what caused it and it was me.
My friend and I were at a baclub we’d never been before and it turned out to be one of those chi-chi places where you can buy bottles for the table and there was a VIP area - not our bag at all but there we were. We stood front and centre at the bar for 15 minutes where the chiselled, model-esque bartenders continually ignored us and served their friends who were coming up to the bar and ordering drinks over us. Then another guy came up to the bar and was immediately asked what he wanted to order. He pointed to me and my friend and said ‘these ladies were here before me’, whereby the female bartender looked me and my friend up and down and then went to serve on the other end of the bar.
That did it.
I should point out that my friend and I were the only non-Caucasian people in the entire club, and having had bad experiences before in this new city/country I’ve moved to from the UK where it’s super integrated, I lost my shit. Even after one of the bartenders who’d initially ignored us saw what happened and came to serve us, I couldn’t switch off.
I was told to calm down by the bartender as she was making the drinks but I didn’t stop. There was a literal 6ft 5 Abercrombie jock washing glasses behind the bar who then thought it’d be a good idea to mimic me and wave his hand in my face in a yapping motion, like blah blah blah.
I lost it even more and said something questioning his sexuality, which was totally out of order. But when I’m in one of these rages nothing can stop me and I turn into a Jekyll and Hyde type - anything can come out of my mouth so long as it’s to hurt and destruct. I knew I was getting myself into trouble but the sense of unfairness and anger just overwhelmed me.
The giant slammed a glass down and left the bar, i thought to speak to the bouncer. My friend and I carried on ordering at the bar when I suddenly felt myself being dragged from behind. I immediately grabbed onto the bar but was being dragged with full force and then carried out of the bar by the giant.
Being a 5ft 5 female and of a slight build I was absolutely terrified to be grabbed and hauled out without any warning by this huge bloke. People around me were gasping and even the bouncer outside was shocked asking me what happened. He was very nice about it and, I feel, somewhat afraid of what had happened.
Although I was outraged and deeply shaken, I’ve developed this weird reaction to the aftermath of when I’ve lost my temper. No matter what has happened and despite the fact that I was raging a second ago, I then just shutdown and am beyond exhausted.
Now I don’t know what to do. Part of me wants to contact the club and report what happened, if only to stop that monster from ever doing the same again. I’ve never seen or experienced anything like it before. However I also know the role I played in it and feel deeply ashamed, not wanting to revisit the scene again.
Has anyone been in a similar situation before, where their rage and anger has worsened an already bad situation and things just spiral out of control?

This is super long and i’m sorry i tend to try to add a lot of details to get the full story.
So my(26f) boyfriend(26m) and i have been together 2 years but we’re best friends for 2 before we got together. He is one of those guys who likes to play PS5 casually and he is by no means addicted to it. Usually plays for about 3-4 hours straight every time he is on though. Now that’s not my issue at all, i love when he partners does his own thing and can spend time with his friends/brothers doing a hobby that makes him happy. I’m very careful not to impede on this because i know he doesn’t get to see his friends or brother since he moved in with me 9 hours away to another state. So it’s kind of special for him. Now he’s my issue. Sometimes i feel like the game comes first before me. There was a time he said he was going to be on the game for a “little bit” then come downstairs and spend some time with me since i hadn’t seen him that much all day. He proceeded to spend 6 hours straight on the game playing without even so much as checking up on me. By the time he finished i was ready to just go to bed after sitting by myself for hours. I had to tell him why that was upsetting because i felt forgotten and ignored. Sometimes he’ll just disappear in his room and i won’t realize he’s playing the game until i go check on him or hear him upstairs laughing. Fine cool.
Fast forward to this weekend. I asked him Friday if we could go to the movies saturday (We both work M-F. he works at 7am and i work at 6am and sometimes he doesn’t get home till after 7-8pm while i get home around 2:30 and so i don’t get to see him much until the weekend) He agreed to the movie, everything was fine! We went to the gym around 2pm and stayed an hour then went home. Around 4pm He said he was going to use the dumbbell in his room for a “little bit” then come downstairs so we could pick a movie time. Great idea! Except he never came down…i went upstairs around 6 to check on him to see if he might’ve fallen asleep but i heard him talking and asked him if he was on the game and he said yes. I just went back downstairs without protest. I was upset i’m not going to lie so i got up and went on a walk to occupy myself and calm down because i don’t like to argue or talk when i’m angry as i feel it can cause more harm than good in conversations. It’s around 7 now and the movie time i had preferred was 8:05 the next time was 10:45 which would have been too late because we go to church on Sunday mornings and wouldn’t have gotten home till after midnight. He didn’t even realize i left the house at all. he still hadn’t came down. Then finally at 8 he messages me asking if i still even wanted to go. we live 15 minutes away from the theater, he wasn’t dressed to go and we wouldn’t have made it in time. i was very upset so i didn’t text back (i know that was immature to ignore him i admit that). i just came in, again unnoticed and went to my room to change out of my sweaty clothes. he asked me why i’m ignoring him, i didn’t respond till 9 telling him that i had just gotten home and was changing my clothes and that i was sorry for not responding fasteearlier. This isn’t the first time he’s kind of ditched / forgotten plans and then gotten on the game instead of making up for it. So i just wrote my feelings and anger into my journal instead of ripping him a new one. I text him that the never showing was at 10:45. he didn’t respond. so i went upstairs and he was laying down about to sleep because he had a headache. I know him. once he has a headache he’s not getting up even if he tells you he is. I gave him some medicine and asked him if we could go Sunday night to make up for it and he says yes so I let him rest without protest and just went downstairs. i was in tears and frustrated that he hadn’t just communicated that he wanted to play the game first. We didn’t go to the movies last night. i was so sad because we barely go out so i just sat on the couch alone drinking a little by myself.
We didn’t even end up going to church this morning because he said he couldn’t sleep. So i went without him then him, my mom and i were going to go bowling at 3 but he suggested we go next sunday because he was tired from not getting a lot of sleep still. (it’s 2:30pm) So i just told him it was fine and to get some sleep. i went downstairs and maybe 30 minutes later guess what? i hear him on the game. at 5 he texted me asking me if i’m ready for the gym and i’m a little annoyed so i reminded him he said we could go to movies tonight and he said “oh you want to go see ___still?” seriously ? so i told him fine i want to go to the gym AND see the movie He finally came downstairs at 6:45 asking me if i’m ready for the gym. i’ll admit i’m not yet because i’m typing this i just…i don’t know i feel like i’m justified to be upset but also like i’m overreacting.
There’s been times where we plan to have intimate time and he tells me he’s going to play the game first, stays on after 11pm, and then is shocked when i’ve headed to bed because i have work in the morning and have waited hours. he plays the game more than we have intimate time! I think this means he doesn’t like me anymore…maybe he can’t stand to be around me and just wants to break up but can’t so he avoids me…
How do i approach this without making it seem like i want him to stop playing because i don’t. I just want equal time and do not feel like i’m in second place.

If you’re on twitter or is into gaming, you probably heard of Conquest2023. Since this a hot topic for day pass holders, allow me to share my experience as a premium pass holder.
Warning: long post ahead. Ibigay niyo na sakin to, 20 f*cking K ang ibinayad ko. Ignore niyo na kung may typo or wrong grammar. pagod & disappointed after conquest. Uunahin ko pa ba magproofread?
This is my personal experience. I do not represent all premium pass holders.
I bought premium pass with one goal in mind: I WANT TO MEET OTV&F ESPECIALLY THE ROOMIES! I don’t care about the music night nor the booths. I just want to meet them.
D1: I was not able to attend due to personal reasons so I did not meet Queen Poki, Michael and Aria. I thought it was okay to skip D1 cos I still get to see them on D3 (Smx main stage: Offline Feud)
D2: I enjoyed the booths. They sell cool stuff. My only comment is that it’s so crowded. I tried roaming around hoping I can see other OTV&F, but Im not lucky enough.
Mainstage: sykkuno’s valo match: no priority given to premium pass holders. If you want to get a spot near the stage, you have to be early. People camped near the stage hrs before the program, So I ended up watching the match at the far back. sykkuno’s valorant match is insanely long (21-19) but I still enjoyed it.
(Ok, this is kinda my fault. I assumed the m&g will be similar to Twitchcon m&g) BOY WAS I WRONG. It’s more similar to a KPOP M&G. NO F*CKING SIGNATURES ALLOWED. Lilypichu & Igumdrop M&G: Fans got 10-20sec to meet each of them. Staffs alternately get 4 premium pass holders and 2 day pass holders. The 2 girls are really pretty and nice. I got a decent pic with Jaime but my pic with Lily is a disaster. It’s blurred AF + it’s off centered: imagine a full body picture except Lily’s whole shoes were cut off & there’s only 2 of us but you can easily insert a third person beside me. Ps: I also heard some premium pass holders were asked to wait on the first floor for a few mins cos the area for premium pass is full.
Tried music night for the sake of it. Artists are great but you can tell that most of the crowd are just waiting for The rose. I ended up enjoying it cos I got to listen to new artists (I dont know any of the artists, not even the rose). Good thing they have a bar. The cocktails are also okay for its price. Tried all 3 cocktails. Yung light ang nagdala. Char. I liked URF the most.
D3: this is the most impt day for me. Initial sched published: 11-12:30 rae,syk,leslie m&g (conrad) 2-3 roomies panel (conrad) 4:30-5:30 offline feud (smx mainstage)
I already planned my sched for D3 but lo & behold, @12:55AM, Conquest announced that they are moving the roomies panel to a new venue: MOA Atrium stage. A PUBLIC PLACE. They literally moved a supposedly private event to a public place + they moved the sched to 3:30-4:30. right before OTV Feud. If you want to watch both, you have to run from MOA atrium to smx mainstage.
M&G: the staff announced that instead of having individual pictures, we’ll have a group photo (3 fans + the roomies). This is to accommodate more fans. You can clearly see the disappointment from premium pass holders. Imagine paying 20k, only to get a group photo with the roomies + 2 strangers. And since you have 2 strangers also wanting to talk to them, i ended up just hugging them cos the staff is in a hurry. What an experience. 🙃
Now I have a picture of me, rae, leslie, sykkuno and 2 strangers. THIS IS THE ONLY MEMORY THAT I HAVE OF RAE. Lol. I got to have a little chat with Rae’s mom and sister + a solo pic with the 2 of them while queuing and I must say, I enjoyed that more.
Roomies panel: ended up not seeing this. They said people started camping at the atrium as early as 10am. @1pm, there’s so many people waiting already so I decided to prioritize otv feud instead since I am yet to see poki, aria & michael.
Offline feud: Went there @2 hoping I can still secure a spot near the stage) when I got there, people were already camping in front and no vacant seats left. At this point, I’m just mentally tired of all the disappointments that I just accepted the fact that this is not my lucky day. So I just sat on floor at the side while waiting for them to arrive. I still watched their segment and I must say, Poki eating Jollibee while playing is a really good advertisement.
Highlight of my D3: Funniest thing is that I got more decent pictures with Yvonne & Blau and I only got Blau, Leslie and Yvonne’s signature, which I got OUTSIDE CONQUEST (around 9-10AM @starbucks). YES. OUTSIDE CONQUEST. Fans started camping starbucks cos there’s higher chance of us meeting them there than inside SMX. LOL. I feel bad for the streamers tho. i think they got culture shocked. 🙃
And now I realized. I bought the premium pass because of the roomies but I ended up having the worst memory with them. I have a better memory of all the other things except the one that I was looking forward to. Idk what I did wrong. Maybe I’m just unlucky.
Note: all of them are so nice and pretty and I have mad respect to all of them for enduring PH’s heat and their patience especially when they’re getting swarmed by fans when all they ever wanted is to buy a cup of coffee, but damn, this event is so messed up in so many level. I hope they did not get traumatized and would still want to come back here in the future.
So yeah, is my experience worth 20k? You be the judge.

why did i say all of those things. why did i treat her like that. she doesnt deserve to be treated like that. i was so fucking close to fixing it all but i had to get cocky and fuck everything up. i seriously had it all in my hands and i let it go, its all my fault. this is so fucking agonizing. my god damn Ego got the best of me and now im back to square one. i really thought i could do it without making fucking blunders, it could've been perfect, but no, i had to fuck this up and it's even worse than last time. why can't i just think straight. i could've just kept calm and navigated it normally, i could've spoke clearer. but no, i had to come in with my fucking selfishness and now it's all gone. its all wasted. i fucked it up. all the hope i can grasp onto is that she'll change her mind but why the fuck would she do that after seeing how i act. i talked too much and look where it got me. this situation could've just been a minor issue that probably could've been wrapped up in a week or 2 at most, but i had to ruin it. she's right, i am a selfish person, and i feel so good about it until it all crashes down on me. i am so fucked. im obsessive, psychotic, and it makes me feel good until it rears its ugly head into other people's shit. but why in fuck did it have to happen last night? it couldnt wait? or is it perpetually there? i dont deserve this

( I just posted this on pro-revenge & got removed for “not being feasible” because I accidentally kept her real name at the end. I assure you my rockstar friend lived this so I’m posting it again)
First I wanna say that this is not my story, it's my best friends & she gave me permission to share. (She's excited to read the comments lol)
So my friend (I'll call her Melissa, 22f) let an old high school pal (I'll call her Karen, 25f) move into her house about a year back. She brought along with her her big dog and two year old son. Melissa knew this would be a big change but Karen assured her they were both well behaved, and she needed a place to stay to get away from her baby daddy. Problems started almost immediately. The dog ruined Melissas couch & Karen did not respect my friends house. She left trash and food everywhere. Karen constantly invited her baby-dad to stay the night despite Melissa saying he was not allowed in her house. The dog & Karen tormented Melissas 1 year old cat to the point where the poor thing never came out anymore. Then to top it off, when Melissa told Karen she had to leave after about 5-6 months, Karen resorted to verbally abuse Melissa. Spreading horrible lies to people (and it's a small town), making fun of medical conditions Melissa has & saying incredibly inappropriate & insensitive things about her mother who struggles with alcoholism. There's more but let's get to the revenge part. Melissa went no contact after she kicked karen out. Fast forward about a month and she receives a call from Karen while she's at the JFS (Job and family services) office. She was asking if she could use Melissa's address for her insurance to "save a buck". My friend said absolutely not and that she doesn't appreciate being asked to commit insurance fraud then hung up. She stewed for a moment then called back. But she didn't call Karen, she called JFS to report her. Karen apparently used her address anyway & was trying to get out of a bunch of medical bills she had stacked up. She was hit with a 28k fine. How did my friend find this out? From Karen's baby daddy....while they hooked up. Oops! Anyway, I definitely am glad I'm on Melissas good side!

3 year old/male/autistic/spd/hypotonia/FTT
I'm mostly just curious.
How severe is a bicarb of 12? How quickly do these numbers drop/dehydration happen in the case of a stomach bug/some puking and diarrhea?
3 year old came down with a stomach bug 2 weeks ago. Got better. Got very sick again with what they suspect was a bad case of rotavirus (he is vaccinated). He was seen Thursday and my concerns were mostly dismissed because he had "enough" wet diapers. By Friday night he was still miserable but all the things the doctor the night before told us to look for weren't an issue and by Saturday he was completely unable to stay awake so was rushed to the ER. He was on IV fluids for about 18 hours and bicarb at admittance was a 12. He has a whole slew of dx that make sickness normally so much worse (autism - limited functional communication, severe aversions/sensory, failure to thrive). We pull out all the tricks on a good day to be successful so on a bad day it escalates so quickly and he has needed IV's before when sick. The nurse kind of scolded me at discharge today and gave me tips so this "doesn't happen again." We do the best and use all the tools in our toolkit. Previously his bicarb had never gotten below 20 so the 12 was shocking...I don't know what more we could have done but I'm just trying to gauge those numbers and take notes.
We see the ped for a follow up and I will discuss this with her further but I want to try and have a game plan to better address his very specific needs. He does still nurse and that was what was sustaining him and he had regular diapers. That said, they said since breast milk was low sodium his body just couldn't fight it more. In hindsight, we could have tried to push more regular fluids.

My boyfriend and I have been dating for a few months now, and it has become our usual routine to exchange good night and good morning texts. However, there have been occasions when my boyfriend, who goes to sleep a lot earlier than me, unintentionally falls asleep during our late night conversations and so it’d end abruptly. I understood so it was fine and he would make up for it in the morning. However, recently he has mentioned that he will be going to sleep but still doesn't send any goodnight texts even when he's online and awake. I have told him my appreciation for those messages, yet he continues to not do it but is fine in the morning. I just feel like he’ll eventually put in no effort towards anything hence the overthinking.
Edit: I know I’m overthinking this but it’s my first relationship and it’s long distance too, so any advice is appreciated!

In April I broke up with my girlfriend. The biggest mistake I have ever done in my life and nobody can tell me otherwise. Since that breakup I have not been the same person. We were living together in our own little apartment. We were together for around 1 and a half year. After that breakup she immediately moved out and back to her mother in another city and I have not seen her once since that. She blocked me on most social media platforms because I couldn't stop texting her, I kinda understand her..
Since this breakup I felt empty. For the first weeks I couldn't even set one foot into "our" apartment and had to stay at my parents house. My parents now helped me get some new furniture because she took some of it, which is ok because some of it was hers. Since then I've been back in this apartment but it just feels so different, I don't feel comfortable here. And you know what, I don't feel comfortable doing anything at all. Nothing makes fun anymore. For the last couple weeks I have been either lying in my bed, listening to music or walking drunk through the city. Everything I do reminds me of her and how we did everything together. When I drive around in my car, I see that empty seat besides me and it makes me cry. Everytime I lay in bed I'll get sad because I have nobody to talk and cuddle with. I can't watch netflix because we always did it together. Even shopping and getting groceries makes me depressed because I see all these memories of us doing it together.
I should be going to university every week and study but I haven't been there even once since this breakup. I know that I broke up with her and I shouldn't even be sad but I am constantly realizing that things could have been handled differently by me and our problems could have been fixed by just talking. And what did I do? I just broke up. And I hate myself for it. I can't even sleep sober anymore, be it alcohol or weed. I have become an addict I think. Something I never wanted to be. Nobody knows that because everybody would be disappointed in me. But if I don't smoke or drink, my mind would lose control at night.
I have actually talked to many people about this breakup and my sadness, they all say that it gets better at some point and I will find someone new, someone better. But it doesn't get better. I even feel like it gets worse. And I don't want someone "new". I want her. I want her personality. Her body. Her voice. Her hand.
One of the few things (besides alcohol and weed) that keeps me a little bit sane is the hope. The hope that maybe one day she will call me. Text me. Maybe stand in front of me and tell me she needs me and forgives me. I am sure this won't happen to 99.9% but that 0.1% gives me enough hope to not give up.
You should also know that I have absolutely no friends in this city. I moved here 2 yrs ago because of university but I haven't made one friend. I am a complete introvert. I tried to change it, go to parks, bars, cafes, clubs but I think I am just to shy and introvert. My ex was my only friend. My only best friend while also being the best girlfriend you could imagine. I have some friends in the city I grew up but it takes 1 1/2 hrs to get there so I don't really have a good connection to them anymore.. I am completely lonely. Every. fucking. day.
Is my behavior normal? Am I normal? Is it normal to be that depressed for over a month after a breakup without it getting better? I just want to feel happy again. I don't really expect any sort of help with this post. I don't even know how anyone could help me lol. But it feels kinda good to vent about it.

Just looking for good old fashion wholesome romance. Someone I can talk to for hours, fall asleep on voice with, maybe play games and watch movies with. Spend time together you know.
So about me, I work as a diesel mechanic, go to the gym 4 times a week. 6'1, I game, I watch movies, I can cook. I know 2 languages and I'm a huge nerd... also have tats.
My goal is to pretty much travel all over the world with sometime special. Historical places are my jam but I love beautiful places too.
Love horror, comedy, action and suspense. Honestly prefer horror but I know it's not everyone's thing. Zombies are the best monsters change my kind. 1982's The Thing is my favorite movie of all time... which has nothing to do with zombies lol. Ghost and demonic movies give me the heebie jeebies.
One on one relationship. No Poly or married

I felt everything in my brain last night
Sometimes life is just a fight
But I Shrug on, because I know
I can help people everywhere I go!
I don't need a crown
To turn that frown upside down
Sometimes it's best to just be
I live love and am free
But what of the horrors conjured in the mind
I can think of so many binds
Yet I keep myself liberated
Because I speak my truth unabated
So for those who wish to throw shade
Check yourself because you just got played
You hurt me, I'll turn the other cheek
I don't need anything because I try to be meek
I don't know if I'm good at all
We'll see how I fair when I fall
But, realistically I believe
Losing everything won't make me grieve
Instead it will humble me greatly
And like that, I will be saintly
So, God, mock me while you still can
I'm Victorious and I am human!

I (27m) am going on a third date with a (26f). The last two dates have been great; she was a little thrown off because she said that no one had ever treated her the way that I do (opening doors, paying, telling her she’s beautiful) and I think that makes her a little bit nervous. At the end of the second date I kissed her and she told me everything about the date was perfect. We click on almost every level and I feel like the chemistry is unreal. We had a third date set up a couple of days ago, she cancelled and went MIA for a couple of days so I called her this morning and set something up for tomorrow night.
I am not one to usually get nervous on dates, but this girl makes my stomach feel like I haven’t felt since teenage love.
Is it too soon to tell her that I like her and I’d like to spend more time with her and get to know her? I don’t want to come on too quick but I would like to make my intentions known. I’m planning on giving her 1 rose at the beginning of the date and bringing this up towards the end of the date.
I don’t know if I’ve just seen too many movies but I think it would be a very sweet and honest gesture. However, I don’t want to come off as a psychopath who’s coming on too quick. Also, as I’m sure a lot of you can relate, I’m tired of wasting time and effort into dates that lead to just sex and nothing meaningful.

Yesterday I took 7,5 g of tampanensis (It's supposed to be enough for a medium experience trip for my weight). It all started with me just being really really happy and feeling like I had nothing to worry about. I felt like it couldn't get better but that was only the beginning, after 20 minutes I was extremely high and talking to myself out loud, laughing non-stop, and not being able to tell if the last 5 minutes had been an hour or just 5 minutes. Then I started to worry beacuse that wasn't the experience I was expecting. I wanted something deep that would teach me more about myself and not just feeling happy. I felt like I was failing myself and everybody else by doing drugs and that even though I was feeling happy it still felt like there was something missing to that feeling of happiness that I could only get with life experiences. I then started to walk back home even though I couldn't walk properly and it was then when I started to actually have philosophical thoughts about life and realized a lot of stuff about myself and about all of the things that happen to us. I started to feel incredibly calm, confident and at peace. I realized everything was part of the lesson and that I had to keep going on with everything. I also realized all of the things I should've done better about my trip so nothing could've gone wrong. Now the trip's over and I'm really confused about it. I still have truffles left but I don't know what to do with them. On one hand I feel disappointed beacuse I'm afraid that I might start experimenting with other stuff and end up hooked on to it but at the same time I want to take them once again some day beacuse I feel like that day I was halfway to actually reaching the interesting stuff but didn't beacuse I didn't take a dose high enough. I also feel like there's still more to learn and they have very interesting things to offer. Also I didn't have any visions or distortions so that was kinda disappointing. Probably no one is going to read this but at least I have taken it off my mind. Good night.